Limitless executive: The primal seduction, limit destroyer

Journals - Major Programs
#1

So I’m currently on my 3rd run or fourth, of LE, PS and LD. I had run some variation of this but kept switching my stack and it caused some recon but now decided to run these three subs till I achieve the intended goals. I’ve written about this stack before but never really had a complete journal. Instead of going in the past and trying to remember what results I got, I’ll just journal from the most recent results so far.

So finally moved out and distanced myself from my narcissistic mom which proved to be the most stressful and relieving thing I could do. Stressful because I got gaslit and called names, basically my character got dragged through the mud for distancing myself from her. It was basically her way of saying that you can’t do anything without me, you are nothing and can’t be a successful man.

I felt relieved because I could finally have my own independent life and find myself. All my life, she has intentionally done things to prevent me from pursuing endeavors that would make me more independent and hard to control.

Aside from that, my indirect boss(the client I work for) has been very friendly, too friendly. In fact, she initiated everything. I was just trying to be nice but she kept pushing it forward. Got my personal number and we chatted, talked to each other and just vibed out on FaceTime. We talked about a lot of things, which is crazy because I didn’t know she had any attraction for me tbh. She was telling me how I’m the chillest guy she’s ever met and all. Just when I thought she lost interest, she would pick up the conversation up again. She’s attractive but she’s married and has kids. She does have money though but I feel like her relationship has been bland. Still trying to just be friends but there’s a gut feeling I have that she wants me bad. I’ll play it safe though since she’s kind of my boss. Not texting her every day helps too.

Also, I will say, my urge to masturbate and watch porn is nonexistent right now.

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#2

So moving out has proven to be a real headache but something about me that just feels different this time around. Even in the financial hole I’m in, I know I’ll make it out. There’s a confidence in me that is unshakable. Family around me though haven’t been as supportive as I thought they would be and its been become more of a “I’ve forsaken the family” type vibe, its like being independent and being my own man is such a threat to my mom that she is trying to put financial obligations on me, separating me from the other family members who have nothing to do with bills and etc., its really disgusting. She has made it so that I can’t see my other family members because I’m leaving because in her twisted mind she thinks I’d open their eyes to all the deception she has put them through. So it’s been a real challenge but still keeping a calm demeanor and a positive outlook on life. Haven’t texted my client boss today. I decided to ease up on texting her too much just so I don’t appear needy. Gotta give her room to miss me a little. I will say though, even though our conversations haven’t been sexual in nature, there’s a sexual tension that is there. Mostly from her, especially when she told me that people compliment her butt and how big it is, I don’t think you just tell that to anyone who you don’t have sexual attraction for.

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#3

So saw the lady again yesterday at work but she seemed to be more work mode than anything else.

She wasn’t as flirty, granted I’m guessing she wasn’t tipsy. She was basically telling me what to do etc,

which kinda makes it hard to be assertive and masculine. I get that she’s my indirect boss but still, the

dynamic makes it hard to initiate anything. There’s that fine line you have to tip toe. Also, I think the LD

script has taken precedence. I remember reading somewhere about the healing subs taking the front

seat in the stack, I guess I still have a lot I’ve got to heal but even with that, the fact that I haven’t had

any urge to masturbate or watch porn, is worth more to me than having romantic interest from my

boss. Though it doesn’t hurt to have someone attracted to you, I have to focus on healing more.

#4

Also, today I lost all my notes which had all the notes I took of my LD, PS stacks in the past few months

so I’m not sure if this is my 4th run or fifth. I know I ran LD,PS and Limitless(not LE) LD, PS and BDLM

LD, LE,PS(x2)- counting now, not sure if this would count as a 4th run, since I switched my stack quite a

bit and wasn’t consistent. But working on this stack now makes me think I should run it one more time

after this just to be certain. So I can technically have three runs of LD,LE and PS.

#5

You know how when you like a person and then you get to know them and find out that they are a shitty person, that’s the lady I’ve been talking about and it sucks. Because she seemed cool and all but yesterday it changed my mind. Maybe it’s the LD script but she seems to be more baggage than I bargained for and not worth it. Very toxic and irresponsible. Very unstable and reckless which was very off putting. I think I’m just going to keep things as professional as possible. The way I saw how she manipulated her husband on the phone, basically being a narcissist after being away from home late(drinking with friends) she decided to call her husband to pick her up whose far far away. I feel bad for the guy. But seeing the lack of accountability and the lack of responsibility made me cringe and not want to be associated with her. I’m glad I didn’t have anything intimate with her because I can tell she’s one of those bosses who thinks she can do anything she wants.

I think when I was on my washout, the primal seduction effects shined through but now the healing is taking precedence. I could be wrong, but anyways looking for women who are healthier emotionally with no baggage.

#6

So went to chick fil a the other day and had the people who take your orders flirt with me, laughing but

weren’t my type. Though it was a good sign that this stack is still working. Feeling kind of down. I

noticed I was acting kind of needy with my boss, texting and all and had to remind myself that she is

married and I got other options, can’t settle, which has been my main issue in life. I keep settling for

less and I know I can’t keep doing that. I need a mind shift. I’m thinking of running PS, LD and new

wealth experience to replace limitless executive in a custom but just have those three, have gorgeous

manifestor, temptation, panther, omnidimensional, deus, alpha of alphas, and alpha modol. Just have

those ten things and run it for 6 months since it has everything I need in my life, money, attracting

women and healing.

#7

So woke up today feeling kind of down. Yesterday I had a chance to have some alone time with my boss and hesitated. For whatever reason, I just feel not good enough, like I don’t deserve the good things in life. Feeling trapped in a whirlwind of disappointment and regret, which sucks. Financially in a hole with tons of financial burdens and with no social life or love life, it kinda sucks. The only good thing I’ve noticed is that my urge to watch porn or masturbate has disappeared completely. The same triggers that would trigger me to watch are basically non existent. Even if a porn video popped on my screen, I wouldn’t even feel the urge to watch it. Even if I’m highly stressed, I would revert to watching porn as a coping mechanism but now I’m like nope, not today, not ever. Not having that urge to watch porn has been like freedom, no longer a slave to porn or urges. It’s been like 3 weeks I think or more since watching any porn or masturbating.

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#8

I think this is the longest I’ve gone without thinking about watching porn or masturbating. Almost a month without a thought coming to mind of watching or stroking which is so so different than before where I felt like I was resisting all the time, it was ridiculous. Now there’s nothing to resist. The thought is not even there unlike before I had to struggle and would fall into temptation. This run has taught me that true freedom is not resisting temptation but not having any temptation to resist.

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#9

These last couple of days have been hell. I’ve been getting some anxiety and some low mood, feeling

like things are hopeless, like I’ve tried everything I can but still keep running into the same problems

over and over and over again. It’s like running on a hamster wheel. The attraction between me and my

boss has stopped a bit. I kind of mentally distanced myself from her, unconsciously. I’m no longer

interested in her like that. She’s too insecure and too erratic and unstable for my liking. I’m trying to

find women who don’t have a lot of baggage that might bring me down, I already got enough baggage

in my life already, I don’t need anymore. My last day of my stack was on the 17th. Right now I’m in a

financial debt and I’m looking to run mogul and focus more on money.

#10

This is a question I would like you to think about:

Is it that these issues have recently arisen, or have they been there and now you are (more) aware of them?

I realize it might be a bit of both, but I would encourage you to think about that.

#11

tbh they probably were already there but I was ignoring them or distracting myself from them