Has anyone running LB cultivated profound self love? I sometimes feel better about myself then go whole days feeling anxious for whatever reason. I’m probably being impatient because I know it can take a lot of time to go from developing deep within to blossoming in how a person feels and with behavior
Maybe this is part of the unfolding process that’s been discussed on other threads and I just need to let it take whatever time it takes
How would you define profound?
Compared to where I came from, it’s astonishing where I am after just 2.5 months of LB.
And yes, I know how you feel. Perhaps not as drastic, but this ups and downs are normal. But in my observation it seems like my downs today are much better then the highs 2 months ago. So it’s a constant way upwards.
I plan to rotate LB out for two cycles and let it just bloom. After two months on Primal, I hope to have the funds for a LB and Primal custom to continue my LB journey.
I have noticed that you say this several times in many posts so thought I would help you with this in relation to self-love.
Cause self-love can mean something too difficult and abstract, I think a better and easier way to look at it is through a small example on how you feel a certain way regarding certain things.
Impatience is a feeling. Nothing inherently wrong with that. But if you feel it too often, then it cripples you. Same with fear, anger, lust, etc. Too much of it and you can’t get anything else done. Have them at the right moments, so to speak.
Okay so back to impatience. What would I recommend one does when one feels it when having Love Bomb in his or her stack? Quite simple actually. I say do this: “I forgive myself for being impatient. I accept myself being impatient. I love myself regardless of my impatience”.
After the New Forgiveness Experience and New Love Experience kicks in from this experience, you feel a whole lot better cause you will feel your body relax.
Now you are in a much better position to introspect. “Why am I impatient? Is it cause I feel I don’t have much time on my hands? Why feel impatient then? Won’t it waste more of my time? To heck with impatience!”
Say all that and feel much better. Accept that you are fine the way you are. You have dreams and you are on the way to achieving them.
If you feel you have less time due to health constrains, run Paragon Complete with Love Bomb. If you are impatient with your programming skills, you run Love Bomb with Index Gate. If you feel you want to destroy your wealth limits, run Ecstasy of Gold. “Why wait for EoG NSE???” you say. And then say “Wait a minute, am already running EoG ST1! Lion has no idea what he talking about! Hmph!”
Things like that. Do the same with the other feelings you have. Rinse and repeat.
EDIT: this way, you grow your self-love bit by bit instead of feeling you have to love yourself all at once.
EDIT 2: I have also noticed that I get flashbacks of people wronging me and I forgive them for it even if I don’t feel like it. If helps heal the wounds in us. Many a time doing the same things we are angry at others for.
Wow. Realizations popped up while I just imagined writing. I’m not James, but I’ll throw in my recent experience on LB
For me (and I post this thinking I’m not alone here)…love has never been difficult. Nor abstract.
I’ve avoided self-love since…I realized my heart was opening, and … I had been blaming myself for getting hurt when I’d had it open before. Just the memories of my own self-rejection have kept my walls up. I didn’t want to relive that pain once again.
Nothing abstract about that. Just…painful. My lesson learned was “I got hurt. I won’t do that again”. And I haven’t. And I’ve avoided any memories of doing that as well since… I’ve judged myself harshly, finding weaknesses in my “reasons” before.
Basically, I distanced myself from the truth. I disconnected a long time–since it was “safe”. But after enough time, I realized that “safe”…was unhappy. Not allowing love in. Not sharing love with others. Not trusting people. Not understanding why people gravitate towards each other. Which brings more sadness and pain.
No. “Safe” isn’t happy. It’s not fulfilled. Not breathing life in its entirety.
Loving myself and others can be scary AF. But I’d prefer to do that any day over hiding my light full-time. Not giving. Not receiving.
I said self-love wasn’t difficult or abstract…but honestly, sometimes I’m like “WTF is going on here?”
I think it’s because I’m used to using old tools in life. Love doesn’t use “tools”. It just gives. It just shares. And it cares. Which just boggles my mind. Because it’s all new to my experience of life.
And @Lion, maybe I’m walking into the New Forgiveness Experience now. I just posted that reply, and part of me spoke up with “WhyTF did you do that?!” My heart’s opening, and writing that exposes me again to another possible painful experience.
Yeah. I’m facing something. Why do I think this? Because it doesn’t make any sense to my old ways. None at all. It’s definitely at work.