I just listened to KB stage 4 for 5 mins. Immediately after I did a microcosmic orbit meditation on YouTube. I felt heat in my lower belly and moved this energy up my spine to the top of the head and back down along the front side of the body. After about 6 mins I could feel this heat circulating in the orbit. The energy feels nice, warm, fuzzy and blissful. I’m mind feels clearer and body feels relaxed and warm/buzzing. Just wanted to share my experience. Has anyone else used KB to help improve their mediation and energy-work practices. If so what was your experience?
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I’m on a week long washout. I’m getting more looks form people in public. I’m feeling like yuck stuck and what the fuck. Having vivid dreams every night. Feeling discouraged about life. Like I’m not disciplined enough. Ok that was a total lie. I meditate everyday. I do breath work everyday. I repeat my mantras and Affirmations everyday. I do energy-work clearings everyday. I do inner smile everyday. I say my mantras while I fall asleep every night. I chant with others every Sunday. I get up early and make my bed every day. I’m aware of other illogical realities. Facilitate entities. Clear spaces wherever I go. Manifest things that I have little resistance to very quickly. Connecting with my spiritual allies in other reality’s and dreams. Yet I feel so lost and my logical mind doesn’t know what to do next. Might have something to do with being in between eclipses. Yep that’s it. Having an hunch that I’m picking up on others thoughts feeling and emotions and taking them on as my own. Making me feel insane. Feeling the call of the shaman intensifying within me. If I don’t follow that call, I could fall sick or even die. Want to just go into the forest and facilitate with all the spirits for a week. Feeling pressure to break off the chains of limitations of my own mind. Feeling the primal urge to just fuck every attractive woman I know. Feeling the sexual energy in my sacral growing so much, that I have to help heal myself and others or through creative art. Sensing that darkness and primal destruction inside of me. Imagining ripping off the heads of demons and other predatory entities. Sucking the energy from them and taking and transmuting that energy inside of me. Feeding off the energies and taking it for my own. Like a real vampire. Feeling the predator awakening inside of me. Feeling my claws and fangs growing energetically. Feeling so much transformation and death. I’m so sensitive to noise. Like the ears of a bat. Seeing shadows and movements in the corners of my eyes. Exciting me to the opportunity to hunt those nasty entities. Consume them. Doing the world a favor by hunting them down. Yet I feel so alien. I could never tell a muggle what I’m saying here. They would never understand the work I do. I should be paid to do this kind of spiritual work. Yes, I’m asking to be payed to do this. Thank you. Releasing the guilt of not knowing. Releasing the shame of not acknowledging. Releasing the pain of being totally different from others. Acknowledging the shaman within me. Acknowledging the other realities that I’m totally aware of. Acknowledging the unseen realms. Acknowledging that my imaginations are real realities. Acknowledging that I talk to plants, minerals, animals, insects and all other kinds of illogical beings. No I’m not on drugs, I’m a shaman. Trance is one of the states that I fall into a lot. Yes I have a very vivid imagination. Yes I am highly creative and aware. Yes I use a whole brain point of view. I don’t see from left or right brain but I see from whole brain. Yes I’ve felt kundalini and had dreams about snakes. Yes I’ve seen the golden light from within. Yes I see things others don’t. Yes I’m very psychic and intuitive. Yes I ask so many questions. Like. What’s right about me that I’m not getting? What judgments am I using and choosing that is creating the illusion and insanity of this reality? What possibilities am I not willing to choose or acknowledge here? What’s the value of choosing what everyone else is choosing instead of choosing what my soul is asking from me? How does it get any better than this?
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