okay this is mad!!! , how in hell stuff changes without me noticing them? now that my friend @Sage_Ninjistic said something about emperor, something clicked within my head
that the results are so subtle sometimes that you cant even see them brooooooooooooooooooooo wtf
i sensed that i no longer feel like need validation more and more, i always felt that but deep in me theres a child who doesnt want to be unliked and doesnt want to be abandoned
but now i feel more of that child is conviced ( sub-consciously) that why would you care
since im consciously aware that i dont need validation and i know that for sure its basics for me , but sub-consciously im filled with the other way around from my childhood with caring so much of what people think of me bla bla
im amazed and almost astonished about how can the changes be sooooo subtle that you dont even notice them, and you probably think that youre lacking results and ur doing somehting wrong but ur actually too into it, that you dont see hHHAAHHAHAHA this is amazing
love you guys for the input,