Khan and Friends - Bjay Journal

Journals - Major Programs
#1

After a long back and forth, I have finally decided to run Khan.
I have played with the idea for a very long time, but somehow I have always discarded it again.

My goal is to grow as a man and build a solid foundation that has not only external status but especially internal.

What that means exactly I will learn the next few weeks and define more precisely.
I think as a man it is important to have a direction in which you can go and grow.

I try to share my raw, personal thoughts in the journal.

Right now I am halfway through the first round of Khan St. 1 and Lbfh.
I’ll be committing only to Khan in the long run, first and foremost. The subs I play on the side will change. However, I don’t want to commit as I want to see what is best for me after each cycle.

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#2

Normally I am quite athletic and work out almost every day. However, the last few weeks I have not been able to exercise properly because of pain that comes from poor posture.
I went to the chiropractor and he said that my pelvis is crooked and because of that one of my legs is longer.

The treatment helped a little bit. However, it also made me realize that I need to do more myself for healthy posture. I found a program on the Internet. The good thing about it is that it is rather small routines that I can integrate well into everyday life.

#3

As I said, the main thing for me with Khan is to create a foundation. But what does that even mean to me.

First and foremost, it’s doing the little things that may not seem sexy or seem rather boring. Gaining more control in my life in the areas that I can control. To deal more calmly with things in areas where I have no influence.

Do the little things with more joy and more awareness.

#4

What is the difference between an introvert and an extrovert with social anxiety?

I would say that they act very similarly but the extrovert feels bad about it. I don’t know.

#5

Had an really productive day.
Workout in the morning with some stretching.
A lot to do at work. Time was flying. But it was good.
An female employee at the groceries im here and there flirting a bit and she gave me an hug as she saw me.
Was able to get some sun after work.

What i have noticed is that i have only minimal to no recon. I was expecting a lot more with Khan St. 1. Im not complaining.

Feel very grounded and have inner peace. A feeling I haven’t had for a long time.

#6

My thoughts are getting a lot more sexual. There is a woman that works on the grocerie store I go daily for lunch. She likes me a lot and literally said that she wants to have sex with me but I said no because she is in a relationship.
I have now increased thoughts to go into it and what I could do with her. I will not act on it because woman in a relationship are an no go for me.

#7

And yes Khan make you horny as f+ck

#8

This little monster called porn is still very hungry and wants me to feed it…

Was outside for a walk and listen to some uplifting music. This gave me a confidence boost. Remember always, its not enough to not looking at porn. You have to replace it with something that is good for you. Best in the long term.

#9

The Porn Reboot and the 75Hard program both take a lot of energy and willpower. Today I had a very heavy head, brain fog and headache. I will now put my focus completely on the reboot and do what I really didn’t want to do. I will change the tasks from 75Hard. So im not really doing 75Hard anymore but that’s ok for me.
As soon as not so much willpower is needed anymore and I have more energy I will do it again.

So what do I want to change.

  • 1x workout a day remains. If I have training break, then I go running.
  • The picture stays
  • Drinking 3,5 liters of water stays. However workout boosters or supplements count to it
  • Reading 10 pages stays
  • I will only reset the countdown should I PMO’n
  • Eat in small calorie surplus remains.

So these are only small changes to the original program. However, it takes the pressure off 75Hard and I can focus more on the reboot.

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#10

I have just noticed that it is much easier for me to talk about topics like porn addiction and what difficulties I have with it. In the past I would not have posted something like that. Not even anonymously in an online forum. This is definitely a Khan result.

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#11

The last few days have been very exhausting. I’m in a kind of flatline right now. I would love to just sleep all day. I hardly have any energy to do anything.
I’m really wondering if it’s such a good idea to listen to Khan during my porn reboot.
The reboot already has its side effects which can be quite hard.

Khan has also been quite challenging the last few days.
I’m really thinking about whether it’s the right time right now. Maybe when I’m further along in the process and more settled.

Well, my first round is over and now comes the washout. So I have a few days to weigh it out whether it makes sense or I should change subs.

#12

One thing I need to learn is that it’s okay to do nothing. Especially on days when I have little energy or drive. There will be more days like that. It is part of progress and not a bad thing.
Ask yourself this: Would it be a success if you did nothing else for the next 90 days but quit watching porn?

Yes it would be a huge success. So have a little indulgence with yourself