Luther's SPARTAN ZP Journal

Journals - Major Programs
#269

I can’t even consider other women, lol.

My partner is not perfect, but she’s perfect.

Having her is like, I can’t look at other women. She has them beat in my eyes… on all levels. She’s not “better” it’s just that she fits me more, to the point that I’m sexually/romantically uninterested in anyone else.

You could bring me 20 naked supermodels and won’t even hesitate to turn them all away. It’s not in me.

A lot of guys say these things, despite not being in an actual situation. We as humans like to mentally masturbate hypothetical scenarios.

It’s kind of like when people see a video of a heated situation. They all say “if I was there, I would’ve done x and x”. For a lot of these people, it’s like… no the fuck you wouldn’t. You wouldn’t do jack shit.

Especially with the “tough guy” type of situations. The point is, there’s a different between imagining a scenario versus actually being in it.

Another example: Public Speaking.

Before you have to do your presentation you’re speaking from a place of comfort “Oh hell yeah I can knock this presentation out, it’s easy, I’m not nervous”. Then you get up there and start sweating, stuttering and have no confidence.

It’s easy to to talk and mentally masturbate. But the real situations put you to the test. They bring the truth out of you. Your real character.

When I say that I would reject 20 naked women… I’ve already fucking done this shit. Lol. I’ve been in situations like this. One just recently where I had just finished a workout, sexually aroused and my partner was at work. A “friend” texted me all types of wild stuff. I calmly set new boundaries. I’ve become way off the richter when it comes to self-control and temptation. Nothing controls me anymore, I’ve just become a better version of myself. Overcoming those scenarios has just skyrocketed my confidence, like nobody can tell me shit. I see men and I immediately gauge them like “yeah, you definitely crack. You would crack like a motherfucking walnut in a heartbeat”. Challenge, growth, scenarios, experience, development. Need to move the goal post. Become the best version of yourself. At this point, I’m honestly not even tempted. Genuinely through my entire being, it’s not there. I can’t. Nobody can give me the romantic/emotional/sexual/intimate experience that I get from my partner. That wholesome, electric, empathic, healing, divine type of shit. Nobody. I don’t care. Like fuck, I don’t have nothing else to figure out here, the clarity is too strong.

This is a funny thing which I need to think about more.

I’ve written on here that I would never consider monogamy and now I’m a full monogamous relationship. I was being super ignorant. Glad I made that choice because this is a different level. Can’t believe I denied this from myself, lol.

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#270

back to the wealth games i go lol

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#271

… what else am I denying from myself?

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#272

Lol, thought about trolling Day 600 of WANTED BLACK ZP.

Can’t really go more crazy without going into X rated territory.

Kind of like… Dillon Francis - Not Butter.

My thoughts on that music video are so polarizing. I hate the video so much but I have to respect the creative thought, it’s brilliant.

I love things that conflict me and polarize me. It’s a certain form of depth. Weird stuff

#273

Kind of like movie villains that deep down you agree with on some level.

Complexity of motivation and ideology

#274

I recommend solely viewing the thread through this feature.

lol

Will save you a lot of mental bandwidth…

and brain cells.

#275

When are you running WANTED Black?

#276

LOL, I plan to try it when I’m free. I’ll probably just do 1 loop and that’s it.

Can’t do that this month because the schedule is too strict. Too many things going on, it would be irresponsible and impulsive of me to just run a loop.

My plan is to play the wealth game for a bit and then in October/November get more serious on my physical fitness with something like LoTS.

Sex/Romance is just nowhere near priority on the radar. In that context, I would probably run Divine Diamond or Heartsong.

Right now I’m in full wealth accumulation mode, with a side obsession of travelling and a smaller sider interest in cooking.

My typical day at the moment is 20% expanding my travel project (starting to become obsessed with exploring dishes that I’ve never tried), 10% cooking, 70% wealth.

Listening to Wanted Black right now is like throwing a wrench in my system and destabilizing everything, like it makes no sense. I have to stay organized, despite temptation.

By the way, I noticed that cooking a meal helps immensely with recon. Like just cooking yourself something nice for the day. Super bueno. - chef kiss-

hahaha

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#277

Nature Walk + Homemade meal + Workout + Tea

Put on some beautiful music, troll the partner…

It’s the simple things hahaha

When it comes to this 2025 travelling project… it’s the most exciting thing I think about currently. It will be the most epic thing I’ve experienced so far. My partner perceives similarly to me so it’s going to be more even amazing to share it with her.

Somewhere next year, I’m going to go do like a little travel vacation to get the grooves growing. Like a test-run.

I have too many things I need to do and explore… so many moments I visualized that are too epic. I would explode from experiencing them hahaha.

I’m manifesting this daily and I anchor myself to abundance while working on the wealth game. Just trying to craft my reality with the same principles I always use.

One thing I realized is that my ideal reality doesn’t really involve me visiting a forum. It affects state a little too much… it’s not really aligned with the heaven on earth wavelength. Hard to explain.

I have long-term plans but they’re super clear, intuitive and rigid. Like certain things I just know I’m not going to change, it’s just like “yup, that’s the next move”. I feel that way about my travelling project. Otherwise I don’t know what else to do… lmao I’d just stagnate.

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#278

2 posts without swear words, fucking hell Luther, you’re slipping

#279

You know it’s funny. This syncs up with the intro description to Genesis. Not the video, I mean what you wrote.

There are eight billion people living on Earth. There is so much LIFE here, so many events going right now that would blow your mind. If I asked you to think of the craziest thing happening on Earth right now, most likely, the image you’d think of has something to do with your personal experience — maybe an echo of past adversity. Yet, the reality of the situation surpasses that of our individual perspectives. The multitude of experiences unfolding simultaneously across the planet at this very moment is so vast that the sheer enormity and diversity of these experiences could leave you breathless at the absolute spectacle of life on Earth.

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#280

Wow, that’s weird. Interesting stuff…

That video kind of is related when you think about it. That ending where he just walks on the beach. Everyone is doing there own thing, nobody has a clue. Very thought-provoking.

I like stuff like that… gets you thinking differently. Hahaha

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#281

Been running Genesis for a bit now. I’ll randomly get those moments you were talking about. It’s a cool sub to facilitate that expansive awareness. Even before I ran it it though I agree with you people’s definition of their “world” is microscopic. Me included lol, working on changing that though.

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#282

A fun little exercise I do sometimes.

I look at a piece of art - could be any type.

Then I try to articulate as much as possible what it evokes out of me.

I explain how it makes me feel and why it makes me feel that way.

Sometimes I’m just being brutally honest with myself “it feels… dull”.

But I like to figure out why. It’s a puzzle. Everything is a puzzle. I’m a puzzle too.

I don’t know, I find it to be an interesting exercise that helps me develop a lot of things at once.

Developing appreciation for art, understanding my emotions, and practicing articulation. It grounds you in expression.

This process of turning visuals into emotions/feelings and then into words. It’s like a “workout”.

I don’t know what I’m working out though. LMAO.

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#283

And then there’s another level to this as well.

Where you find someone else and get them to do same thing.

Then you compare with each other.

Now you’re working out communication, empathy, understanding of another person and you’re both trying to figure out the puzzles.

I love stuff like this lol

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#286
my thoughts on this video (spoilers lol)

Many cool things about this video. So many inadvertent layers.

A lot of people say that the story is about self-acceptance.

It’s easy to see why.

In my opinion, there is another layer of depth that adds even more brilliance to this video. It’s a layer of depth not often thought about.

I like to think outside of the box, lol.

The thing I find fascinating about this video, is the transformative experience of the viewer.

There is an introspective lesson on judgment, indirectly embedded in the storytelling.

This is quite deep.

Most people when they first watch this video, they dislike the boy because of how he treats the puppy.

They judge him. Strongly too.

Then once the plot twist occurs, everyone goes “Ohhhh”. Then they get it. They understand the boy.

So in 1 minute, they go from disliking the boy to understanding him with sympathy.

That transformative effect of the plot twist on the viewers’ perception of the boy, is insane.

I love it, lmao.

So the indirect lesson is snap judgments can be misleading. True understanding requires taking the time to delve deeper into someone’s circumstances.

I feel like… much like people, when you understand the different layers of art or the layers of beauty, it allows you to appreciate even more. Even the not so obvious ones. The overshadowed ones. But oh they’re there. Lol.

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#287

I love when complexity, richness, nuance and hidden aspects are in plain sight begging to be perceived.

I sometimes just look at things that one would assume has no lesson, and think to myself “what is the lesson here”. Almost like a detective, lol.

Treasures hidden everywhere. Puzzles everywhere. Clues everywhere.

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#288

I also like how, when you watch it the 2nd time… you can now put yourself in the boy’s perspective and now fully understand his facial expressions, mannerisms and what he’s thinking at that very moment. And also the intricate details of foreshadowing… yeah it’s easy to see why such a video has so many awards, lol.