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#63

Sticking with LB but I really want to run Genesis Mogul. So much of the frustration in my life centers around being stuck struggling and not seeing a way out. I was thinking about this last night and this morning about how at some point in my life I convinced myself that struggling or just scrapping by was ok. It’s not obviously. To me wealth isn’t necessarily about having a ton of money but also having a comfortable and reliable place to live, reliable transportation, able to take care of my Wife and our fur babies the way we want, and especially not owing anyone any money.

I have posted before about how in my teens when I was living with my father that he and my step mother had debt collectors calling all day every day. They filed bankruptcy at least twice. They even had to borrow money from me. That is a weird feeling. My mother wasn’t much better. Always saying how broke she is yet spending endless amounts of money on things that she didn’t need or to impress someone.

I want to be able to sleep at night and not wake up dreading having to face a potential financial problem.

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#64

LB and GM is the combo I’m running as well (and more).

GM hasn’t the purpose scripting of Genesis, but some at least. So it might help you find your way and a better job. Four month of GM leads interest to fields I wouldn’t have thought fun before.

Are you still learning to code, now without IG?

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#65

I am still learning although I have hit a bit of a plateau recently. Taking a bit of a break. I can fry my brain trying to force myself to learn things. Sort of waiting to read the sales page for the updated Limitless when it’s released and make a decision between that and QL.

I really feel that running LB along with a learning title would help open up a lot of possibilities I am not aware of at this point. I grew up being told I was super emotional and would be lucky if I graduated high school. I was the first person in my family to not just graduate high school but I did it on time and with extra credits. I was convinced I was stupid or borderline retarded by my parents and even some teachers.

I know I’m not stupid but I also understand that I can’t currently access the intellectual aspects of myself because of all the stupid shit I was told growing up.

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#66

Screw the naysayers.
Make Lovebomb the constant title in your stack, and maybe rotate other titles around it as you need. Find anything that helps you with forgiving yourself/others and let go of all notions of self-pity.
Once you have warm fuzzy inner core, Limitless and Index will help you power through any learning plateaus if you decide to continue with your coding efforts.

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#67

So focus on Love Bomb no matter what? Even if it takes a long time?

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#68

Love Bomb and and EOG 1 are going to be permanent in my next stack for probably a couple of years at least. Maybe longer, who knows? I already have a custom planned that included both subs. I’m just waiting for the new EOG to drop.

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#69

I think we will have to wait a while for that. From what Saint said it will probably be one of the last updates. With how that’s progressing I would be surprised if we saw it before 2025

#70

Yes. It is likely that recon will try to convince you at some point to drop it, but you gotta absolutely stick to it for as many cycles as you need to work through enough trauma to finally feel absolutely good about yourself and to reframe your past to such an extent that you become free to explore the potential you actually have.

From running Love Bomb myself, I am convinced that it is definitely one of the harder subs to run, with much potential reward. It’s so hard that I think that most people here will have substantial recon from microloops the first time they run it, nevermind full loops. The goals of the subs sound fantastic, right? And for most of us, they’re quite far from where we actually are, hence the recon.

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#71

Indeed.
Loving yourself is your number one priority.
Forgetting all the bad stuff that still is stuck in your subconscious. Self-doubt, fears, whatever.
Bomb it away with love.

As long as you can’t truly love yourself, all this thoughts will return and stop you from reaching your goals.

One of self talks was like “For whom should I change and get a job? Not for me, I’m a PoS. I don’t deserve to feel good, to have enough money”.

Now with LB that’s changing step by step.

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#72

I don’t mind if it takes them that long! The current EOG 1 will do until then. I’m more interested in how deeply I integrate the sub than I am interested in the newness of it.

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#73

And why not make the custom right now? You can update it at anytime?

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#74

I fought doing microloops but I’m running thirty second loops now. I still don’t understand why we shouldn’t be concerned about not getting the entire script over time but I’m not going to allow it to make me crazy like I did with microloops.

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#75

You know, I wonder how the new Limitless is going to interact with Love Bomb.
So many things to work through, some of which one can’t even see in one’s awareness but which are nevertheless negatively impacting one’s thoughts and behaviour.

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#76

I get it. I’m holding out because I am excited to see how EOG is with the NWE and NSE.

#77

Love is the essence of life. Love is pure manifestational energy and so it gratitude. As a matter of fact self-love and gratitude go hand in hand and are very close feelings. I see Love Bomb as a manifestational accelerator. When I start running Love Bomb, it’s not leaving my stack for a very long time.

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#78

I’m very interested in that myself

#79

So many brilliant thoughts that arise from our subconsciousness, but other subconscious parts of us thinking it’s to dumb or we are to much of a looser anyways etc.
Such a huge potential.

Also new Limitless could be the first title with LB primer.

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#80

You’re missing out! If I read you correctly you said that EOG isn’t probably coming out until 2025. That’s 8 months away! Do you realize how far you could get if you just run the existing EOG for 8 months?

Then you can switch when the new one comes out!

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#81

Why not run Genesis Mogul?

#82

I suppose I could. I’m only interested in EOG1 right now. It can get the job done!

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