As always, what I planned to never do - or thought I’d never do - is what I’m doing today.
Reminds of the thread where a person asked about astrology and Saint’s reply was - honestly it scares me (a part of it, so don’t take it out of context)
That answer connected to me on a deeper level. It made me feel like “I know right!”
Well, once I start Journalling, I don’t stop. Unless something takes my attention. I enjoy Journalling - it’s like a honest conversation and you feel better than when you started.
So, perhaps I should clarify more on how I am currently utilising this journal. Each post is written after about 4-5 mins of meditation.
When I read them, I get the feelings of the time I was meditating - something more profound than just text. Although I do want to express in words for your benefit and I will do so wherever I am able to express well.
The goal of this journal is not to put words to the thoughts - it’s more of feelings to the summarised lines.
Quotes and few lines at the right time have had such profound impact on me. I want to create such magic for me and others.
Went for a morning walk after so long - my thighs have this tickling sensation from inside after I stopped walking and sat down. Are my veins opening up? 
It was funnn and I feel freshhh
Helped me get out of the usual routine and get some fresh air in the morning. It was gooooood.
The mammal brain is too obvious to me at this point. I can pin point as to which brain is working at what time and I can navigate between them. Such a blessing to know the differences between the various brains - I recommend everyone to study it.
Breathing better too after the walk. Feels good. Good healthy dopamine.
Hopefully should receive the WTP, IC and HoM custom soon. Can’t wait!
It’s generally when something feels out of reach that we pray for something greater than us. Little do we know, we have so much within us.
All the Journalling yesterday, I seem to realise that the connection to god and myths happens to let me know deep down that these have been limiting you. Today when I am fresh, I understand that to truly progress, one must first stand by himself and do it.
I think the recon is lifting up, will continue not listening to PROSPERA today too. I feel transformed and changed. Last few days were the darkest days before the sunlight.
It’s true - deep transformation - hits deeper parts when you run the whole audio. I feel grateful that I did run the 3 days tho now that I can see the light at the end of the tunnel or maybe I already am out. Perhaps I am being humble because recon can knock you down without a hint.
The tickling sensation in the thighs have settled, I feel calm and composed. During the walk, I had to fight so much in my mind - perhaps the recon again and the lack of sleep. It was like a war.
Anyway, I can stretch my legs for a while and get moving.
Today’s goals - Finish “Freakonomics” & Start “Thinking in Systems” - Read as much as possible.
How important are degrees and accolades?
I’d argue quite - but in a different way - a subconscious way. It’s positioning as a “superior”.
Everyone has to accomplish their true potential. True potential is without a ceiling - often times it’s a lack of right approach.
“Be so good, that your worst day performance is better than most people’s best day performance.”
“The duel has not yet ended.”
I crave deep conversations. They enrich my soul.
