I am back with a new journal to document my Emperor Journey. I won’t be updating daily, the goal is an overall weekly review.
As of today, I have been running Emperor v4 for 18 days now. I play it during the day when I can, usually 3-8 times, and then over night most nights. I take a day off when the reconciliation hits. I’m very familiar with my feelings of reconciliation from running numerous other major programs including EoG multi-stage. The first 10 days or so I was mostly running ultrasonic, however I switched to masked and that has always seemed to have more of an affect on me with previous subs and I feel the same way with Emperor.
During the time I have ran Emperor, I didn’t notice much the first 10 days or so except for very vivid, multiple dreams a night. I don’t really care about dreams that much, I’ll look into the meanings of them if I notice themes, but I could care less if I never dreamed again as long as I’m creating the reality I desire in my waking world.
In the past few days, however, a few very significant and impacting events have occurred.
- A couple days ago I was doing my (in person) sales appointments. I had been having a rough previous week and on this day a lady was unnecessarily rude, smartass, dismissive, and keeping an air like she was above me. A total bitch to put it succinctly. I didn’t let her affect me in the moment, I smiled and said thank you for your time.
But then when I got out to my car, something overtook me. I just started uncontrollably screaming at the top of my lungs…“I hate this person and that person” “everyone is absolute pieces of shit” “I hate myself” “I hate where my life has come to” and on and on (with a lot more expletives) for literally more than 5 minutes. I mean, I somewhat lost my voice from the screaming.
Once I calmed down, I broke down in tears.
After, I felt a huge weight lifted and also noticed a distinct lack of concern for what others thought of me and a (in a good way) lack of concern for others feelings. I have been putting myself first for probably the first time in my life. It was a very concrete shift and difference before this meltdown and after. It’s quite amazing.
- I attended a networking event that I used to go to regularly but haven’t been to in months. There are a lot of people that are far more successful and far more wealthy than myself at these. When I used to attend them previously, I can recall feeling very inferior and below these people, while also grateful to get to learn from them and surround myself with successful individuals.
This time, I felt much more on the same level as everyone regardless of how much more “successful” they are than me. And again, there was a very noticeable lack of self-consciousness that used to be there. It was as if I wasn’t judging myself relative to everyone else there, but on my own autonomy.
- Within these almost 3 weeks, I have been ripped off monetarily TWICE for significant sums of money. I am working with my bank, and should be able to get most if not all of bit ack but I find this very strange/interesting/coincidental. Not to mention just a big ol headache dealing with it. But it has been a valuable lesson in and forced me to confront others who have wronged me.
On the other hand, another individual who I made a private loan to for a very significant amount has been overdue now for almost a year. (I have increased the interest rate twice now due to him being late, but it’s been weighing on me, I want the money back and have probably lost a lot in opportunity costs). Anyway, he notified me and says he will have the money and pay me back within 3 weeks as he is closing on the sale of one of his properties this week. We’ll see. But that will be a huge relief.
Other notes: I have cut off most people from my life (not permanently just for the time being), no dating, and have been living a very spartan and simple life. I wake up at 5:30am without an alarm, I write out my goals as if they have happened, I meditate, I workout, I eat healthy, and then my sole focus all day is on getting my financials and wealth sorted. I cancelled my netflix, hulu, etc. and either read at night or watch one of my educational programs but only if it deals with a specific issue that I’m dealing with in real life due to taking action. Otherwise, I don’t even allow that (or youtube business videos) because in the past I suffered from analysis paralysis and information overload - trying to figure EVERYTHING out before taking action.
That’s been my Emperor v4 experience so far, I’ll update when the inspiration hits.