So it has been a very long time since I have posted here.
I have somewhat kept a off-line journal but I feel that at this point of my journey I need to be held a bit more accountable. What brings here…yet again? A case of a heart break.
Not too long ago I met a girl through a circle of friends. I already knew her, but had never had gotten to know her or get acquainted with her so to speak. At felt good at that time, I was upbeat and confident. I took her home, made her mine and that was that. I quickly developed a bond with her, it was really strange. She wasn’t particularly hot but kind of cool to hang out with. Fast forward a couple of weeks later, I behaved like a bitch, tried to unconsciously lock her down in an official relationship. I overpursued, linking her more than she liked me. Realizing that I had fucked up, I backed away a little, but did not deal well with censoring myself or having to refrain myself even though I knew that it needed to be done.
As things became a bit strange I also lost some of my desire/stamina with her. Because she isn’t really physically hot, most of my excitement was due to how I felt about her, “feeling based” so to speak rather than carnal. So now we see each other once a week, same for the sex which even brings anxiety because I dont know if I will be able to give her the pounding she is expecting. As a result I turned to two titles that seemed to make complete sense for this:
Khan Black: especially for Stage 1 as I really need to heal from some past traumas and insecurities. I am 41 and I have had cases of ED since I was in my late 20s. I know it s not mechanical as I am a strong and healthy guy. So I must heal.
Primal Nights well… because I want to be that guy…less and less for her as I don’t think our relationship as any future but for the next one because I don’t want this problem to haunt me forever.
The big question is whether to Stick with Khan as a third title as I have always been able to meet and seduce new women with that one…or go with Stark which is a bit more social I believe while focusing also on wealth. As far as my goals go, I would love to meet a couple of new good looking women during the summer. I would also love to build a business on the side, maybe an ecommerce business so I also need something that would help me focus on building that. I am curious to hear your insights.
Khan + KB + Primal Nights is going to be an incredible combo.
I think used properly you’ll find KB give you so much extra energy, AND better control of that energy, which you could point towards wealth.
I’ve ran KB/Khan successfully as a stack.
Thanks for your insight @Jouissance
I will post here regularly on my progress.
I am moving towards major changes as I cannot accept my situation any longer.
Stick with it
Khan
Khan black
Primal nights
Perfect long term stack for you
Khan black is incredible you’ll love it. Stick to them as long as you can.
@Jouissance @Spartan Not trying to derail OP’s thread but both khan’s stacked together are good to go?
I want to do this, but I don’t want to derail the spotlight of KB. You guys had good effects running both of these?
I’ve seen some people on here run this combo and it seems very fire. But you’d have to ask others for that. Nothing wrong with it in my eyes. I think they are actually much much much better together than apart
Khan gets to be less jaded as he heals his perception of sex and genders and such so he has more detached objective look and judgement in every day khanny interactions
And khan black is much more powerful since it is boosted by the sexual power of khan so you can use all that energy for whatever you need plus your health probably prospers too
They go well hand in hand. Very complementary
my only concern is getting the full benefits out of both but from what you’re saying and others, it seems like running these 2 together doesn’t dilute the other
I mean, it sounds to me like you’re looking less for casual sex and more for a romantic dating partner with long-term potential. Solution I’d recommend is Heartsong + Primal Romance to attract women that have that same goal, then toss in some Primal Nights once a sexual relationship begins to take off for that “fun” factor.
If you’re looking for romance and she’s just looking for sexual release, there’s no title that will “fix” this dynamic. It simply is what it is, unless time proves otherwise.
And are you really beating yourself up for authentically telling her your intentions, or what you wanted? Will you take this “rejection” as a sign that you should then “fix the problem” of wanting a more fulfilling relationship experience? This is not me judging, more like questions to think about as you go through stack options, or… not using a subliminal to “fix” something that may not be a problem?
Yes, Khan Black can help with this.
Be mindful of it but yes. I was expecting a lot of recon but it was a good experience. There was recon but KB teaches you how to move energy so it moves quickly.
If I understand correctly, you’ve already ran Khan, so stacking ST1 KB with ST2 Khan would be great for attracting/healing.
ST1 is definitely the best for healing ED/Sexual stuff so that’s why I’d do a long run of ST1 first.
ST1 KB + ST4 Khan would be pretty good for attracting AND Wealth but you’d want to make sure you’ve ran a Lot of the other stages first if ur gonna stack it with KB. ST4 Khan much denser than other stages
I love heartsong but I think in a way a run of Khan/KB first can help you get to the level where you’re manifesting a partner from total abundance not from ANY perceived lack - so much of heartsong recon probably comes from people wanting “soulmates” so they can never deal with the uncertainty/anxiety/rejection/patience-required of dating ever again.
Compare that with the man who has already conquered the world and now has his pick of any queen from any nation in the world. Who would have a better relationship? The king or the courier?
The king, obvs.
@Jouissance @ryder004 @Spartan @SaintSovereign
Thank you so much for all of your guidance, feedback and input.
You have really helped me reflect at my situation and see at a multifaceted landscape.
Looking back at what happened with this situationship with this girl is that despite her not looking for a long term commitment her behavior towards me started degrading as soon as I started displaying beta male behavior speaking way too early about "our relationship"and trying to lock her into a commitment. That was female behavior and so I got treated like a b***h…and the reason why I exhibited this behavior is because I believe to not have come from a place of abundance, sexual abundance. Prior to meeting her I had gone through a drought. Naturally when I met her I was displaying high confidence, dominance, alpha behavior, I was on Khan ST2. So that is settled. I want to be back in my masculine, on my purpose, doing more of the things that make me a man and invite the next meaningful relationship into my life coming from a place of choice and abundance. I need to level up financially as well and move forward with my life.
As far as my first day or day 1, it consisted of one 4 minute loop of Khan Black ST1 and 1 loop of Primal Nights. I ran this loop yesterday on Monday the 26th of May, in the morning shortly after waking up.
What I noticed throughout the day is not much coming from Primal Nights yet sort of a nonchalant energy coming form KB. I started feeling slightly better even if I was tired from a dopamine depleting weekend prior. I was less obsessive about my case of oneitis 
and starting seeing things more for what they are…which in turn helped me relaxed. Coming home at night I went to my workout session without too much hesitation I must say, noticing that I was focused and effective.
Where it gets interesting is at night my dreams were super vivid and deeply meaningful.
First one was an encounter with my deceased father. He was sitting on the couch at my old appartement.
I don’t quite recall what sparked it but I burst into sudden rage after one of he had thrown one of his demeaning remarks to me…I told him I was either going to break his face in or kill myself. Wow!
Then afterwards another dream involving an alluring woman and me starting a huge fire that got rapidly out of hands…
This makes me think that I need to write my dreams as soon as I wake up on the little log book that I have.
Today as my rest day, I was even more relaxed than yesterday. It was interesting, the energy was really lighter than usual. I did not feel the drag of things even the smallest of things can feel like a burden sometimes but not today.
There is kind of a peace, a certain calmness, it is hard to describe.
I have also noticed that the people who naturally appreciate me have appreciated me even more today.
Funny thing is that the two women in the late twenties I work with both displayed strange signs of attractions with me…almost like they were in a relationship with me.
Spending 6 to 7 hours a day with them, I can feel this subtle shift in energy.
If I attribute it to Primal Nights then It is more than enough of good results for me from this sub as the interactions with women who are attracted to me already is very pleasurable, even with sex out of the equation.
Well that was certainly an interesting day.
Thanks again to all of you for taking the time to help guide my first steps.
Day 3: Loop of KHAN ST1 4.5minutes
I vowed to report daily so I will report. Today was a hard day.
I was very irritable at work this morning. I ran one loop of a little over 4 minutes of Khan ST1.
I decided to start back at ST1, even though last time I had ran Khan I stopped at the begining of ST3 I felt like I was necessary to start back at ST1 to get the most out of the sub.
As I run on day 1: KB ST1 and Primal Nights and on day: Khan ST1. This is going to be a little while before I get to stage 2 but it doesn’t really matter.
So this morning I got very irritable at work, lost my shit on one of my banking client that was clearing abusing my kindness. I was focused though and made it a point to close each open loop as it is sometimes very difficult as a financial advisor to do that as I get bombarded by clients’ requests all day.
Both of my females colleagues were overly flirty again touchy ( meaning handsy or touching me repeatedly)…as they were kind of competing for my attention which was pleasant.
I still think about the one girl way I was referring to my earlier post too often to my liking.
I must control my thoughts but it is hard. I think at this stage I still consider this situationship as a failure.
I must learn to be confortable with failure and get some perspective.
Today I have been pondering a lot about how I have an urge to really find my purpose and throw myself fully into it. Living without one clearly define and which I am going after has made my life disatisfying and empty and maybe also unattractive to women.
Dreams are kind of still crazy. I don’t remember the ones I did last night but I know they were intense again.
Not much else to report for today.
Stay strong!
Day 5: 1 loop Khan Black ST1 + 5 min loop of Primal Nights
Ok so today isn’t the easiest for me.
I went out to a techno festival yesterday and really abused my health.
I barely slept at all and find myself in a bit of depressed mood today…exactly the trap I want to avoid falling back into.
It s time for me to recognize that I have been stuck in a loop of substance abuse.
It is time to take extreme ownership of it all and stop blaming my destructive tendencies on factors outside of myself. I have what it takes. I will emerge on the other side stronger.
Nothing else to report really. I took a girl home last night amidst drugs and alcohol.
I quickly realized that she was substandard physically so I didn’t sleep with her which looking back is a good thing.
This will be a quick log just meant to keep the discipline and build the habit.
Did somewhat of a small washout over the last 5 days as I am in holiday.
I just restarted today with a new 5 loop of Khan.
As we are away vacationing in a remote place without much “new” human interactions so to speak I cannot attest of much noticeable changes.
I am processing a break up really…so I’m in between states.
I do notice a certain ease bantering with people, like cashiers, random people in general which is something I appreciate.
Morning woods are bananas as well as sexual dreams which tend to be more romantic than sexual astonishingly and almost everynight now since I have started this stack of Khan Khan Black and Primal nights. I am still on stage one for both Khan.
Other than that I am keeping the journaling going.
The itch to switch sub is rearing its ugly head.
This week of holiday has been helping me take some perspective on the things i have been going trough.
Khan stage 1 is bringing all kinds of feelings to the surface. I cant tell if listening to primal nights is adding much value added at this point though. I might take it off my listening rotation.