2025-09-10T18:30:00Z
Day 21
New Wanted
As the Americans went on a manhunt for Charlie Kirk’s assassin, I was hunting my shadows.
I was in deep contemplation on the systems that I live in and that trigger parts of me to react a certain way.
Just to be clear, there were certain topics I agreed with Charlie. But there were a few topics I had an extreme disagreement with him. I won’t state what those topics are to keep the forum as free of politics as possible. And because it isn’t important really.
The significance is that systems like politics, religion and nowadays even science and their prophets have the frequent tendency to get us to react to them. Especially with regard to a dynamic of us vs them.
This is a very tempting offer and we as humans have this natural instinct to be tribal in order to protect ourselves by giving ourselves a higher chance of survival by joining with groups.
But these days in modern times when safety is more assured (statistically speaking), the tribal instinct has been hijacked to control us.
But even that doesn’t matter. Because the crucial point is, such control won’t happen without our consent. And since many of us have shadows which we haven’t faced, we project that darkness to ‘them’.
In this way, the cause of our pain is always the other side. It is women, if you are a man. It is men if you are a woman. It is leftists, if you are right wing. And vice versa. Religion vs Atheism. Country vs Country. Race vs race. And so on and so forth.
Even for the most knowledgeable, it is elites vs the common man. Or the demiurge vs sparks of the monad.
It is easy to project all our shadows elsewhere. To blame them for our bad life circumstances. That way we can continue to supress our shadows deep inside. Call ourselves the good guys. Cause you know, the other side is the bad guys. And it right for us to badmouth them. Dehumanize them. De-monize them.
It is easy and it helps take attention away from our problems for a little while. We feel empowered from ‘righteous’ fury. An energy that only dulls our pain for a while. Like an addiction to drinks or drugs. Or a simple dopamine hit from pmo.
Until our shadows show up unexpected another time and we go on a rampage of feeling helpless and stuck. And we wait for another ‘system alarm’ to happen to one of these systems to forget our shadows again.
And so I forced my shadows out of myself today. My skeletons came dancing out, grins and all, thinking I wouldn’t be able to face them today. And I hugged them. Brought them into my heart and accepted them. And they vanished in the light. Shadows turning to smoke in the light of awareness. Their energy suddenly converted and filling me. I relax. The tension on my face disappears to symbolise the loss of perpetual clutching to my inner demons.
There is no more guilt when I look at my ex-shadow. No feeling of resentment at the event. No anger at myself. We are all human anyways.
Now I can focus on creating my reality without darkness being in the way. Without having to wish that my past was a certain way to be deserving of a certain better future.
I need not feel undeserving because now I deem myself worthy, continuing to integrate the whole of myself, dark and light.
I am at peace.
May the dead rest in peace. And may the living be at peace too.
