Journal : Subliminal Journey with A Stark Black Reality

Journals - Major Programs
#1

So, after the second day of listening, I decided to journal my daily experience or anything that comes up in my day here.

My goal is to build a recognition for myself. Whatever may be the reason, the unconscious blockages or the trauma from my past that is blocking the results of my hard work, I want it to open up.

I have already done lots of things and am still doing them, but the only thing is I am waiting for exposure.

& I hope Stark Black Will help me with it.

One thing was very common in my washout day so far. That is awareness. Negative thoughts and emotions were few compared to other days. Sometimes, the sudden burst of anger was triggered by external activities but didn’t take a toll on me. I calmed down.

I don’t want to stack with other subliminals this time. I want to go solo. I am hungry for fame and a little bit of respect and identity. That’s it.

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#2

June 22, 2025

It has been 8 days since I started listening to A Stark Black Reality. I started on June 14.
I am listening one day on, one day off. Only one loop per listening day, in the evening. I have followed this strictly without any overuse. So far, I have completed 4 listening days.

Physically, I have noticed some mild headaches, mostly on listening days. There is also a sense of tiredness and occasional mental fog. Nothing too strong, but it is there.

Emotionally, I do not feel as overwhelmed. The heaviness comes in phases but it is not as intense or hard to deal with. I think listening to Emperor for two full cycles earlier may have helped reduce the emotional impact.

Dreams so far:

  • Snake
  • Driving a car with no brakes
  • Walking through muddy road
  • Being ignored or left out
  • Having a clear speech in mind but not being allowed to speak in public gathering. It felt like I had something strong to say, but the chance never came.

Right now I am not fully confident to say that a shift is happening. I will continue observing.

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#3

June 23, 2025 (Rest Day – after 5th loop)

Yesterday was my 5th loop. I listened in the evening as usual.

After listening, sleep was disrupted. I could not fall asleep deeply. I kept waking up throughout the night. It was like I was dreaming, but also half-awake. My mind felt unusually active, like the subliminal was still running in the background even during sleep.

Today during the day, I noticed my mind was much quieter. There was very little mental chatter. While eating breakfast, I was fully aware of my body. For a moment, I felt a kind of sympathy or compassion for myself. It was subtle but noticeable — like being present with myself without resistance.

Also, one major shift: I noticed I did not want to waste time anymore. The usual urge to binge-watch or check YouTube or other leisure activities started to feel uncomfortable.

The moment I got distracted, my mind would become like a child who has made up their mind to get the candy and is forcing the parent to give in. But when I returned to a task, my focus came back quickly and strongly. The urges to distract myself just disappeared.

I finished something today that I initially thought would take me a week. Productivity has gone up without trying. I was just present, focused, and clear. It happened naturally.

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#4

June 26, 2025 (Today will be Loop 7 Day)

Today is the day to listen my 7th loop .

Possibly because of previous exposure to Alpha Male and two full cycles of Emperor, I am not experiencing any strong negative effects or emotional resistance (reconciliation) so far. The usual heaviness or pushback just is not there.

Today, I noticed a sudden rise in positive emotions. There was a clear shift in confidence, not forced — just naturally present. It showed up randomly during the day. No mental noise or doubt around it.

One noticeable change: I am less affected by criticism or negative remarks. No urge to prove anything, no emotional reaction to being misunderstood or misjudged. I simply let it go.

Earlier, if someone pointed fingers or made a snide comment, I would usually jump in to defend or explain. But today, in one such moment, I just smiled and felt nothing. Internally, I remember thinking: I feel sorry for this person — that is the only world he knows. And I moved on. No need to argue or prove anything.

That response was different for me. Calm, detached, and respectful — without trying to be.

Also, there is now a strong sense of certainty that my life has changed and will continue to change. It does not feel like hope. It feels like something real has already shifted, and I am simply moving through the outcome.

Dreams are also becoming more revealing. I am seeing things I have never dreamed about before — very specific and symbolic. For example, dreams about my articles not getting published in local newspapers, or situations where I am not being given the opportunity to speak. These feel like old layers of rejection or invisibility being processed and cleared. It seems like past emotional blocks are surfacing and healing through dream space.

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#5

June 28, 2025 (Loop 8 Day)

Today will be my 8th loop this evening.

There was a specific web-based project I had estimated to complete by July 11. I had even given that deadline to the client. But yesterday, I finished the entire thing and submitted it ahead of time — more than two weeks early. That was unexpected. It did not feel rushed either — just efficient, clear, and steady. A definite shift in productivity.

Another thing I am noticing is a growing awareness of my body. It feels like attention is shifting inward — toward health-related issues I had been ignoring. I have never really been body-conscious before, but now I recognise where I might have been neglecting myself.

The feeling is not fear — more like compassion. Almost like saying to myself: “I am sorry for how I have treated you. I should have done better.” That tone of inner care is new for me.

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#6

July 1, 2025
Journal Update (After Loop 9)

I completed my 9th loop yesterday evening.

After Loop 8, things took a turn for the worse. It was as if a calm, silent sea suddenly became violent. What had been a focused and productive rhythm collapsed into chaos. The most intense symptom was the headache, not mild or occasional, but abnormal and recurring in waves. It would ease for a while, then return with pressure and discomfort. This lasted for nearly 24 hours. Fatigue followed, enough to dull my energy and clarity.

Sleep was not affected, but the combination of physical exhaustion and emotional noise made it difficult to stay mentally sharp. Old fears, insecurities, and low self-talk came flooding back. Thoughts I had not entertained in a long time returned without warning. It was clear that reconciliation had begun. A deep clash between the old version of me and what is trying to emerge.

Thankfully, by the next day, before Loop 9, the internal storm began to settle. The headaches faded, energy started to return, and I felt grounded enough to continue listening.

Now, after Loop 9, the emotional weight has mostly lifted. I am not yet at the clarity I had before, but something inside is stabilizing again.

Staying observant. Letting the process unfold.

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#7

Journal Entry – July 14, 2025
– Loop 16 (In Progress Today)

It has been a while since I last updated this journal. The previous entry was on July 1, after completing Loop 9. There has been no update since then. The gap happened because I got a bit busy with other things in life. However, I did not stop listening. As of today, I will complete Loop 16 of Stark Black Reality.

Several internal changes have started to show up, gradually but clearly. One of the most noticeable changes is in my emotional response. I get angry, but not in an unhealthy or explosive way. It is more about being brutally honest. Words come out of my mouth without filters. It feels like there is no chill. I say what I feel. There is a rawness to it, not fueled by rage, but by clarity. It feels as though I no longer have the patience to pretend or hide what I think.

The most surprising shift is my focus on self-care, especially physical appearance and fitness. I have never gone to the gym. I have never followed any bodybuilding routine. I was never even interested. But around Loop 13, that disinterest started to fade. Out of nowhere, I felt a sudden push to build abs, start doing pushups, and just get into better shape. This desire is strong and feels natural. Starting tomorrow, I will begin working on it.

Another strange but positive change is my complete breakup with tea. I used to drink at least four cups of tea a day. I loved it. Then something unexpected happened. I started experiencing discomfort while urinating. This has never happened before in my life. I do not drink coffee or any other caffeinated beverages, so the only suspect was tea. I stopped drinking tea for two days, and everything went back to normal. I tried drinking it again, and the discomfort returned. That was enough for me. I quit tea entirely. It has now been more than a week without it. I have replaced it with two litres of water per day.

To sum up, there is a definite shift happening. Brutal honesty, focus on fitness, and cutting out things that no longer serve me — it all feels like the subliminal is gradually reprogramming my core behaviors. Let me see where Loop 16 takes me today.

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