Hi everyone, I don’t usually like public journaling but I figured it would be beneficial to involve you in my thought process.
I’ve gotten some good, interesting, and sometimes unwanted results from what I’ve tried so far with SC subliminals. I’m looking to gain a satisfactory amount of dates with compatible women. I’ve figured out some parts of this puzzle but it’s still incomplete as my new dates are infrequent. I’ll let you know my thoughts on subliminals and my issues. If you have any ideas that might help, please post a comment as I greatly appreciate input to my thought process.
Manifestations so far, the value of Heartsong, problems with Primal and Khan
So far I manifested 2 sexual relationships. Both involved Heartsong in my stack. The first was Heartsong + Khan (ST1-ST2) and the second was my custom containing Heartsong + Love Bomb + Wanted. For this reason I’m tempted to think I need Heartsong.
Heartsong seems to help my communication, expression of my needs and desires including sexual, makes me want, understand, and care about the women more, turning women I’d normally only see as sex material as ones I’d be happy to pursue more seriously, making me more patient in the romancing process. These factors seem to have helped my desired manifestations a lot. I also suspect having sex based on pure lust is something not in my personality, that some genuine connection, conversation, and quality time with the companion is in my taste. I’m not sure if this is a true fact about myself or lingering Nice Guy Syndrome.
Wanted seems to make me highly attractive to many women and even make some women approach or almost approach. I very much like the type of attention I get on it and therefore it seems indespensable in my seduction stack.
Primal and Khan, unlike Wanted, seem to get me unwanted attention, namely getting laughed at by some women. I think of it as because of the “high-status” over-the-top macho-man swagger which is culturally frowned upon and a bad look for men, plus I already have natural swagger and Primal seems to over-do it.
After signficant experimentation including Khan, Wanted, and Primal, I’m at the conclusion that Wanted is the only of the 3 I can and should use. I’d love to get the sexual benefits of NSE Primal but I don’t know if there’s any way I can benefit with it having the over-the-top macho swagger. And Khan goes way beyond my personal goals so I’m not going to attempt it anymore.
Most valued custom so far and the potential of Sanguine
I have a custom with Heartsong, Love Bomb, Wanted that I’ve run a decent amount. It’s almost perfect, only problem is that I still don’t approach, pursuing women that already show a lot of interest. That leads me to consider stacking Sanguine with the custom.
I’ve done some testing of Sanguine solo. It showed a lot of potential, as I was the chillest in social situations in a way that women seemed attracted to, one even asking for my phone number. It is my preferred choice to eliminate social anxiety. But since it was run solo, I didn’t feel I had the seduction scripting I wanted, and at the time my location did not contain an abundance of opportunities (but now I know a couple times+locations I can find women).
So I’m considering stacking Sanguine with the custom.
I’ve also had lots of negativity and fear in my mind, so I tend to think Sanguine can help with that. BUT, I also fear that Sanguine can unblock me too much, as I’ve done a few embarrassing things while on it.
Love Bomb
After I gave up my second run of Khan, I decided to try Love Bomb (NSE!) solo which is a title I’d been interested in for a long time, and I ended up loving it. This title allowed me to wake up happy and grateful for my life, i.e., immense gratitude. Like my other doubts, I’m not sure whether this is needed in my seduction stack. It certainly seems to help me with people a lot, making me more trusting, connective, and communicative. Unlike Sanguine on which I do risky things I regret (nonsense self-criticism?), Love Bomb seems to help me communicate enjoyably. It doesn’t, however, lower anxiety as much as Sanguine.
General problems
As an introspective person I’ve noticed a number of patterns that hold me back. These include not knowing for sure what I want, distrust of people, insecurity over failures in life as if permanently broken, trying to find external authority to guide me rather than decide myself, fear of a bad future, disliking career so far, not knowing what to pursue first whether women or career…