Luther's SPARTAN ZP Journal

Journals - Major Programs
#322

Anyways, lol.

In the past week, I started playing these games on my phone… just to blow off some steam and chill out. I downloaded them from the app store.

Work is hectic right now… a lot going on.

These games are insanely addictive. 1 hour is gone in a blur and I want to play more.

I need help. LOL.

Next thing you know, I quit working and sell my business for in app purchases, becoming a complete gaming addict.

Someone checks in on me in my journal. “Hey Luther, how’s it going? Ya got any updates”.

Me: :grimacing:

LMAO. I shouldn’t be joking about this stuff. Gaming is a cheat code, it’s too much bursts of dopamine. I’m becoming like a hamster. I need my next fix, my next upgrades, my next levels, my next wins. They got me, they got me good. They got me fast too.

No more Luther. Go back to work. Get your ass back to work. Traveling project.

Voice inside my head: Just one more game. It’s all going to be okay. There, there. Everything is going to be okay.

God help me. God help us all.

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#323

Travelling project 30% complete.

The world is a big place. When I first started looking at places to go to, I felt a little overwhelmed. Kind of like a kid in a candy shop. Once I start ROIing things and getting more methodical with my planning… I got this sense of clarity of knowing exactly where to go and what to do.

I even now have a bucket list as my side-project… of epic moments I want to experience. I have a wild imagination, lol. I intend to manifest them all. I need all types of next level stuff, straight out of fiction actualized in real life.

It doesn’t hurt to live life like an epic movie. Life can be pretty epic when you think about it.

I’m feeling too adventurous lately… the colors are booming and vibrant. All I see is possibility and enjoyment. Live free, live wild, live your dreams. Kick ass, be a badass. Sky’s the limit.

Best thing you can do is live your best life

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#324

I found a re-uploaded version:

#325

hi @Furkan, I see you typing there,

what’s up my brother man

#326

What did happen to your girlfriend?

And luther, I was wondering if your girlfriend uses subliminals.maybe you might use divine diomand

#327

Thank you pergen, for the wonderful suggestion. I will perhaps consider it

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#328
Paperman interesting thoughts and analysis

There are many versions of this short film on YouTube but this specific one has the most perfect re-scoring.

I remember seeing this in a movie theater around a decade ago. Time flies.

On surface level, it seems like a story about love and fate. The story is quite simple and easy to understand.

There are powerful metaphors at play, in what seemingly appears to be an innocent and heartwarming tale.

Something that others have pointed out, is that the piece of paper with the kiss on it… was already trying to go towards the woman across the building, before he threw all of the paper airplanes.

Right at timestamp 1:21. But he stops it from going out the window.

That is an insane manifestation concept hidden in plain sight. He got in the way of his own manifestation by attempting to control everything. Then by attempting to control things, he failed.

That is pretty insane, but this is where it gets flat out spooky.

To prevent that paper from flying out of the window, what does he do? He holds onto it.

The metaphor is that, if he had trusted and let go, the paper would have reached its destination very quickly.

There is another metaphor here, which I thought was quite profound. Every time he threw a paper airplane, it missed and ended up in an alley. One could perceive those as “failures” because they all missed. All of those “failures” actually ended up helping him in the end, to get to where he wanted to be. The combined effort of all of them, like adding up. All of the “failures” brought him to success. That’s deep.

The “supernatural forces” that guide the paper airplanes, represents the reality bringing things together on a metaphysical level. Manifestation stuff. Reminds me of Heartsong, lol.

#329

“I feel that there is nothing more truly artistic than to love people” - Vincent van Gogh(?)

I like this quote, lol

#331

godbless

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#332

Today is one of those days where I fucking feel like my entire being has been injected with morphine and steroids. Good god.

The nature spirits must have blessed me with increased vitality. I have too much energy. I pretty much have the energy of a teenager… I have sex and then want to play fucking sports after.

I’m on go, like fr fr. I figured everything out!!! Hahahahaha

godbless godbless godbless

Time to knock out another day, fuck all the bullshit. Life is good baby.

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#333

The thing about validation seeking, is that once you reach a certain level… you don’t feel anything.

Cashier saying I have really nice eyes, like yeah thanks. I feel literally nothing. In my mind I’m thinking “yeah… I know… I’ve heard it a hundred times, now hurry up”. Shit is mad cringey.

I don’t know what happened to me, but I don’t feel anything with women anymore. I’ve pretty much brutally friend-zoned every woman in my mind. Doesn’t matter if you’re banging hot and giving me all kinds of IOI’s, you have to take it up with the goal post. I don’t make the rules. All of y’all are sisters, straight up. Sisters or daughters, lmao. Maybe mothers, if you’re on that granny type of time. Straight up.

I belong to one woman and one woman only. Otherwise I’m off limits. Don’t touch me, don’t even look at me. Only 1 person can tame me. Only 1 person deserves me.

Lmao.

I don’t know man, I’m still transitioning. The amount of mental bandwidth that has freed up is crazy. I no longer have to waste my time or energy entertaining certain possibilities. I’ve become super grounded. I feel even more comfortable when I’m out in public, it’s this knowing in the back of my mind that I’ve beat the game in a certain area of life. Helps free up my mental space and focus on other things. Hard to explain.

#334

Is it normal to feel this way ?

Because I pretty much feel the same too.

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#335

I feel exactly this.

But I’m told I’m cold and emotionless :confused:

#336

Lmao, yeah… not sure I can relate with you on that.

I meant I don’t feel anything as in I don’t experience a sense of self boost. Around 6 years ago, 1 compliment from a woman would probably make my entire week. Hahahaha.

I still appreciate the positive energy. They took a liking to something about my being and chose to express it… so I look at it as an exchange and do the same. Or I appreciate it as a form of feedback and co-creation (metaphysical concept).

I don’t know, I just don’t feel any increase in self-esteem or self-worth like most people do. It’s very hard to “boost me”. 99.5% of the time, I find myself trying to do the “boosting” for others. When I see insecure people, I’m always the one trying to boost their self-esteem. Lmao. I do this all the time at parties and social gatherings.

I don’t coddle people but sometimes there really is no other option. It’s like what am I supposed to do, just be hard-frame all the time and start handing out traumas to people. Especially super fragile people. I’m a strange individual, I get enamored by people’s innocence. Virgins, people with low self-esteem, super introverts, people who feel ugly, etc. Some part of me is completely enamored, and I don’t know why. Well actually I do, but the articulation for that requires too much brain power.

I don’t even know what the fuck I’m talking about in this post anymore, I just started rambling.

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#337

I don’t validate them at all and I don’t need their validation
I also see past their cheap crap.

I like substance not lipstick and other superficial crap.

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#338

Lol I see what you mean. What subs you running Pac

#339

There, there. Come into my warm embrace, dear friend.

:laughing:

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#340

LBFH
Sanguine Elixir

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#341

Alpha as fuck.

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#342

Nobody will ever be as squishy as me.