Khan st1 night stack


#1

Night 1

st1 2x
regenderation 1x
looped

This was 3 days ago, general impression of st1 is… it mirrors my day to day thinking pattern regarding negative events in my life, the only difference is an oscillation of negativity to a neutralization of it, repeated. One of my humorous thoughts “Oh you fucker”, just me speaking to the sub as it puts me in some ruminating state, like some sort of trickster pulling my strings.

Wake up in a profoundly negative state.

Night 2, to now…

st1 2x
hom 1x
looped

Stopped taking sleep meds (diphenhydramine) plan on staying up all day to reset sleep instead of forcing it. Less negativity as HOM diffused obsessive thinking into some abstract self loop, kept thinking about StarkQ, and how I should start it for some reasons, 10x + times (in head while dreaming). Woke up and cancelled my exercise plans.

Wake up in a neutral mood, in contrast to the day before. Instead of mindlessly browsing a toxic community forum, I spent the day reading about stocks. I saved some highlights from my reading and youtube comments… Also read about some mega investor (softbank) using (“abusing”) options, seems like the whole thing is rigged when money is concentrated like that.

some random stuff I saved…

Nvidia, Zoom, Facebook, Microsoft, Google, Wells Fargo, Netflix

'll wait to sell Exxon when it’s $70 again in a couple years. Eventually this pandemic will be over and people world-wide will travel like crazy to celebrate, driving up the oil price. I bought at $39 so the gains will be sweet. If it goes to $30 I’ll buy even more.

MSFT, APPLE AND TSLA are to keep??

Disney

What’s an investors to do in the meantime?

“There is a good part of the market that’s underpriced,” he said. “Airlines, transportation and hospitality have performed poorly, and some represent good value for patient investors who can tolerate the risk as a part of their portfolio.”

I might consider investing something if the market doesn’t crash before spring, don’t want to be left behind considering the amount of unrestricted inflation, oddly caused by Trumps laissez-faire policy conflicting with incompetent local governments.

My plans for st1 are to run it every night with another sub to test if my mind will “reject” it or if my day goes in some constructive manner. If I wake up neutral or better despite how the day goes, this is acceptable to me, and will keep the sub in mind for future daytime listening/stacks.


#2

1 week~

Stack in order… Looped max 15~ hours (overnight till I turn it off)
Khan st1 2x
Inner circle 1x
Khan st1 1x
HOM 1x

Whole week is antisocial, before I would do stuff/buy/exercise for future benefit, but the benefits I want are selfish. My actions benefit me only in fantasy, and I am not willing to bring down the walls to help others and a casualty of this, myself.

If I was being lectured by Jung, I would interpret his explanation as… all the downsides of an overpowering but faulty/inflated Superego, but none of the benefits.

Summary

This character name “No-Face”, has devloped something called Narcissism.

The integration of culture and ones self identification to it is healthy. Commonly I see a rejection of the culture but still an identification to it, Internal boundaries maintain safety. This is still good.

It is tempting to abandon oneself for the greater good. This was a tactic used by both the Roman Empire and the current interventionist United States (Post WWII). The Romans peacefully annexed willing city states, and intermixed deities with roman ones, as a promise of cultural unity and glory. United States uses democracy and capitalism as the casus belli, for progress and peace.

Both societies flourished on the promise of acceptance and success above any other issue. Promise power/wealth to those that want it the most, but cannot get/deserve it… they will they spread freedom and glory faster than any slave will.

The basic recipe of ambition, to shine light into the world to stave off the darkness within, but not willing to point it at oneself… for the enemy is not oneself, but the other…

Anyways to summarize my current experience with ST1, I feel it is amplifying something “Good”, but I may not agree with it. I am also falling into bad habits despite my focus on the positive.