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#316

Have you tried micro looping?

I think not having recon can get tricky. Sometimes it can seem like you don’t have recon when in reality you’ve loaded up your processing queue so much you don’t get to the actual execution stage. Other times yes it is full loops without recon for some reason. But I’d say if you’re not seeing the results you want and you’ve run it for months it sounds like you might actually benefit from microloops.

I often compare it to a buffer period. Higher exposure = higher buffer period which means longer length where you won’t feel recon until you take a relatively long washout to have things settle. And the way exposure stacks on these subs is weird. It almost feels exponential at times vs linear so that time scale gets wonky and unpredictable.

Apologies for the derailment of your thread @James

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#317

That was nice to read @Parsifal. Recon’s been hitting, and it’s easy to think I’m doing something wrong.

Your last point had me choke up. It was a very thoughtful thing to share.

(Wipes eyes now)

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#318

I’ve been microlooping the last couple of months I think. But I’ve only seen results once I put LB in the mix. Deserveness etc.
Now I have GM in my custom and I’m very pleased.

I wrote this post not to lament about missing results, I wrote it for James to understand that no recon doesn’t equal results. Because I had neither for months.

And yes, I had recon at the end of last year. Or rather overexposure. I listened to full loops of everything. Emperor, GM, RotNW. Some even more than one full loop. I was the typical greenhorn that thought more exposure means more results.

Now I just tell my subconscious to tell me when it’s enough. So sometimes I listen to 12 minutes sometimes only for 3. But at a point I always hear an alarm bell in my head and I know it’s enough. And I’ve not felt serious recon since I use this technique.

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#319

What’s your general level of acceptance and equanimity to life events?

#320

Found this on Reddit

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#321

Lol. I find myself in each one :sweat_smile:

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#322

Same…

#323

Dang. I feel like I got some of all of them except abandonment.

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#325

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#326

I didn’t know they were gay :thinking:

#327

And yet nothing is happening in the “past”

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#328

@James , really grateful for this as it helped me find a trauma that I was not able to acknowledge for years and this is major for me. Had to come and thank you sincerely.

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#330

Wasn’t he talking about the village people?

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#334

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#342

Please get back on track.

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#343

Also really helpfull for me too. Could regognice some unhealthy patterns :grimacing: but regognicing and aknowledge that patterns are the first step for overcoming them.

Thank you James for posting this.

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#344

I just realised guilt and shame are the most overlooked emotions in self development journey but have tremendous power over us. Guilt literally prevents you from taking action and shame is the hell gate keeper of a healthy self worth.

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#345

To add to this I recall this thread

Seeing things with the new light, I reason that a person does not feel safe expressing the trait is because of the Shame about expressing the trait. When you tackle this shame, you automatically get the self-worth and also the feeling of safety about expressing the trait.

So try asking yourself this question, was I ever shamed for trying to develop this trait ? I am willing to bet, you will find your answer there.

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#346

Im experiencing this with Primal atm

Taking away the shame I have ingrained in my innermost being, becoming one with my forbidden desires. I’m so looking forward to my next cycle.

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#347

Sounds like it’s working. Make sure you journal those emotions. It will help you accelerate the process.

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