Starting my journal even though I’m in the middle of Khan.
Stage 3 to be exact.
First I thought I would never run Khan as it screams do not run this of you are in a monogamous relationship back to Khan V1 days.
Khan V2 seemed like it improved a lot more of the dominance and decisive aspect which is something I have been working on for a while.
My wife and I recently had a baby and as many things when being new parents we went through a year of turmoil and a lot of working things out as a couple.
Then Primal Nights came along and completely redefined our relationship. We have never had this fulfilling of a sex life even in our college days or before my child was born.
With that fulfilling sex life, our emotional connection grew deeper and deeper.
Then not sure what possessed me, but after years of actively avoiding it, I began running Khan which has been a wonderful surprise.
Usually with dominance subs, I express them in a way i don’t like, but khan must have hit something that helps me express that dominance in a subtle matter.
Our sex life has taken a slight dip since I dropped PN for Khan, but still much better than ever before.
I have more respect for myself and others.
Despite this being a dominance title, I found yesterday I could be childish with my toddler and nurturing even with the iron clad dominance on the inside.
It’s like the steel developing on the inside allows me to soften up on the outside as I discover who I am.
I notice myself listening to country music again which I have not for the longest time and remembered oh I actually enjoy this genre.
I have always had a high libido so I am using Khan and sex to power my wealth subliminal using that sexual energy to boost my creativity. It’s like trying to contain a fire to create steam to make a steam engine run.