Ran four loops each today of Dragon Reborn Stages 1 & 2
notice anything specific from stage 2?
Not much yet. Maybe tomorrow
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Day 22 Stage One and Day two for Stage Two - I woke up feeling ok mentally and emotionally but physically I have to figure out how to get my right hip to stop wanting to hurt anytime I lay on it for very long. Something I noticed last night by accident is that I’m not so easily baited into having to verbally defend myself or give in to guilt trips. In the past both have been huge triggers for me but not so much anymore. At various times now I feel like I’m hitting that emotional and emotional point where I can do what I need to do and be left the fuck alone afterwards. Very little fear and very few distractions
Currently running a loop of Stage 1
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I have already managed to get in a loop each so far of Dragon Reborn Stage 1 & 2. Currently running a second loop of Stage 1. Keeping with the growth and insights I have come to realize how in the past I was critical of other people’s apparent immaturity and lack of self awareness never taking into consideration my own immaturity and non existent self awareness and how that could possibly be not just maddening and frustrating to those close to me but also fellow employees, bosses, and other folks that had the unfortunate experience of dealing with me on a regular basis but also how and why I was let go from jobs or alienated so many people unintentionally. Some of it I might be able to understand if I was a half the age I am at this time but expanding on how I stop and think before I act or respond I have often ask myself " is this something a 52 year old man would say or do?" If not I don’t do or say it. That is also applicable to other decision making opportunities as well. Almost instantly keeps me from making choices I know I will regret later.
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That is some cool insights. I feel that if you keep up this self awareness and how others perceive you… will be loved or at least know how to be loved/well liked
I know about your comments about people in the past and there is a good chance you will reply wil with sarcasm but just had to say this you!
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Not really looking for that as much as being aware of how I am perceived will be far more beneficial in communication and hopefully avoiding misunderstandings , misinterpretations , and conflict if that makes sense? Why create unnecessary problems or drama for myself or anyone else?
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So far today I have run three loops each of Stages 1& 2. Currently running a fourth loop of Stage 1
Not sure if I interpreted this correctly…
But remember that you don’t have to “please” everyone. Actually, anyone. Be yourself and if that is the reason somebody doesn’t like you… So be it, their loss.
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A little. I’m not interested in people pleasing or avoiding conflict just to make someone happy. I’m becoming more aware of how I would rather avoid people entirely but that’s not realistic. It sounds like people pleasing when in reality it’s more about wanting to be left alone
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Looks like I will get five or six loops of Stages 1 & 2 in today and maybe end the day with a loop of Elixir
Day 23 Stage One - I decided this morning to simply run Stage One at this point. It was cool running Stage Two for a bit as well but my brain just felt it was taking on too much. It was difficult to make this decision but it felt like the best thing to do.
Currently running one loop
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Another example of self-discipline. I do know that pressure of wanting to run more stages of DR. I’ve even been tempted to run DR Ultima. I find resisting this to be a bit difficult at time. So kudos to you!
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Yeah there is that. I need to get over this fear , belief, or whatever it is that my time is limited. Not that it isn’t but if I rush through this based on a fear of missing out or not accomplishing something have I hit my core goal? Not likely. I don’t enjoy having to be realistic but if I’m not I run the risk of repeating the same mistakes. I knew something was wrong last night when I was getting annoyed with things that have nothing to do with me and are outside of my control.
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Insight 
and introspection!
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Sometimes slow and smooth is faster.
I was wondering if you made a mistake with running both stages at the same time.
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I’m not sure but probably. I feel at times I’m just itching to get on with life. I know I’m making progress but often I feel like I’m trying to run marathons on a treadmill
Now that I reflect on it a lot of what I’m feeling is most likely reconciliation. I’m just frustrated and bored. I can’t believe the amount of time people piss away on stupid trivial shit myself included but I am aware of it now. I feel like most of the time I have a bunch shit to do and 95% to 98% is meaningless shit I have to do every day or four that doesn’t really equate to much other than a paycheck.
If I’m going to have nihilistic existential dread all the time and meditate on the utter meaningless of anything and everything I would rather do it making more money and feel like I’m either accomplishing or working towards something that will if nothing else allow me to give my Wife the life she deserves.
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I have run four loops so far today. Feeling some reconciliation in the form of regret over some things that either happened in my life or I hoped would have. I have intentionally gone out of my way to make time to run more loops by not watching television or anything like that. This is what I want to focus on as often as possible.
I sometimes feel I am turning into the resident older guy because I have found myself frustrated anytime I try to watch YouTube. It’s all pregnancy announcements , gender reveals , make up tutorials, and shitty music .
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