I feel most shame, slug shaming and seeing girls as worthless and valueless creatures goinf away.
I have always felt incomplete without a girl in my goals and mission but this also seems to be fading away.
But the disgusting and ewucky nature of human body, fluids, blood, sweat, poo, pee, tears is not going away?
What can I expect from KBs stage 2 3 and 4?
If this is an intense starting point for you, I would recommend staying on KB ST1 for 2-3 months. Let a lot of healing take place.
Perhaps consider stacking it with LBFH, aka Love Bomb For Humanity, which is a free title, and it will really help with all kinds of areas in life, especially seeing people as valuable, and having more love for them and for yourself overall.
You’ve decided to run a subliminal whose objectives, right there in the copy, say:
The Crucible initiates an intense healing process, targeting and repairing any traumas, insecurities, or limiting beliefs surrounding your sexual energy and sexuality.
and
Challenges you to confront and overcome your deepest fears, insecurities, and limitations regarding sexuality, sexual expression, and sexual energy.
Are you surprised that it’s doing exactly what it says it was going to do?
Now that it’s brought up this disgust you have for the human body, this limiting belief, fear and insecurity (as far as I know you’re living inside a human body), you have several different choices.
You could try to track down what events in your life led to you taking on this belief, and determine if it’s still in alignment with who you are.
You could examine other perspectives on the human body, for example the body as a house/temple for the indwelling spirit, or the idea of being “fearfully and wonderfully made”. You could look at it as a vehicle to be mastered. Or better still, look at the ideas present in Emperor Reforged around sovereignty and apply a resonance test to that subliminal.
You could push yourself to participate in events that make you face this disgust, preferably ones that are pleasant in nature so you get to dwell on this paradox.
You could choose not to judge the human bodies by the excrements it throws away (pee, poo, sweat)
And so on. Reframing things is a great tool to use in these sorts of situations, And test whether that reframing feels like a truth to you, because lying to yourself is just as bad if not worse than having a limiting belief.
Look at this opportunity as a great gift the subliminal has given you to be able to shove this part of your belief system right in your face where you can’t ignore it. You’ve learned something about yourself, and if you don’t like it, you can change it. That’s what taking action is there for