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#207

I’m so damn curious about auras, especially pure aura subs. I might give Libertine and Love Bomb separate runs. I think I’ve often mixed up love and lust so I want to gain clarity on the differences. This is diverting a bit from some of my goals but I need to try these aura things. I seem to have observed auric effects in the light auras of the various subs I’ve run.

I’ve considered if auras could actually be more important than some of the other effects of subs for manifestation because I personally can think of the numerous times I declined some potential interaction with someone because of the sense that I felt from them, whether lack of desire, character suspicion, suspicion of true motivations, their level of confidence in self, etc.

So I gotta do some experimentation with pure auras. I’ll probably keep my Limitless Executive going because it’s so damn enhancing of my brain, but it doesn’t need to be run all that often. I may even keep True Sell going since it seems to have made me more willing to talk to strangers and I also seem to be significantly persuading of people in the workplace without even trying at all.

I don’t want to be in a rush for sex out of a feeling of lack, but, remember, I’m adding this aura sub as an experiment, and I’m going to go with Libertine first instead of Love Bomb, somewhat a flip of a coin, but perhaps also because it sounds funner and I’m not sure I’ll like the positivity stuff of Love Bomb (but I’ll for sure test Love Bomb once I get a good sense of Libertine). If I had Khan or Heartsong in my stack, it might be difficult to differentiate the auric effects from Libertine, but I don’t think a stack with LE and T$ will have that problem.

I have to remember that this is more about observing than achieving. I’ve been working on learning the tools (subs) at my disposal and I need to understand what these auras can do. I’m going out tonight, so this will be the first time of observation.

I did run one loop of Libertine ZPv1 (non-refresh) back in my class months ago, and I noticed a girl I liked told a sex joke and all the girls in my group, when I was the only male, were more openly sexual. At other times, some people have thought me to be judgmental, so perhaps Libertine will counterbalance such impressions.

Probably won’t take me more than 2 weeks to get a good feel for Libertine, especially being ZPV2 which comes on fuckin fast (ZP-refresh was already like that).

#208

Got in 7 minutes Libertine this morning. This town is mostly prudes so I didn’t see a great deal of attraction, though there may have been a couple of lingering looks from my type of women. Going out in another place later may be more telling.

But, come to think about it more, I doubt my problem is lack of aura. One thing that I’ve learned that is a definite problem is disqualifying a lot of potentially good partners. Seemed that Heartsong helped me get over that when I got with the last girl. So maybe I should stick to Khan ST3 + Heartsong. I want to work on spotting my type when I see her and being emotionally aware of how I will connect and enjoy.

#209

Remembering how I need to live for myself and not wait for others to make me satisfied. I may go back to Khan ST2 for a while as I instill this mindset into practice, and in any case I’ll go back to Khan for months. What I’m thinking now may be a more solid choice of direction.

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#210

I’m gonna call this first stack Reclaim My Life.
Limitless Executive + Khan ST3.
The Khan will stay for months but LE just 1+ cycle.

Then once I’m manifesting the stuff I want I’ll adjust it to Khan + 2 stacking enhancers.

On another note, I’ve been talking with a potential business partner who I may have been looking around for for a long time, and I realize that he appeared literally within 24 hours of the first RICH loop. Hmm…

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#211

I was considering prioritizing Libertine over Heartsong; however, the increased pattern recognition from Beyond Limitless is telling me that the positivity of Heartsong greatly contributed to the manifestation of the last girl. Whenever I’ve manifested women before, I was in a positive state. It’s a tricky thing to get right and keep it right, so maybe I need the Heartsong. I’ve also been told that I shouldn’t pursue things out of a feeling of lack. I lost the girl right when I dropped my stack of Khan ST3, Heartsong, and Sex Mastery. She may have not been right anyway or someone I wanted forever, so getting a partner I lost may have actually been Heartsong manifesting what I wanted at the time.

I’ll probably use Khan ST3 + Heartsong + Limitless Executive starting in a few days.

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#212

Been getting some interesting looks from girls in the days following Libertine. My next stack may be Khan ST3 + Heartsong + Libertine. But, I’ll probably stop writing and visiting here. For manifesting successfully I have to live in the now and coming on here causes intellectualizing and getting stuck in past and future. So that’s what I’m up to and I’ll probably be gone a while like I was for 2 months during the end of Khan ST1 and most of ST2.

#213

A couple girls, one I was involved with and one partially, have said I am temptation. I like being called that, I think.

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#214

So I thought maybe my last girl had attracted me with an aura of lust, but no, I’m pretty sure it was love. I’ve been reflecting and, though I already said it in earlier posts, am coming to realize that casual sex isn’t something I desire to pursue.

I remember at earlier times in my life how I decided to go for lots of casual out of anger, but it wasn’t what I really wanted. I think I need to heal from this pursuit that strays from my real self. My efforts with women have been largely bitter and from a place of lack.

What my last girl demonstrated was a positive energy exchange with her smiling attention. Smiling is something I’ve struggled to do in recent years. Some think smiling isn’t good for attraction, and indeed I have women looking at me lustfully. But for the love I desire I will have to smile again. Who I would want to manifest is someone where there is naturally happiness around.

I forgot that love comes with good sex; I don’t have to pursue sex for sex (pursuing with love works). I also equated good looks with sexual attractiveness but actually good looks aren’t highly required for sex; though they are required for my love that would last long-term.

I’ll note that this post comes 5 hours after 3 minutes Alchemist ST3, the first run after my washout. Not sure if I’ll keep it or only run love ones. While the inner peace in it may have shifted my mood and given me these realizations, I’d think Heartsong and Love Bomb would do the same thing but more focused toward my goal. I’ll switch to HS and LB and if I’m not happy and smiling enough after a number of listening days then I can conclude that I need the Alc 3.

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#215

Need to work on leadership and tolerance for taking No’s.

#216

^Yep. Realized I have repressed negative feelings toward women in general. Heartsong fixes them. I ran one 3-min loop over 48 hours ago, and have today become aware of these feelings. No wonder it is difficult to smile and find women desirable and approachable.

Apparently, 2 cycles of Heartsong has not been enough for anywhere near permanent results for me. I ran 2 cycles of Heartsong, one during Khan ST2 and one during Khan ST3. After I stopped using Heartsong, the girl I manifested broke up with me and was concerned that the relationship was only lust. So Heartsong is a title I ought to run a whole bunch of cycles, like 6 months to a year to cement it and make me positive toward women.

When I first ran it those original 2 cycles, I had a strong feeling it was the sub I had needed all along instead of those seduction ones. I’m actually pretty sexual already, I just don’t feel positive going after a lot of women.

I find it misleading how the sales page says “for those who want to feel the depths of love,” when it would also be useful for those who just want to improve their personality somewhat and feel less negative. While forum comments have indicated Heartsong isn’t just for monogamy, the sales page sure makes it sound like it. I may want casual sex btw, despite some of my earlier comments against it, but if I want it then it will be immensely helpful for me to be more positive toward women in general. Repeatedly, many many times, the sales page words things as if referring to a single individual manifested, using phrases like “a couple” and talking about strong bonds to a special person, almost never suggesting multiple partners. I have to write this note to self here, that Heartsong will be good for liking women in general and helping me want to pursue them, otherwise I will continue to forget its merit for my purposes when I read the sales page again where it strongly implies manifesting one soulmate for life.

So currently I am running it solo, because I believe it targets my root issues and will work the fastest being the only title. I’m starting with 3 minutes but maybe I’ll up it when I feel.

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#217

Realizing how anxious my parents are. My mother did ridiculous protective things out of anxiety. I think my current anxiety is how I learned to act from being around my highly anxious parents. What is the sub for that? Sanguine?

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#218

Starting to test Sanguine seriously for the first time. 45 hours after a 15 minute loop, my mood is feeling dope. Woke up with the insight that a lot of my anxiety is associated with guilt. More in my private journal on that. Maybe Sanguine will help me achieve my goals by overcoming guilty feelings. In addition to Sanguine, my life experience and people in my life are helping me see through / move past guilt.

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#219

Realized I’ve lost connection with my intrinsic motivations. A lot of my decisions in the past few years were based off bettering my motivational situation (mastery, autonomy, and purpose according to Daniel Pink), but that gets forgotten. Pink says that intrinsically motivated is more of a natural state but extrinsic is conditioned by our environment. I can relate to that, no wonder I’ve struggled to get a grip on what I need. What subs can help connect with one’s intrinsic motivators, Mogul, EoG, Revelation of Mind?

#220

This Khan is reborn. Watch out.

#221

Survived Stage 1 of Khan again :partying_face:. Onto Stage 2.

#222

Ran my last loop of st2 today. St2 is really great, despite being one of the less popular within Khan.

Some things I noticed include:
-lots of self-reflection and refining what my real self is
-lots of authority given off in the workplace and relationships improved (in the workplace because I minimize most other socializing)
-impressive social demeanor and cool body language
-high status walking strides
-beliefs improvement to be more favorable and realistic
-overcoming of ways of self-sabotage, e.g. being overly rebellious and resisting conventional work
-related to beliefs in general, I feel a much stronger sense of comprehending the world and my relation to it; in other words, “it all makes sense now”. I really look forward to more of this aspect when I get to st4.
-feeling release effect, much help processing/releasing emotions that I normally wouldn’t. Emotions unfettered perhaps.
-a certain positivity and laughter that my life is great and things are great for me
-release of some anxieties in the workplace, a positive outlook of what to expect
-better perception of people, their emotions, their weaknesses
-more sexual understanding, realism, and positive outlook
-easily giving up some of my worst habits because of instant feelings of repulsion
-sense of being myself in ways I was in the past but became separated from

Now I’m looking forward to st3 which I will start about June 1. I’m interested in a few aspects in particular on the sales page not prominent in st2:
-wealth scripting, seeing what a “tiniest speck” can do
-seduction scripting, notably the guidance on who is receptive plus the seduction scripting in general plus the supportive scripting
-ambition and vision scripting to help see what I want with career/wealth
-other general benefits of st3

My goal for st3 will be primarily to enjoy another sex partner, but I’m also very much looking to, on the side, gain insight on my wealth/career path. And also whatever other things st3 offers. I plan to conquer my objective soon, within two cycles max, so that I don’t have to run st3 more than 2 months, because I want to go on to st4 which will help me decide what I want to do next in my career by the end of the year, whether continuing where I’m at and working on other ventures on the side versus doing something else entirely. One such way it may help is by expanding the professional network, but at the same time I’m not sure I want to go that route and may rather focus on my independent wealth methods, but it will help provide me options at least and decide with vision scripting.

#223

They weren’t lying about the SEDUCTION scripting in Khan st3. Not just women, I’m seducing everyone such as influencing everyone in my workplace to act different, while having all kinds of generic visions around the orchestration of power. Still working on fully manifesting all my desires with women, but I’ve seen some really interesting interactions/manifestations here and there. I’m starting to sense a greater abundance throughout my lifestyle.

It talks about how Khan has vision scripting and it seems to me like that vision generation and execution is mostly subconscious and automatic. I usually think of visualizing and planning as an active thing but it’s like the Khan is automatically running my campaigns without me thinking much. I just speak spontaneously with people without planning what to say and it has major effects of benefit.

I keep getting tempted to customize or stack some other sub. I think that may be recon and indication of Khan st3 still actively doing good work in my psyche. As has been observed, if you sense you need to use another sub to develop some traits while running another sub, then your current sub is probably already doing that and you don’t need to stack what you think. Khan is interesting in how diverse areas it hits, e.g., it seems to have love stuff, dominance, emotional&social intelligence, sales, gratitude, charisma, …, all at the same time. So I’m setting the intention to keep Khan ST4 solo. I’ll be running that soon. After seeing how immense the effects have been in stages 1-3, I’m anticipating this last one is going to be quite the experience. Guess I should hold on tight. I’ll note I’ve been running Ascension chamber a mild amount which seems to help step into the archetype and reflect more clearly.

Another interesting note is that cannabis seems to increase subliminal suggestiveness and make more clear what the sub is teaching. Not that I do that a lot or anything, but it’s a tool.

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#225

I got to Khan ST4 but didn’t stay on it as I found the extreme sexual aura, dominance, and swagger to be over-the-top for my taste. I then went onto Love Bomb and combinations of Love Bomb for months. I still am a big fan of it, one of my most favorite subs. So whatever I will do for seduction will involve less of the extreme alpha/swagger stuff and more love/connection-oriented. I have customs for this but am not hurrying too much to utilize them.

I started Dragon Reborn but am doubtful if I can finish it. I’m only on a first cycle of ST1. I want to find authentic purpose, a sense of direction, but running DR would mean 4 months of not doing much, and I will probably be more interested in a seduction title like a custom I possess. At some point I’m going to have to choose new avenue(s) for making money. Current career isn’t cutting it for me. I like the REBELLION stuff of Dragon Reborn and think DR could potentially help me do what best suits me. I may even want to renounce the pursuit of wealth, perhaps temporarily, which I’ve done before. There are 3 possibilities of subliminals I’ll end up running: (1) DR (2) romance (3) wealth. Most likely I’ll go romance until I get bored with that or I run out of money, but I don’t know.

I was thinking writing a journal could make getting through all stages of DR more exciting, but as I’ve started writing, I don’t feel much that it will help.

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#226

Got a loop in yesterday of 10s and I slept deeply. Been thinking about uses of DR and yeah I probably need it. Even as a healing sub it could lead me into action better than an action-focused sub. A couple of the objectives currently of interest are

  • Detach from others’ views and remain true to yourself.
  • Develop your inner child from a kid to a mature, powerful adult.

The first is of great interest because I am self-conscious and often doing things for approval-seeking reasons, along with all the many patterns and traumas in line with such a pattern. I could take much better action toward my goals if I wasn’t overly concerned with what others think and feel about me as I take the action. The book “Not Nice” by Aziz Gazipura helps to point out such issues and solutions. I feel like Dragon Reborn can work on this kind of stuff a great amount. I could see myself taking action that I wasn’t taking before while still in a run of DR, not needing other titles. DR seems can restore me to a more normal, healthy state that I’ve lacked and sought.

The second bullet point is of interest because I was thinking about how one’s issues can be somewhat of one’s own making, and it seems one must choose to grow up and do what is necessary to let go of issues and proceed forward successfully. It can be difficult when you only know the faulty “nice” way of doing things, so when people say things like “don’t be a victim” or “they’re not bullying you” it doesn’t make sense when you only know a particular pattern. But the subliminal can put the right understanding into your mind. I need to make decisions for myself, not allowing my identity to be provided by others. I was somewhat a rebellious child yet I live in a state of tension, obligation, guilt,
fear of punishment, “I hate myself”, shame, anxiety, negative thoughts loops, perfectionism, etc. rather than acting fully in the direction I choose.

There are a lot of aspects of my life and past I’ve struggled to move past. The way I was raised seems unusual and a lot of difficulties surround it. Seems like DR pushes me into the better way of being.

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#227

Well, it looks like I won’t be finishing the whole Dragon Reborn, reasons including that (1) a partial cycle of ST1 with the New Healing Experience did a ton of work already, and (2) that I can’t wait 4 months as I’m eager to take other action now. Namely, I need to open a can of whoopass on my doubters. What I’ve seen with New Subliminal Experience so far has excited me greatly, and one area I haven’t yet utilized it is wealth. I noted that Mogul had satisfying uses back on ZP v1 when it was my first sub purchased along with Regeneration; but, now that I have a much greater feel and understanding of the products available, combined with the improvements such as New Wealth Experience and the increased focus on personalized results/experiences, plus the life experiences I’ve had and learned from, I’m more motivated than ever to get back and stay on my wealth track.

I will mention that I’d like to do a full run of Dragon Reborn at some point. So far I noticed a lot of great healing, attacking of negative thought patterns, of negative emotions like guilt, and strength of assertiveness and resistance to manipulation. Additionally, I also feel increased confidence in my authentic self. I had some self-branding/selling visions come to mind on DR, but I tend to think Mogul with NSE will do a lot of the same thing but all for wealth. Such deep authenticity of DR would be incredible once I have wealth going good and can afford a 4-8 month break for DR. But like I said I don’t got 4 months and I think Mogul with NSE will cover a lot of this authenticity-creating stuff for the purpose of wealth. Only thing of DR I’m afraid of not having is the resistance to manipulation. I have lots of people trying to capture me into business deals that aren’t ideal for me. I’m going to have to remember to not allow myself to get sucked in. I have a few maneuvers to help me achieve this, including using Genesis: Mogul + R.I.C.H. + solitude + right friends + phone notification reminders + ultra commitment + sativa cannabis so that I start generating wealth so fast before anyone has an opportunity to trap me in a sucky deal.

My goal of highest priority now is stable independent income. This is something I’ve had several times before, but for whatever reasons I sabotaged it and went back to working under someone else. So I/reality is definitely capable of what I want, I just need to make sure to enforce strong boundaries. With the life experiences I’ve gone through and realizations from subliminals, plus the high effectiveness of current products, I think I can manage to make the independence of my income permanent, as it’s just a matter of dedicating myself fully for a minimum of 1 year with wealth subliminals. I need to act on such now as my life couldn’t be in a better position to take this on.

I’ve realized the extensive benefit I’ll gain from developing my independent wealth: Money is freedom. Freedom is important. I think a person can have a much more meaningful life if they have more freedom, because then they can put their time into whatever they truly value most. So whatever wealth opportunities I get involved in must be held to certain constraints to ensure certain levels of freedom, and that way I’ll be free to maneuver in whatever way I need to to maximize wealth. And it seems that making a lot of money independently gets you into another class of people, including higher quality romance partners.