Today I realized the subtle nature of limit destroyer that has changed my perspective on life. It’s so subtle but so so powerful. I’m on my washout but the sub has really shined through. I used to have this weird fear of putting myself out there, doing uber and Lyft because I was afraid I would encounter people who would be crazy and treat me bad. All this stems from being bullied harshly in middle school and some of high school. For the longest time, the thought of doing a ride share like uber or Lyft scared me because of having to interact with so many people and if they were dissatisfied then I would be disappointed in my self. To most people, this sounds ridiculous and so benign but the other day I literally went out did uber eats and came back home feeling a sense of accomplishment. I’m still improving and in the process but there is no way this would’ve been possible without LD. Also, running PS and LD + Limitless executive has been quite interesting. So the other day, one of the managers who works where I work, was being super friendly to me. More than usual. Granted, she’s friendly with everyone but this particular day, she initiated touch with me(she tripped and held my arm so she could balance). Was very chatty with me, bragging to her coworkers that we text and all, and I was like they don’t need to know that(in my head of course) lol. It could be that she’s very friendly, which she does act when around her coworkers. She has no filter whatsoever lol. Also, I don’t know if it’s the LD script for avoiding toxic individuals but I’ve noticed I’m more quick to distance myself from toxic people, even family. In the past, I would put up with their toxic behavior but nowadays, I’m very stern and assertive. I’ve reached a point in my life where I’m sick of tired of being sick and tired. How can I heal my past wounds when those who caused them keep opening them up? Imagine confronting your family about something messed up they said to you and being met with anger and aggression, then having to be forced to apologize for making them angry and upset. In the past I would get into pointless arguments, defending my self from personal verbal attacks that would lead nowhere because they would do it again. Especially my mom, she would try anyway possible to manipulate and get back control in anyway possible. If she didn’t get her way or make you submit to her wishes, it was constant arguments, which she would escalate through yelling and screaming, and every time I would walk away feeling emasculated and helpless. I felt like trash, it was a crappy feeling. My emotional regulation was terrible too. But LD has gave me courage to finally move out after decades of manipulation and abuse. I think after my washout, I’ll run LD by itself or run Wanted black and LD. My goal for this year is to run all the subs I bought for at least 3 runs before moving on to the next one. The challenge is doing one by one. You would think running 3 subs at once would be hard but running individual subs has proven to be the most hardest thing I’ve ever done. Every time I start with one sub and tell myself I will only stay with one sub, I end up running two or three subs lol. In a financial slump right now so I’m not sure if I just stick with mogul and wanted black for 3 runs.
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Awesome results 
But ma dude, that’s one long text without breaks 
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Thanks lol. I probably should’ve broke It down a bit
Once I start writing, I don’t stop, it’s almost like I’m journaling, I got a lot to say but not enough lines.
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