I hope everyone has a happy and healthy holiday season.
I decided this morning that I am going to start running loops of Stage Two along with the loops of Stage One. Not an insane amount but three each.
I feel good most of the time but I have all these deep issues I really want to start working on resolving. Sick of always feeling this underlying sense of anxiety that I have had pretty much my entire life.
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I think that this is one of the places where ‘mindfulness’/vipassana kinds of practices can be useful.
When you remove a lot of the bullshit from it, one of the things these practices do is to develop a cognitive capacity known as meta-awareness. This is the capacity to be aware of your experiences as ‘objects’ at the same time that you experience them subjectively. It’s like being able to easily flip back and forth between first and third-person perspectives on your own experiences. The observer grows stronger. It does not replace the experiencer (which would be depersonalization/derealization). But they balance one another.
Being able to watch ‘your shit’ helps out in healing processes (and in interpersonal negotiations and communication too, sometimes).
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Running my first loop of Stage One .
Could you make a list of the most profound changed you’ve noticed from Dragon Reborn, so far?
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It just hit me that for a long time I thought that the reason some people had no empathy or compassion is because they had never really been through any or much adversity in their lives so their perspective was way off. Now I know I was wrong about that because unless the person wants to change, has some sort of emotional awakening, or both they will just use whatever negative situation that happens to them to reinforce their right or reason to be a victim.
I hope as I go through Dragon Reborn I can stop caring about or focusing on what other people are doing or not and just focus on myself. Not in a self absorbed or narcissistic way obviously. I just don’t understand why I get so frustrated or envious of other people’s situations or compare myself to them
Nice article thanks for sharing !
Its what connects people those who have empathy and compassion come from a place of experiencing a loss in their lives for example. They can thus relate to someone who has been through the same turmoil and often develop a strong bond with them. All my closest friends come from very similar backgrounds.
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Running a second loop of Stage One while I listen to Meshuggah. It’s becoming more apparent that Dragon Reborn is working as well as unearthing issues or trauma I repressed or completely forgot about. Makes sense as that is the point. Clear out and purge everything.
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DR is great. It is in my daily stack. Thank you for sharing.
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Meshuggah isn’t extreme enough. Going with something else.
Finished the second loop of Stage One. Taking a break and this evening I will get the third loop of Stage one in. My impatience wants to run Stage Two but I know on some level that waiting and letting Stage One do its work so Stage Two can do what it needs to do is the best option
Here an interesting one:
Observe the objective quality of nihilism and see what you find.
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Your invitation…
The Anthem
Dragon up so you can Dragon on!
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Should be able to get two to three more loops in today for a total of either five or six. Last day of the listening week is tomorrow then two off days. Sort of looking forward to the off days to see how I feel more the second day than the first.
I realized a bit ago that a lot of what I’m feeling today may not have very much to do with reconciliation as much as it being the time of year it is. I haven’t been a fan of the holiday season since probably my mid teens. Another reminder of how fragmented my biological family became and how I got left out of a lot of things because I didn’t fit into what either side of my family considered having me be a part of whether it was that I didn’t have my stepfather’s blood , last name , or his fucked up view of reality or I wasn’t my father’s and stepmothers child. I could go on but you get the point.
That’s why I have made comments that I have so much to work on. I haven’t seen my mother since September 2018 and my father since early 2007. Nor have I spoken with either of them.
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Running my fourth loop.
In a lot of ways running Dragon Reborn has given me the opportunity to talk and be open about things I have struggled with or just don’t understand. That’s why I made that comment to @lrw about being an idiot because I don’t understand how some of the most fucked up narcissistic, self absorbed, entitled people I have ever seen, met , or known can afford things , or not struggle ,not have to work two to three times as hard , have kids , among other things while I sometimes struggle to get shit to click or make sense. I keep wondering what in the fuck I an missing. Maybe I’m over analyzing everything I don’t know. I just feel like something is blocking from having that breakthrough and Dragon Reborn and possibly Quantum Limitless will be the catalyst to do that .
Given what I just posted you can probably see why I tend to feel that everything is meaningless but obviously I’m not a fucking idiot if I am constantly having existential dread or feeling more than a tad nihilistic
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Here’s one theory, might be even true:
Every one of us has our own internal bluebrint for reality. I’t s been shaped over the years by family, friends, school, media etc.
Regarding wealth, you have a certain level your subconscious thinks is “safe”.
If you are under it, suddenly you find the drive to work harder, get shit done to fix the current situation.
If you for some reason go past the mental limit, your subconscious starts holding you back. Suddenly you have plenty of excuses to not do something, work hard and generally get shit done.
It’s a protective mechanism. As we talked in some other thread, people are afraid to be different from their social group.
Did you know that maths is taught with different language in different schools? Where as normally they ask kids something like this: Little @James has 5 apples and he gives two to his friend Hoppa, how many apples does he have now?
In elite schools the language is something like this: JCast owns 5 companies. After he sells two of them (and makes a lot of profit), how many does he have left?
There was this document I saw in China about one guy. He was from poor background, but somehow managed to ride the political system so he made himself into a billionaire. Then the politics shifted and he got put into jail for a short time and they took away all his wealth.
After a while he was cleaning other peoples shoes in the streets of Beijing. Yet it did not take many years till he managed to somehow claw his way back to a billionaire, this time without the politics.
It was his new reality that he could make it, so he made it happen.
I didn’t understand the program properly as I do not speak chinese, but my wife translated some of it for me while we were watching.
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@Hoppa I’m almost entirely sure it’s the inner blueprint. Saint has mentioned his own personal wealth ceiling and how he broke it. That’s one of the many reasons I so strongly believe in SubClub. If you interview millionaires for a program such as EOG you would think at some point patterns would start emerging that give clues to their inner blueprint.
You have shared your own experience with EOG and I can’t wait to share mine when the time comes
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That would be a dream come true for me and my Wife
