Thank you for explaining. I’m wondering if Sage and Chosen are amplifying your awareness of paradoxes in the world.
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No problems 
Yes, I believe so. I have been awakening to this truth for a while now. It first came with my isolation period, and therefore seeing my old life drift away. Then as I opened my eyes to look outward, the whole world seems to match my own experience of old paradigms crumbling, and sending it to chaos to be rebuilt again.
I wonder, as I know that all beings have their own experience and level of consciousness, that some see the world just as they have always seen it. Nothing wrong with that, but I’m an old soul, and I believe I have been here countless times before, and some things just seems soo deja vu and tiresome.
Adding to that having studied psychology in many forms for over a decade, makes me see it more clearly in the world and how things connect. I know most of my tendencies and as soon as I see them it makes my take a step back and reflect.
As I mentioned before, playing Sage and Regeneration seems to have brought up old traumas together with finding murky information of “so called dark” side of society, the ones that suck and oppress humanity. So it has been the feeling that digging that deep in my own subconscious, also illuminates it in the perceived world out there.
I found some really odd PDF’s and such, describing the lower astral realms, or rather some enteties or reptile like beings, and how they operate and their strengths and weaknesses.
But on the other side, I also was shown random YT clips of angelic energies, and reminding me of keeping my vibration high as the earth is entering into a new timeline, which will bring out old paradigms and energies that lacks integrity, and to be cast away.
So as I am mostly high energy these days, I can look at some of the horror going on now, and to just feel compassion and inspiration from it, instead of like I used to feel as an empath, a bit overwhelmed and dragged down by it. Chosen I feel has made a difference here.
In the end, it’s a bit amusing, because I live in the middle of nowhere in the forest, and I rarely even see other people or visit a populated area. So, everyting I perceive of the world is projected through a screen connected to a web so to speak. Maybe something called out for me to get out of the big city for some higher reasons I can’t explain.
It also forced me to pay off almost all loand except for some study ones. Also have a feeling that the way we handle currency and wealth will change, all the lock-downs and people losing their jobs will probably create a bigger down turn in the economy then in 1929… who knows…
Also geting strange clips appearing, like China hamstering all their grain supply, as to say there is going to be food shortages soon… seems a bit odd, fabricated? And also a lot of other things that I thought I learned somewhere on the way about our history growing up that questions it from the core.
Seems I have dissected a lot of the defences that the ego-mind has built up in me growing up from social conditioning, and that used to make me not question or block out something. And that’s what I see in my old world of friends atm. The truth is sitting right there in front of them, but they don’t see it… That’s the mechanism I’m talking about.
I guess it was the Nazis who said; The bigger the lie, the more it will be believed.
That’s why I have grown to like Socrates more lately. “The only true wisdom is in knowing you know nothing.” I question everything… because, why not?
So yeah, I’m doing just fine. Never been more relaxed in a way. Haven’t been drinking alcohol (31th soon, will drink then), or sugars, or bad foods, or anything that is unhealthy at all for months now.
How are you doing? What are you listening to now?
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I think you are in good company looking around the world, and wondering “what happened”?!
I’m glad being alone and changing your routine has been a time for reflection and awareness, and I think there are many who have experienced that as well.
I would encourage you to keep listening to Chosen and Sage. Perhaps twice a week rather than three times a week, and see what difference you notice.
As for me, I’m alright.
I’m listening to Chosen, and I love it!
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Amazing, and yes I will continue to listen to Chosen
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Now I am here, me the poor fool and see that we can’t know anything. That seems to burn my heart.
— Faust in Faust I by Goethe Johann Wolfgang von, Translation by me
Translation by deepl AI:
Faust
Have now, alas! Philosophy,
Jurisprudence and Medicine,
And unfortunately also theology
By all means studied, with hot endeavor.
Here I stand now, poor fool!
And am as wise as before;
My name is Magister, my name is Doctor
And am already drawing on the ten years
Up, down and across and crookedly
My students by the nose
And see that we can know nothing!
That almost wants to burn my heart.
Though I am cleverer than all the monkeys,
Doctors, masters, scribes and priests;
I am not troubled by scruples or doubts,
I fear neither hell nor devil.
For that all joy is snatched from me,
Do not imagine I know what is right,
I do not imagine that I can teach anything,
To reform and convert men.
Nor have I goods nor money,
Nor honor and glory of the world;
No dog would live so longer!
Therefore I have surrendered to magic,
Whether by spirit’s power and mouth
Many a secret would not be known;
That I no longer with sour sweat
To say what I do not know;
That I may know what holds the world
In the innermost holds together,
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This worldly experience is like the flie that gets stuck in the spider web, the more you fight and struggle, the more entangled you get, and sooner or later you are eaten by the spider.
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When you breathe, you don’t congratulate yourself on being virtuous. But breathing is a great virtue. It’s living. - Alan Watts
And some people say, that they just can’t find enough things to be grateful for 
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Would you please summarize you philosophy of life?
I think we would all benefit from you doing so.
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Yoyo,
Will do this soon. I’m on my water fast atm, so a bit light headed 
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In a world that has left our youth scarred for life, and when we ought to reconsider our behaviors and look at what it is doing to their mental health.
We stand to learn a lot more from them, then what they to us.
Two songs come o mind:
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“The ego was born out of trauma. The truth is buried under these layers of trauma.”
Two nights in a row of me just sleeping on to two hours at the most with wild vivid dreams, I log in as I awake in the night and find that within 1 minute both times of the release post from Saint of two new programs. Love Bomb, and then second day Chosen from within. Coincidences?
The false cannot survive the test of truth.
Wrote this in another journal:
That feeling when you are becoming more and more aware that all your adult life has more or less been one long string of coping mechanisms
Distractions, distract, distract… no that can’t be real… distract, distract…
lalalalala nothing to see here… 
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Who were you before the world told you who you were?
There is no change in the world, without a change in yourself first.
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Dragon Reborn ZP dropped perfectly after my 5 day washout. This settles it, a healing stack it is. Plan right now is Heartsong ZP, DR St4 ZP, and Love Bomb ZP.
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Some notes from the first listening of ST4:
- At 3 minutes in I start feeling relaxed and my skin feels soft, just as it would after a long bath and raisin fingers.
- Around 7-8 minutes in, I feel very relaxed and I can feel energy surge up my back and front torso.
- At 13 minutes, it feels as a beem of light is shooting out of my heart center, definately an aura thing.
- At 14 minutes, I’m starting to have a bit of surreal feeling and my vision is a bit foggy, not in a bad way.
- Directly after the loop, I feel a slight sensation on the left side of my heart. Focused all my attention there, and shortly after it released and energy was flowing through that area again.
- 10 minutes after, I’m experiencing an itchy head, and itching sensations all over my body. I believe this to be the relaxation affecting my usually dry skin during winter for the better.
After the loop I’m feeling alert and awake, and that is together with a relaxed feeling, remeinds me of the module Harmonic Singularity.
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