There is a good module to fight your bad habits if there are any 
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I don’t have any bad habits, lol
@Deadpool all of this is basically turning what’s going on subconsciously and internally from subliminal use and every day life, into a story. It’s a powerful way to create context for what’s going on internally and look at it from a clearer and different viewpoint. You’re literally converting internal processes based on fears, doubts, emotions, realizations, conflictions and state, into stories. Something tangible that carries imaginative weight. Also, a creative practice. This is basic reframing, and a viable journaling strategy.
You don’t have to read my journal if you don’t like it or find it confusing, lol.
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That is great!
But it is also hilarious 
I once heard a story from an Ukrainian dad who taught his young daughter to laugh each time a bom exploded as a way to not get traumatized that much. Very smart
Explanation:
My goal is to legitimately reach millionaire status.
I have to go way outside of my comfort zone. I’ve been doing it every day, I’m going into the unknown. I have lots of challenges ahead of me. I’m moving goal-posts internally and overcoming subconscious fear.
This dialogue is bravery, courage and independence. That’s how I feel, the mindset I’m developing and how I’m interfacing with my internal recon as I move forward.
All I did was, instead of just blandly writing down all of that - I turned it into a creative dialogue/story.
Odin, because if you read all of my posts on here then you would know I’m into viking shit.
This stuff is for me, and I know what it is. My journal is for me, I shouldn’t have to explain all of this to someone who is reacting to my journal.
I shouldn’t have to journal and then also explain shit for another audience - the fuck, lol. If this is seriously something I have to do, someone let me know because I just won’t journal on here then. Deadass. Journaling is not a performance, a clarification, nor an accommodation for an audience outside of yourself.
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This is also another journaling strategy which I’ve already had to explain before.
Instead of just saying “Today, I felt very confident”… that’s not enough to encapsulate how I actually felt internally so this is one of the ways that can be used to do that. Then I go back and look “how did I feel on x day” when revisiting my journals. Also, a creative exercise.
I can’t believe I actually have to explain this shit, but this is what you have to do when you go on a superficial place like the internet.
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Waldo, is nothing more than an extremely creative metaphor, symbol and anthropomorphism for uncanny coincidences (common in the realm of subliminals and manifesting), which I’ve already explained and have been milking to the next level - which I often do. I already do it with caricature… if I’m playing Dungeons & Dragons, I stay in character even after the game ends… for the rest of the week. Finding more and more creativity in how I interface it with the world.
That’s one thing I do to stimulate creativity, I take concepts and go as far as I possibly can in both depth and projection to see what I unearth and what I can connect it to.
One cannot be thinking one dimensionally with things, and then expect to come up with some crazy shit that nobody else thought of. If everyone is going right, I go left. If everyone is going only 10% deep, I’m going 1000% deep.
Obviously, Waldo is not an actual real thing that’s invisible and running around… it’s an inside joke.
I’m a creative person… you kind of have to be if you want to generate million dollar ideas. I’m the type of person to watch a movie I’ve never seen before, backwards and on mute… then write out what I think the plot is and compare it to the actual plot.
I just realized that all of my journals are messy and have rants, emotional swings, signs of recon, frustrations, dissonances, raw confessions about self or internal issues. I’ve literally put most of my shit on here, lol. Damn near everything. I have referenced every main moment of my childhood and upbringing, my deepest spiritual beliefs, my views on everything, the developments of different areas of my life and how they unfolded, all of my internal issues I ever had, every trauma I experienced. My entire personality is on here unfiltered, all of my quirks, my trolling, my sense of humor, my deepest aspirations, my why’s and my why not’s. I don’t operate in the realm of superficiality, I progress because I face everything, no questions asked. I’ve never been afraid to because I’m obsessed with growth and do whatever is required.
I’m proud of myself, lmao.
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I’ve gotten my ass kicked so many times, fuck lol.
80% of my life I absolutely hated myself, felt worthless and like a complete failure with no direction. I’ve been the average joe and out of shape. I’ve had the life-threatening health problems from self-neglect and not wanting to give up beliefs or face emotional issues. I’ve been the porn binger and the TV show binger. I’ve been the super dependent on the demanding parents and failing to meet expectations. I’ve had the friend group use me for my intellect and then ditch me. I’ve been looked down upon by my relatives for drinking heavily at family functions. I’ve been bullied and been the bully in my early childhood. I remember every single time I got bullied and I remember the first time vividly, the time I bullied someone. I’ve been in dumb physical altercations doing stupid shit. I’ve gotten fired from jobs for being dumb. I’ve had all of the generational wealth trauma and beliefs from growing up in a low income household. On and on and on… there’s just too much, I can’t even remember it all.
very very long continuation
I often pull things out of my childhood or teenage years almost photographically and with reference to, because I’ve revisited it so many times over and over again to reconcile. My subconscious mind popped up everything when I was working through it and I had to be at peace with things through things like self-love, lessons and patience.
First 20+ years of my life was just “Here you go, learn trauma”. Boom.
No purpose, just a complete mess, full of insecurity, hating myself, comparing myself to others all of the time and feeling inadequate. Felt like I had the short end of the stick and that life was unfair. That it was over for me. I went down all of the rabbit holes and further grew my self-defeatist hopeless mindset. I found other people to confirm it for me. I went deeper. I hated myself even more. I neglected myself even more. A bottomless pit of misery. My health got worse. Around the time I dropped out of college. It was just so depressing. Not any therapist levels of mental illness or crazy shit… but just the typical powerless mindset. The people that go to therapy and are on that type of level - I can only imagine what that’s like.
I woke up one day when my health was really bad and I just went “Enough. I’m tired of this shit.”
I created a strong feeling, assertion, intention and willingness… that whatever I had to do, it doesn’t matter I would do it. I would let go of anything. Whatever was required for me to change my life, have a better life and stop living in misery… I opened up to it and I would do anything to get there.
Almost like begging to sell your soul to the devil, but instead of the devil I was begging for change in my life with the willingness to do whatever was necessary for that change.
That’s all it was, it was an intention and a willingness. A declaration of readiness with no turning back.
Every morning and night I did that, for months. It was like a morning ritual.
My logic was “well, if I go out like this, at least I wasn’t in my own way. I’m genuinely ready for change”. I didn’t know what to do but I was ready - that’s all that matters.
I don’t know why I did that. Probably because I had been turning to religion/god/universe/ etc, just a basic psychology of yes being skeptical of forces beyond yourself but giving them the benefit of the doubt because you really don’t have any other option. I didn’t have time for skepticism because it was either skepticism or you die and live miserable. Lmao. So, I played along with that route… also probably subconsciously there’s some background there as I have relatives who are into basic prayer and religion. Who knows the influence that I’m unware of.
After I did that, I then became the most humble, no-ego version of myself. I never talked shit, I stop complaining about everything and I pretty much kneeled to everything that came my way without judgement. I completely accepted where I was at. I just nodded at everything. All I had was my 1. readiness/willingness and 2. Go. I became a full on student. A learner. Rather than a complainer. A student but I was anchored to that willingness and I let the unfolding become the teacher.
I was going completely off of trust because again no other option. Almost like a last resort coping mechanism, except this coping mechanism turned out to actually work.
The readiness and willingness paved the way.
I then went through a journey of self-help and discovery of subliminals, etc. I was led to knowledge. I was led to strategies. I reconciled so much shit. I faced so much shit. I got my ass kicked so many times. I just kept going and moving. I became obsessive and fell in love with the process. My life just kept getting better the more I faced myself and worked through myself. I learned what it means to be human. I moved the goal-posts. None of it was easy. A lot of swearing, a lot of running around in circles, a lot of denial and trying to push things back down because I was afraid to admit or face them. A shit ton of self-sabotage. A whole ton of fear. Self-love was very key, I spent 2 years doing just self-love work and teaching myself patience “it’s okay bro. It’s okay”. First 20 years of my life, I didn’t even know what self-love was. Accepting, loving or appreciating myself was a foreign concept in my being. That’s a big lesson right there.
When I wanted to develop spirituality and expand, all I did was the same thing. I just created that readiness in myself that “I’ll do anything. I’ll let go of any belief, I’ll let go of my ego, it doesn’t matter”. Like really letting go of anything. Your desires, your hedonisms, your clingy beliefs that you’re like “no, it doesn’t matter nobody can ever change this”, the judgements of this and that… I was like “whatever, anything I’ll let go”. I have that ingrained in my mind to never judge the process or get in my own way because of that low situation in my life where it was a catalyst.
Shit is crazy, but over time my life changed, my beliefs changed, I overcame a lot of the traumas. I moved through a lot of recon. I’ve done all of the compulsory distracting, trying to run away and overcoming the subconscious fear, etc. I just kept going with what unfolded. I learned all the shit.
I have friends who use TikTok, watch porn, are not physically active, watch Netflix and etc. I love all of them. I socialize with people like this and I love all of them. I get along with anyone. I only become turbo when it comes to the realm of growth. People who want big transformation, growth and change… there’s a reality to it which I’m very passionate about because it’s all I stand for.
Very much like if my average friend wants to just live life a certain way, that’s not a big deal. But they if want to do tremendous growth and change, you can’t coddle or let them half-ass things.
Or another analogy, being in the gym. Some people are there to do there casual thing but others are there for a massive goals and higher purpose. Growth is the only realm of life that I get a little polarizing or out of pocket because it’s a super passionate and serious thing to me. High level growth is high level growth, goal posts moving, transcending mediocrity, cultivating yourself into a badass, shadow self, coping mechanisms etc. I treat it all with respect. You can’t coddle or leave stones unturned - not in growth. It’s anti-growth. Growth can get really dirty. Everything is challenged, internally, emotionally, perceptually. It’s the habitat of dissonance. But if it’s not about growth, then I’m a wholesome marshmallow, lmao.
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I have huge respect for you Luther.
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Likewise champ, lol
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October 21st, Saturday is no day off.
Today will be the same deal. I aim to finish 2/16 today or finish most of it and touch it up tomorrow.
Won’t even tune in to ufc, lol.
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Synchronicities are fucking absurdly ballistic right now, I’ve encountered 10 of them “what in the fuck” level type in the last 3 days…
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The nuttiest one by far happened this morning… yesterday I was looking at quotes for a quote of the day to post in my journal. I saved one that said:
“A dream written down with a date becomes a goal. A goal broken down into steps becomes a plan. A plan backed by action makes your dreams come true.”
Today my girlfriend texted me this exact quote, I don’t know how. She said that she saw it scrolling on IG and “thought of me”.
I don’t care about any of this shit but it’s real extra lately, like 3-4 a day lol. Whatever
I just ate some pizza for lunch, now going to go straight obsessive mode for the next 14 hours, literally. with probably a 45 minute break for dinner and other 15 minutes total for pee breaks of course.
I have a social group chat which I’m a part of and people are inviting me to watch ufc however I’m declining everything and have turned notifications off. I don’t have any fomo, which is great.
I might just leave this group chat, it’s the only one I’m a part of because the ROI isn’t that low but my ROI has become very high as of late and continuously increases. Other groups that I’ve joined in the past, I always leave because after a day I have to scroll though 500+ messages of absolutely fucking nothing garbage, low ROI, low value, absurdity. I find that men use these groups to just horse around, confirm each others limiting beliefs, give each other excuses, waste time and give themselves a watered down illusion of “socializing” - it’s been the case for every one I’ve joined in the past. The one I’m in currently while not full of garbage like that, also seems to be a distraction lately, I don’t know I’m just not in tune. The mindset I’m developing is quite the animal, lol.
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Painting of the day:
Divine/Transcendent flow state
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Where everything seems to align in the person’s favor, due to a transcendent influence
internal outpour of millionaire journey bullshit mixed with high levels of recon
I wish I could generate million dollar ideas but I don’t think I could handle that, lmao.
Instead, I have 16 ideas that I have 2000% confidence I can take to a level that makes 4k/month or 50k/year minimum. Based off of a whole bunch of things. How much they expand beyond those numbers in terms of potential is up in the air. I don’t want reasonable speculation to turn into mental masturbation because then that can get into my head and fuck me over. That’s something I need to be aware of. Moving income goal-posts requires a certain mindset is what I’m learning. I’m not congruent with that mindset and I’m getting my ass kicked.
My strategy to reach millionaire status is simply 16 x 50k = 800k. Then on top of what I already make and theoretical potential… that’s close enough to a million/year.
Of course this all sounds spectacular on paper, but then comes the fucking putting it all in motion which takes VAST amounts of time, energy, effort, learning on the fly, adapting to challenges and etc, while ALSO making sure that my attention doesn’t upset the balance of everything fucking else I have going on in my life. I am already getting less sleep than I usually do. This is what subs are allowing me to do. Feeling like Eddie Morra from Limitless (movie) - thanks to the subs… helps, lmao. Especially in the taking action and productivity department. This shit is daunting and that’s an understatement. Without relentlessness, nothing is going to get done and this is all just a fleeting fairytale begging to be actualized. I can never give up on this, ever. Fuck no, this is the hero story and adventure flare that I needed to get out of my temporary complacency. A real story, a purpose. Something grand, that adds value to my life. A challenge outside of my comfort zone that has rewards. Fuck yeah. I will stop at nothing. I don’t care.
If I didn’t have a girlfriend, a bunch of daily responsibilities and a main job… maybe things would be more feasible. Fuck it, I’ll go tooth and nail balls to the wall… this here is my commitment. My word, my bond. Ain’t no way I’m about to back out on this shit. I’m grateful to have a girlfriend who supports me and is patient with me when I’m in recon, I think she’s a legit angel. But I need to go to some dark places for this one. This is probably the biggest venture of my life… approaching women was trivial compared to this. Everything I’ve ever done is trivial compared to this. I never saw the hype of this wealth game, my ass is so humbled as shit right now… like I see now. Y’all got it. I’ll give y’all that. Talk your shit. I’m coming though. I’m gonna be right there with you, hold tight.
Now I’m being faced with one of my biggest blocks… which is impatience. I want to do all of this before I turn 30 which Isn’t too far… and I also keep obsessing over millionaire, millionaire, millionaire. I am going to get in my own way and fuck myself over. I’m looking too far ahead due to impatience. If I don’t take my time and pay attention to details, I won’t maximize things and my confidence in numbers come with what I can maximize.
It’s equivalent to being an MMA fighter against a tough opponent that you need to do a whole training camp for, and then looking 10+ fights ahead. Like no, you need to focus on each opponent at a time and not get too far ahead of yourself. This is what I’m grappling with and need to let go.
I’m rushing things I need to slow it down. I need to slow down my scope and focus more on steps. I need to be at peace with taking my time, without taking too much time. That’s brutal to me at this moment. Whatever, I’ll get it done. Less complaining, more doing Luther. Honestly, I’m enjoying all of this despite the recon and despite the challenges. I feel like this is what I’m supposed to be doing… I feel aligned.
This post is inspired by… making a very simple but crucial mistake at a time that I shouldn’t be making mistakes. Fucking bullshit.
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I haven’t switched from RICH to NWE yet, because I’m in such stable and early phase where I need familiarity, I can’t be doing risks or introducing new titles into my subconscious… I have too many deadlines, high pressure and need undivided focus.
I don’t know how I might respond if I do a 3 min loop of a new title… if I get taxed, or any other type of recon that can throw me off unconventionally… I’m fucked because every day of this month I need to be at 90%, and I’m already getting less sleep than I usually do. New stuff at the moment is an unwise risk for me to take. I can’t even risk a day, I have presentations lined up where I have to be godly basically, lol.
However, I will most definitely switch to NWE or Nouveau Rich somewhere in the middle of November.
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Went to sleep early instead of staying up until 2-3am. Feeling rejuvenated, mind is working better.