I am incredibly curious now if running so many loops of Dragon Reborn daily only gave me a fraction of the results that I could have gotten? The last two days I have run only Dragon Reborn Stage One and Elixir and the irritability is unreal. I feel like I’m caught between apathy and boredom.
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@James I myself am finding that less is more. Nowadays I can’t go more than a few loops per sub.
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I believe so. You know my drill and you read about my results. Of course, everybody is different but you’ve tried that approach and you saw the results.
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Definitely seems to be the case with me as well.
Attempting to traumatize me?
I’m wondering if that is reconciliation. How about reducing the number of loops? Or going 1 loop every other day?
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Here we go then! 
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I’m almost sure it is but I would rather work through it if possible than lessen my listening even more unless @SaintSovereign or @Fire feel that would be best
Truly, I sympathize.
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Day 32 Stage 1 - …
Still feel bored and irritable today but not as much as the previous two days. Feeling a weird but cool natural confident indifference to which is hard to describe but feels good.
I ran two loops of Dragon Reborn Stage One yesterday and one loop of Elixir. Seems to be what works even is reconciliation and the prior mentioned emotions.
I’m on day four of five and will run the loops spread out over this afternoon and evening
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Running my second and final loop for today of Dragon Reborn Stage One
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I continue to notice how less reactive I am to things. Not saying I’m super stoic or anything but in the past people would say shit to me and I would either get anxious almost instantly , sort of obsess over what they said , or look for some hidden meaning. Sounds like I was probably more than a little paranoid which may or may not be true. I feel that the longer I am on Stage One as well as I progress through the rest of Dragon Reborn I will look back at a lot of how I felt in the past and feel like it was someone else or wonder how I lived that way.
I’m like that at times now. Curious as to how I put shit off unnecessarily out of ignorance or laziness. How I wasted so much time on social media or forcing myself to be social in person such as at a job when I would have been so much happier just doing what I needed to do and keeping my mouth shut . None of it meant anything. Going back to a conversation I had on this forum I didn’t really want to be friends with anyone or hang out with them outside of work. It’s not like I had a lot or anything in common with any of them. Generally speaking when it came to fellow employees I was on average ten to fifteen years older than a lot of people I worked with.
Two things that will probably forever puzzle me that I can only guess was insecurity born out of extreme immaturity is why I felt a need to draw attention to myself and why I chased relationships with girls and women so much and placed such a high priority on that
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I was just wondering this,
your experience on 2 vs.10+ loops
You find you experience the positive benefits of DR with less loops more,
or you experience more recon which means it’s hitting you stronger?
I’m reading you’re journal but I lost sight of the pattern.
Any info on your sense of this specifically would be appreciated.
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Yes less loops is kicking my ass but in a good way. I have been running one loop of Elixir as well but even still I feel like I am growing although it may not seem like it at that moment.
My daily schedule
Dragon Reborn Stage 1 Two Loops
Elixir One loop
Tuesday through Saturday Listening
Sunday and Monday are off days
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Lol. I know exactly what you mean. It’s exhausting. Hilarious but exhausting. Why did we do that to ourselves? That hidden meaning thing, I don’t even know why. More often than not, it’s insignificant.
See this here now is the dragon. There’s been like a philosophical / existential symposium in my head for a week after I started DR.
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Good to know I’m not alone.
I often feel my entire life is a lesson in existentialism nihilistic dread. I don’t believe in a God or higher power and as pessimistic as it may sound I think once we die that’s it. Our consciousness is what operates this bag of meat and bones we call our bodies and that once that’s gone we cease to exist.
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I used to see it this way too. But the list of phenomena that I could not explain just kept growing longer and longer.
My pessimism didn’t fade because I gained faith; it’s more that I lost faith in even pessimism. Just like optimism, it seemed too systematic and simple to be plausible.
These days I’m more likely to reject both of them and to just replace them both with a sense of not knowing and my own form of primitively improvised empirical observation.
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@Malkuth @Apollo I will say since starting Dragon Reborn I am not as pessimistic as I was before but I am what I see as more realistic. I try to temper my expectations if that makes sense?
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Yes. Abundantly so.
I can sense the wisdom.
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