. New cycle ! Day 01 .
. Sym:S - 20s .
I’m really excited. During the washout, I revisited some ThetaHealing knowledge to help me heal and bring closure to certain patterns, and I’m really happy with the results. Happy to notice my genuine openness to changing some things too.
Today, I’m feeling inspired by the courage of everyone who dares to take the ‘leap of faith’ — like Miles, one of my favorite Spider. I’m staying inspired by that to guide this new cycle of mine!
. Rest day .
I’ve been reconnecting more with God’s energy these past few days — and I have to say, I really missed it. I’ve taken a deep dive back into the basics of ThetaHealing, which is, essentially, connecting to the Universal Source, Divine Intelligence, and having a conversation with it — asking for insights, downloads, and witnessing them come to me and into my life. It’s been really good. I want to get back into the habit of doing this more consistently.
And yes, I’ve been feeling much more intuitive lately — like, I’ll be walking down the street and just know exactly where I can go to find a power outlet to charge my phone, without even needing to ask anyone. It’s been kind of fascinating to connect with my intuition in this way.
I’m also feeling calmer in general.
Seductress, in the first few days, made me really want to be seen and surrounded by people — but now I’m in a phase where I’m okay just being more chill, even if that means being alone. Preserving my energy feels important right now.
. Rest day .
Life on Earth is not for the weak. G!
I’m soooo done with some kinds of learnings.
I’m glad there’s a part of me that trusts the processes and my own path a lot.
. Rest day .
I’m giving myself more rest days to see how my system responds.
Today I also had the intuition to add RICH in between the audios.
I’m going to think about a flow that feels good for them.
Other than that, I’ve been having really vivid dreams lately.
I had a dream with a pool full of snakes.
Others where random people were talking to me and teaching me things.
And others where I met people from the cultural project I’m part of — people who’ve already left the city — and they also wanted to teach me something.
. Sym:S – 16s
EoG – 56s .
I’m just being — allowing myself to be more me, without so much fighting or that sense of unworthiness.
I ran a loop of LB the other day because I really needed support with some deep-shit experience I went through.
I’m letting go — and being invited to let go — of so many things.
I’m talking about deep spiritual patterns and situations.
Only love makes me trust in this surrender. Nothing else seems to comfort me right now, except the thought that “I can start seeing myself with more love now”.
. Sym:S - 16s .
I recently had a very new sexual experience with a man, and I feel it’s connected to the new spaces Seductress has been opening within me.
It was interesting to allow myself to open up to it and to watch how things unfolded, even with the many hesitations I still carry.
Also, a friend shared with me yesterday some changes she noticed in my body and posture over the past few weeks.
She told me that my voice feels deeper, more embodied, and that I’m able to transmit more strength through my physical presence and the way I carry myself.
She also said my face has changed — that my features look firmer, more grounded.
It’s funny to notice how my dominant side has been showing up more clearly.
Sometimes, I feel that people just want to be close to me — to sense, somehow, the energy that flows from me and speaks to them without words
. Rest day .
I’m loving seeing my connection with myself growing stronger, and also deepening my communication with God / The Source.
I’m also learning so much just by talking with older women — I feel more loving and open toward them, and it’s been such a curious, beautiful experience.
I can feel my yin side unfolding… but, damn, my yang side is also becoming so powerful and magnetic. I’m loving it.
. Sym: S - 24s .
Two people I was recently involved with romantically (my ex and the ‘goddess’) reached out to me these past few days, both had to do with some kind of closure.
My ex wanted to talk and clear up something that happened between us. And the other one reached out to ask for her things back.
Over the last few days, I’ve been really feeling the pain of a deep pattern: how I tend to forget myself whenever I’m too focused or emotionally invested in someone else. Sadly, I’ve lived like that for a long time.
Things have been unfolding at such a fast pace — especially in my relationships. I experienced so much in just two weeks with the goddess, and now it feels like it’s all stopped. I’m left sitting with everything I learned, and the inner shift her presence triggered in me.
As for my ex, the thing goes deeper… But even with her, I could feel more layers of disconnection unfolding.
. Rest day .
I feel sad today as I observe my internal movement with the subs and realize there are still deep layers within me where there’s no real space yet for true change to take root.
I keep up with my meditative practices — since starting Seductress, I’ve reconnected with the Source daily, asking for signs, releases, and the opening of new paths.
But even within this practice, there are days when I just feel really discouraged, and a strong urge to give up surfaces.
I’m trying to allow myself to be in this place without judging it too much
. EoG - 11s
Sym:S - 21s and 3 rest days .
I’m being so honest with myself and my life.
I’m also learning so much spiritually.
Lately, the situations in my life and the lessons they bring have been showing me the power of surrender —
of letting go of what doesn’t serve me, of releasing the things I clearly don’t control so I can focus on what I actually do.
I’m excited to try the Anti-Recon and see what comes from it too.
What’s been happening over here is a lot of healing — from a very real place. Not many tangible results on the outside, not that i’m aware of.
. Sym:S - 18s
EoG - 13s and 2 rest days .
These subs are making me cut off — and be cut off from — places and people that simply don’t fit me anymore, and that don’t align with the manifestation of this new energy.
Some bizarre situations have been happening to show me the reality of how I feel in certain spaces where I’m no longer meant to be. In one specific group, things have been going on for about two months, and I kept trying to ‘navigate,’ ‘ignore,’ or ‘force a continuation.’ But every time I connect with that group again, things get clearer.
Yesterday, I made a deep cut on my hand while I was there, and later, during meditation and while talking to chatgpt about the symbolism of what had happened, it became clear: my body is telling me — very clearly — which situations hurt me, and it’s been ‘forcing me to see’ through pain. Since in some cases, I’m still choosing to override my intuition.
So, I said I wasn’t seeing anything new — but the truth is, I’ve been feeling very ‘unfit’ in several places where I used to seem to belong. And maybe, this is a moment of ‘death’ or ‘detachment,’ so that the new manifestation can actually have space to arrive.
. Sym:S - 15s
EoG - 20s
and 1 rest day .
I can’t exactly explain what happened, but yesterday I had one of those big AHA MOMENTS about a situation in my life that changed everything. For the past two weeks, I’d been feeling really low in terms of self-worth because I wasn’t chosen for a position in the cultural group I’m part of, and I just couldn’t get out of that victim mindset.
But yesterday, I simply got it. I understood how to be at peace with that situation and how to reclaim my value for myself, with more authority — not tying it to whether or not I was chosen (an external event).
I don’t even know how it happened, and I wasn’t looking for a resolution. But something truly shifted inside me regarding my sense of worth.
I was really shaken last week because I realized how much I let go of myself to focus on the external — and how that’s a form of self-abandonment. I’ve been noticing lately how automatic that pattern became, and now I’m consciously talking me back to myself and saying, “Come back to you. Come back to your center. Only you can truly give yourself what you need and do some things for yourself.”
It’s been quite a journey. I’m in this transition between the old and the new.
Anyway, I wanted to share this here because I’m genuinely happy this AHA moment happened — it’s exactly the kind of realization that can change the whole course of our lives.
EoG - 25s
Sym:S - 22s
I’ve been noticing some gradual and subtle shifts in the way I deal with money. The clearest one lately has been how I feel about filling up my car with gas. A month ago, I used to feel a certain resentment about gas prices here in my country — they’ve gone up a lot over the past year.
But recently, I’ve actually been feeling quite grateful, especially because my car is fuel-efficient and I can drive A LOT around the city (especially if I compare it to how much I’d spend on Uber or other means of transport).
I really wish I already ‘felt ready’ to solve my financial situation. I’d love to add RoW, but I’m afraid it might be too much to process right now.
. 2 rest days .
Still dealing with some endings, but also having really beautiful experiences with my intuition. Lately, I’ve been trying this thing where I ask my intuition where I should go—like, if I want to have fun—and I hear this voice in my ear guiding me to the best place.
On Friday, I followed that voice and went to a bar in the city. When I got there, I felt in my heart that I should go to the back of the bar—and there he was, a friend who’s also part of the cultural group I’m in. For the first time, I was able to open up to someone from that group (other than my ex or that friend I also went through some endings with) about what I’ve been experiencing.
It was such an integrative moment because he gave me advice from the perspective of someone who’s been there for 8 years (5 years longer than me). It was helpful—he’s faced similar challenges, and his support felt both warm and encouraging.
Besides that, I’ve been making friends with someone new, and this weekend we went to a birthday party together. It feels good to realize that, even with all the challenges, there are new energies flowing in.
So, I believe this is the right moment to share this, but I’m certain that Symmetry: Seductress is a spiritual initiation. It’s an initiation into the new feminine that is being anchored on Earth, and I truly believe that anyone who finds their way to it carries a deep spirit of devotion—because they’re allowing themselves to go through profound transformations in service of greater harmony, softness, and love for themselves (and, ultimately, for others too, since true self-love naturally leads to that in the end).
I’m sure that no one is drawn to it randomly. Whoever is drawn to it is someone who’s ready to take on a new spiritual role.
A few months ago I wouldn’t have believed something like that was in the cards for me. But I can’t deny Seductress has tapped into something lately. There’s something there, I don’t quite know what it is. I worry sometimes I’m just looking for something to feel special though. I definitely agree though, this is a profound transformation. Moving to trust, harmony, intuition, all really powerful forces but blocked by fear for me.
It really makes sense to stay aware of that place of wanting to feel special… I think it’s an important and caring thing to observe. But I totally share the feeling: it really opened up a new space. I also think it’s important that we’re able to access it with gentleness and love, especially after so many years of being disconnected from that essence…
. Sym:S - 26s and rest day .
I’m feeling the difference in my internal posture without the EOG loop. It’s crazy to notice that some concepts are easier to let go of.
EOG makes me feel more at ease when it comes to money. It’s been four days since I last listened, and I can already feel that sense of ‘well-being’ fading — even if subtly. Although, some things do feel more integrated by now.
Anyway, my cycle is coming to an end soon, and I’m thinking about switching EOG for RoW. Or maybe alternating loops between the two.
Honestly, I’d really love to see the Rich Trader update. I want to find a way to approach trading that actually aligns with me, and maybe Rich Trader could help me see if dedicating myself to the financial market would feel more natural. I don’t know… sometimes I wonder if it’s my path, or if there’s another way to generate income at scale that would be easier and more aligned for me.
Still figuring it out.
“I can be centered, whole, and balanced — and still experience a deep, reciprocal, and conscious love.
I no longer need to split myself to be accepted.
I am a home to myself, and because of that, I attract those who are also a home within themselves.
I no longer wait for someone to save me — I walk alongside those who also know how to walk.”
(chatgpt suggestions to help reprogram a pattern)
How can I be happy if I’m so afraid of showing others who I really am ?