That’s great man. My problem is lack of focus, constant worry and fickle mindedness. I hope DR will address this as well.
Heck if it provides the solid feeling I felt in EQ, I’d switch to Stark with my eyes closed.
That said, out of all my subs, I think I’m most excited about DR. I don’t know what to expect with the other stages, there’s so much more there.
I’m not going to run Elixir tonight. Just my two loops of Dragon Reborn which I did way earlier then then tomorrow two more loops before two rest days
Same. I’m probably going to switch ElixU for SanguineU as my ultima. Either that or StarkU…which is…risky… for my recon recovering brainzz.
Hey congrats, you’re one month in the trial of fire. How have you grown in these days? If you want to conclude your first month of dragon fire.
Could you introspect and compare what you gained in the last month. Fuel for you and rest of us. Thanks.
I will later when I’m more awake.
Day 33 Stage One -
Last day of running two loops before two rest days.
YES! This part of Dragon Reborn is as if the book “Don’t Sweat the Small Stuff and it’s All Small Stuff” was made into a module and put into DR
Just started my first loop. I have posted before about how I will get insights to various things be it personality, behavior, interactions with others, and so on. Today I realized I don’t feel as obligated to respond to someone, interact with them , any other number of things that I would give into in the past based on some feeling of shame, guilt, or fear. I have changed the way I dress and cut my hair short for women and other toxic reasons and it just wasn’t worth it . I was completely miserable and there wasn’t really a benefit to it. I just handed my mental and emotional power over to someone else. That’s why now I am so adamant that if I don’t want to do something I will say something. Yeah people might be disappointed for a minute but I would think that is far better than me resenting them.
Running my second loop then done listening until Tuesday
" On all stages of Dragon Reborn, you will notice your behaviour changing into a more congruent, confident with yourself state. You will become more and more liberated to truly be yourself"
That is from the Dragon Reborn sales page and it gets to the point of what I said earlier. I can’t say "organic " because that word is so over used. How I am behaving just feels natural. Not forced or trying to be something I’m not. A lot of people are told at some point to just be themselves and I really feel that this is a huge part of what Dragon Reborn does. It helps you become you. Not someone else. I was told so many times to just be myself and I always went away wondering what exactly that meant. I had zero self awareness so I had no clue what to do. I don’t know if it’s insecurity, immaturity, desperation, or something else that makes someone feel or believe they have to try to be something they aren’t to be accepted. Whatever I was doing it alienated people more than anything else.
It’s these insights and awareness that shows me that Dragon Reborn is working on all the mental and emotional baggage and clutter to get it all out. I used to tell people I don’t have issues I have subscriptions.
For so long I let all the things in my past the trauma . All the toxic and unhealthy behaviors, situations. and relationships. I let it define who I am not aware of how doing that was sabotaging the present and future for myself and my Wife. I’m done hoping others will change. I’m done with envy and jealousy about things , people, and situations I don’t know or understand. I don’t want to feel apathetic or indifferent. I just don’t want to be phased by the lame shit people do because people will always do lame shit. I don’t want to have my focus be taken away from what’s important for myself and my Wife. Dragon Reborn has helped me a lot with that so far. When I say things are meaningless I’m without realizing it trying to help folks think about what they are prioritizing.
You and everyone you know are going to be dead soon. And in the short amount of time between here and there, you have a limited amount of fucks to give. Very few, in fact. And if you go around giving a fuck about everything and everyone without conscious thought or choice—well, then you’re going to get fucked.
Mark Manson, The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck: A Counterintuitive Approach to Living a Good Life
Really irritable and bored tonight. Nothing seems interesting. Feels like a waste of time
Great insights, sounds philosophical though. Don’t take it as a criticism, but as another PoV.
If you want some practical insights about how it’s working on you, jot down these things:
How are your emotional states, before and after.
How do you react differently to same situations, before and after.
How are your mental states, (thoughts, perspectives, etc) before and after.
What compels you, before and after.
Where do you spend your time, energy, money.
Your urges.
It may uncover some key points for you. But obviously, you will do what you want at last. Enjoy!
Mark Manson knows his sh*t. Haven’t read the book you mention, but I did the earlier one.
And talking about bad choices… It’s almost 10 am. Just got home from my friends place where we were drinking till morning. BUT, I think I actually made a breakthrough with the one of my friends who got kicked in the head (figuratively) his whole life before I hired him.
Sacrifices, sacrifices…
It’s possible you’re still executing the multiple loops you played before going down to 2. I read your words and picked up the tone that DR is pushing you a direction you’re used to not going, and your old mindset is hanging on to what is familiar. It’s possible that boredom is just a cover for the anxiety of being pushed into the unknown.
I had that happen regularly when I began St1. I recognized it clearly (I knew my pattern of avoiding issues) so I kept on my journey. I still have similar feelings rise, usually with a louder opposition. My mind is trying to protect itself from perceived pain (or death), and DR is simultaneously giving me the courage to move through it.
And if you’re processing all that now, recon is right in the middle of it. Sorry.
I agree. It’s entirely possible. I think some of it or a lot of it is my brain just saying WTF? How did I live and act like this for so long? How did I focus on such meaningless and silly shit? I feel as if my brain is trying to grow along with reconciling and letting go of the past and old me… The agitation and irritability is linked to boredom as well. Just bored to fucking tears with shit being the way it is but also knowing I have to work through it.
Day 34 Stage One - Day off Number One
Yeah. I haven’t read any of his recent stuff. It just feels like he’s getting repetitive. Then again it could be me. I’m bored with a lot of things lately. Reading people obsess over Libertine or asking for titles or modules to help them be like someone else or a fictional character to me just seems like a gigantic waste of time
Exactly. Nowadays my No is very firm and brooks no argument. Way to go 
That’s your ADHD working against you right there 
Lack of stimulation, anything Novell is interesting to us, the art is to make sure things keep interesting to you… you have to keep challenging yourself with new ways to do something old.
It’s so frickin hard to-do that, that’s why for example writing a simple e-mail for me is a monumental task, but deadlifting 160 KG isn’t because I find it challenging and enjoyable.
How-ever, what if you shift your focus… use that fantasy in our brains… imagine that you NEED to write that e-mail, because otherwise the world will explode (make it fun for yourself).
everything comes a lot easier and lighter… 