warning, lots of swearing (don't read if easily triggered lol)
I’ve switched to DR ST4. The moderator created a trauma inside me and now I’m afraid to post out of fear that something will get edited.
Lol, jokes aside I looked back at what he’s edited and I think I see what my “problem” is. I don’t knock him in any way, shape or form, I completely understand. I take full accountability for everything in my life, no matter what it is… I never point fingers at anyone. I know that I’m the one who is creating my reality and I’m congruent with that.
So this is what I’ve figured out lol.
I can keep posting but I probably have to make some adjustments:
-no swearing
-can’t have strong opinions that can potentially get triggered by reading it or find it offensive
-can’t write things with confidence because it looks like I’m being authoritative
-have to write things with extreme thought on how triggering it can be (basically like leftist type of bullshit)
-extreme political correctness
I don’t know if I wanna do all that. I don’t go after anybody, I don’t cause drama lol. I’ve been banned only once but that’s because a guy here was wasting time on the forum, acting absurdly strange and I felt sad for him, lol. I was the only one to call him out and give the poor guy a reality check because no one else was stating the blatant obvious. He stopped what he was doing and hasn’t posted on the forum in months. He must’ve finally woke up with ZP and realized that everything I said was true. I only help people but doing so sometimes means giving reality checks and telling the harsh reality which traumatized people get triggered when they read. Some say “that’s not your responsibility”, I say that it depends on the environment. Imagine not giving people the harsh reality or giving them reality checks in a place of utmost growth. What is the point of the place then?
Also…
What is wrong with using swear words? This isn’t an office environment, this is a fucking battlefield of growth. Savages and badasses are being born here. Boys are transitioning into men. Blood, sweat and tears are being spilled through internal challenge, empires are being built. Asses are being brutally kicked by recon as we are forced to face the dark parts within ourselves, heal and unlock complete freedom. Swearing is not anger to offend fragile little egos, it’s passionate energy laced into the message to have a fucking impact. People want to read powerful expression because that’s what moves them into action and hits deeper. It’s vital in a place of maximum growth - which this is. Listen to me very carefully, I don’t give a fuck who is reading this… A place of GROWTH is NOT pretty, it’s not a heavenly sanctuary la la land with flowers and rainbows. A place of GROWTH is light AND dark… it’s emotional, mature and brutal. Shadow selves are surfacing, inner demons are walking around and being faced. Nasty traumas are being unearthed and purged. People are pissed off, as they awaken from lies that they’ve allowed to govern majority of their lives. Is what I’m saying making sense? A place of GROWTH is a place where we have no choice but to see EVERYTHING that we are deathly afraid to look at and it will never be any other way.
I don’t know what kind of box or world people live in, but I do not live there. I don’t like reading sugar-coated robotic bullshit to where what the person wrote is indistinguishable from a fucking A.I… I like to read character, I want to feel the ENERGY of what you’re writing, I want to be fucking moved. I want a switch to flick in my brain and challenge my perception. I WANT to go into cognitive dissonance but only in a way that will GROW me because I’ve embraced the capacity to internalize what’s being said, without looking away and making bullshit wimpy excuses.
I like to be around killers and sharks but I’ll be completely honest - I don’t get enough of that energy here. In real life, my “tribe” encourages me to grow mentally, physically, financially and spiritually. That’s the type of people you want to be around, not super stagnant people that waste time and drain you.
I’ve run Emperor consistently for a long ass time - like a year… I’ve run Khan for nearly half a year, I’ve used other subs for many months all with massive growth - just boom skyrocketed. Sometimes when I come and read stuff here, I feel like a wild wolf hanging around neutered domesticated dogs. As egotistical as that sounds, it’s not. I’m not talking about accomplishments or where one is at in their development, I’m specifically talking about growth energy and forward mindset. It’s just a mindset, anyone regardless of anything can decide to start having that. I rather be around people who haven’t done anything in life who have a fiery energy, rather than someone who is high status/has everything in life but has become complacent and lazy. It’s not about where your at, where your starting, how far you come, what your beliefs/perceptions are… I’m talking about that forward growth ENERGY, which elevates everyone around you.
Because of the subs and stuff, my mindset is just different like I don’t know how to explain it, I don’t see what people see. Like guys, all the subs are here… just run them and start taking action. I don’t know what people are waiting for, lol like just start being a complete badass… NOW. There is no point in waiting for results like it’s Christmas. Santa Claus is not going to swoop down with his reindeer and save anybody’s ass. I’m not talking about everyone, there are a ton of badasses here and they know who they are.
Random Sidenote:
I saw a thread in Emperor’s Lounge recently with 500 push-up accountability for mental strength. It had 40 views and 0 likes/comments and I thought to myself “really?”.
Everyone should be commenting in there “fuck yeah, let’s go. I’m already at 100 push-ups” but instead people probably read his post, got triggered, looked the other way and scurried into their little safety bubbles. That energy needs to be contagious and fed off of. It needs to be fueled and spread like a wildfire, not ignored and kicked sand at.