Today’s my second day of washout and I still await my custom. Meanwhile last night, while having sex last night, I wanted to go for the second round but she wasn’t having it and she was saying she’s tired. At first I decided to ignore her and sleep but then I thought about it and said, lemme push further and maybe that’s what she wants me to do. So I kept on trying to make her have sex again, I tried different strategies till she accepted and I fucked her. Later on in the night I noticed she was coming closer probably anticipating a third round. This taught me a vital lesson, sometimes women want to see how much you want this and if you persist, she’ll surely succumb, they dont want it to appear that they are so easy. I used this as a reference to a girl that’s been coming to my house but refused to have sex with me even though it’s obvious that she’s attracted to me. She doesn’t want to appear cheap, she just wants me to have the impression that she’s hard to get
Today’s my 3rd day of washout.
I’ve had some rejections lately and because of that I can feel my old patterns wanting to creep in. Today I’ve caught my self multiple times wanting to feel bad or having low self esteem that I’m not good enough or I don’t deserve whatever it is I want to experience. Might possibly be recon. I’m also feeling demotivated. This is one of the reasons I picked Carpe Diem Ascended, Eye of the Storm and Emotions Unfettered for days like this when I’m feeling low or down to go on my task without letting it stop me. Cos I know my custom might be a bit dense due to Khan and someday I might need an extra push…
I’ve also stopped texting any of the girls I’m chatting with foe the mean time. I’m just feeling like I want to be left alone this past few days.
Looking forward to your custom journey.
I would do in your position a few days extra washout before the custom…
Thanks. I was actually thinking of that especially after listening to diamond and mind’s eye which werent in my stack. Like how many days more of washout do you recommend?
It is hard to come up with an objective number, in my opinion take the 5 days off and try to feel when the right time is. The decision should not come from fear (I have to start the custom as early as possible, otherwise I miss something) but from a stable confident ground. Stable and confident means that for a few days you come to the same confident decision without a fear in the background.
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What does it mean if I ordered a custom yet I can’t find it in my download and it says" Order #2023837 was placed on July 6, 2022 and is currently completed "
Have you checked your email? All customs are emailed to you and are not placed in the download section on the Q-site.
Seen. Thanks a lot
Listened to my custom and Ascension chamber.
Thus morning so far I feel good and chill just wanting to be left alone in my lane. I’ve also been thinking of quitting Marijuana as I feel it’s come to the stage in my life that it’s a deterrent. I don’t know if it’s only just my mind or whatsoever but I feel I’ll be so much better without it. Meanwhile I haven’t thought of what I’d use as my third stack. I’m considering mind’s eye, R.I.C.H, PCC, Ascension or going back to QL stage 1 to rebalance my hormones and system and that’ll be if I’m quitting Mj.
Meanwhile I’m curious as to how the mogul/Wealth scripting in Khan would complement the secrets of Akasha modul and Sultan module in khan/wanted custom
I finally decided to go for PCC. I listened for 3 mins so I won’t overload myself
Why is this the case? If by whatever reason the downloaded file was lost and the email deleted it seemed to be difficult to download the file again. Moreover what’s the point of having a download section when it is not holding the files 
Out of my field of knowledge, but my guess is that it will take up a lot of storage space on their end after a while. What I do is just save them onto an external source like Google Drive or similar.
What problems do I want to solve? I found myself asking this question which will help me become clearer with my long term goals and purpose in life. So I’ll dedicate my time to look around and look for the problems I can solve and I’m compelled to solve from an inner feeling
Today’s my listening day and I’m meant to listen to PCC. But I was thinking of listening to my custom. But on a second thought I’d listen to PCC. Meanwhile I noticed effects of Gratitude Embodiment work at hand. I woke up and was feeling bad about certain situations in my life but a thought just came in that I should list the things I’m not happy about and turn them into a weapon so I give gratitude for the situations and it was so easy unlike before because normally I have a daily gratitude practice I do which I haven’t done on a while now for like 4days. So I won’t listen to the custom today since I’ve seen its working, I’ll give it space to execute and listen to PCC today Instead.
Here’s one of the example of how I did it:
I found myself getting angry at the decisions I’ve made lately and the situation I’m in but
I’m truly grateful for being able to help multiple people and not asking for anything in return. I shouldn’t regret any good I’ve done or try to remember all, it’s not wastage but generosity, not weakness but strength although I have to reduce it for now at this stage of life I’m in and be more frugal in spending and manage my finance
I’ll be writing a new journal based on the custom I’m running but for now I don’t want to rush with the name so I’ll stick to this journal.
I want to make sure you got this resolved. You got this resolved, yes?
Yeah I did. Already started listening to my custom. Thanks 
Rest day.
Today I and my dad went for a ride and along the way he was ranting about his mistakes, how his family and friends never appreciated him for all he did for them and for me not to depend or trust in friends. I couldn’t help but remember one of the Laws of power intuitively: use your enemies nstead of your friends. Thinking back I have some friends who are parasites in my life and going back, I plan on getting rid of them.
I told a girl who I’m into but has a boyfriend that we can’t continue to be close knowing another guy is having sex work her(her boyfriend) while I’m the other guy. Meanwhile I dreamt about her that we wanted to have sex and I offered her first to my friend to have sex with her and after they were done, we were about to start having sex before I woke up, I’ll call her Cassy. We use to workout together but now I don’t think we’ll continue when I travel back to Town.
Meanwhile another girl(Perfect) I fixed a date with but she told me she was busy texted me to tell me that she’s around and I can come to her place and see her but I can’t because I traveled back home so when I get back, I’ll see how things go.
Another girl I’m talking with(I’ll call her Indiana) had a video call session with me and agreed to meet next week if I’m in town but she told ne she isn’t certain cos of her busy her week is so I told her if we don’t meet, I’ll know she isn’t attracted and I’ll move on.
My caretakers daughter is into me and I have a feeling she wants a hookup with me, she has a few needs like getting a new phone but I don’t know how to go about it cos I don’t want a funny situation or drama where I live.
I’m meant to listen to PCC today and I’ve been feeling some type of way probably recon or my subconscious trying to process my dense custom, woke up early and gave gratitude 
3days straight of giving thanks(gratitude Embodiment working)
I’m trying to have a consistent routine and get rid of some toxic habits, hasn’t been easy but I’ll definitely succeed…