Into the dark dark yonder - Baphomet's custom journal

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#101

Day 20

After meeting with doctors/surgeons it’s looking like I’m only going to need surgery for the issue. Granted that means they will literally be cutting a wedge out of my tongue, which will likely result in massive pain during the healing process of several weeks. Still waiting on the results of blood work and a CT scan to make sure they cancer hasn’t spread to my lymph nodes or any other areas but it’s looking good.

Yesterday I had a zoom meeting with a public speaking group which I joined several weeks ago. The group has, until this point, been run by two gentleman. Yesterday during the meeting one of them suggested we move forward making our group an official club/chapter (we are unofficially part of a larger, international organization). After making this suggestion this same gentleman nominated me as club president. I was extremely taken aback at this recommendation but it was a most welcome surprise.

Until recently I have been running DreamsU right before bed. Last night I played it a few hours before bed, giving my mind some time to process before going to sleep. I’d only done this once before, but both times I did I experienced MUCH more vivid dreams. I definitely plan to continue this method as it seems to be much more effective. With that I’m more more encouraged to keep a dream journal by my bed so I can record my nightly manifestos.

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#102

Great observation!
Will try that myself in the future.

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#103

Oh no! Sending you healing vibes, my friend. I remember the time I almost died due to blood clots getting into my heart and lungs so I can relate to the process of intensive surgery and healing. Didn’t even know of subliminals at that time.

Hope you can run a physical healing subliminal during these days. Choose one which most resonates with you from Elixir Ultima or Aegis Initiative Survival Instinct or Emperor Fitness ST1 or Dragon Reborn ST2.

All the best, bro .

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#104

Thank you for your well wishes friend. I’m very optimistic about the future of this frightening obstacle. Ironically enough, having had a more serious form of cancer 20 years ago (when I was 12) has given me a great deal of perspective and only adds to my sense of optimism that I will get through this.

Waiting for Saint to come back from wherever he is so that he can upgrade my subclub elite coupon code, then I’ll be purchasing Dragon Reborn :slight_smile: That was already the plan before finding out about this, but was definitely cemented in as the plan after-the-fact haha

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#105

Oh yes. I know this feeling. Am glad you are feeling upto the challenge

Excellent! It will serve you well. Am just one week into it and ST1 healed most of my recurring chapped lips and calluses on my knees. Can’t wait for what the rest of my time doing DR can do!

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#106

WOW! Those are amazing results. Gives me even greater encouragement. Thank you very much for sharing :slight_smile: I’m elated to hear about your own healing experiences. Blessed be our lives for having SC in them.

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#107

Day 20 (evening)

I had a pretty lazy day today, didn’t focus on creating much. I did partake in some Black Friday/Cyber Monday online deals. One of particular note is the entire Ross Jeffries SS collection. It was on sale for $997 USD (total value of each product per sales pages is ~$10 k). So at a 90% discount and access to the entire collection, I had to jump on it. Ross’ products are considered by many to be the top in terms of seduction. I had a few of his courses before but I’ve always been too shy to use the language patterns. Every time I’m with a girl I freeze up and don’t even start. No more. I’m taking this seriously and going to supercharge my language/communication skills.

The other product I purchased was some webcam software. This was primarily for the purpose of being able to zoom in on my webcam (I literally couldn’t find software from Logitech to set it this way permanently) but it DOES come packed full of other features for streaming/web conferencing which will undoubtedly come in handy as well.

In the opposite direction of spending money, I cancelled my porn subscription(s). I’m doing my best to veer away from porn. Even if I do decide to indulge, there is really no reason for me to be spending money on it. When I cancelled I found out that I had been paying extra for something I didn’t know I had so I’m happy I cancelled it, saving a little bit more money now.

Eventually the next step will probably be to cancel Netflix, as I saw somewhere that they are once again increasing their subscription cost (I think, unconfirmed as I didn’t get an email about it myself). But if I do end up cancelling it, that will be after the holidays.

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#108

Good choice regarding canceling subscriptions. The only subscription I find useful is YouTube Premium for getting videos ad-free and for switching off the screen when listening to long YouTube vids.

Also, lucky you on getting the Ross Jeffries package for that discount. For me 997 USD is still humungous and I hope for the day I can drop money for whatever I want. Including any number of SubClub customs lol

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#109

The benefit of cancelling the subscriptions is it gives me time to focus on any number of online courses/programs I purchased which I never completed or acted on. Instead of watching The Office for the 11th time, I now watch videos on on masterclass.com or other educational programs I’ve paid for.

I use adblock for Youtube because I primarily view it on my computer, rarely do I use it on my phone. So YouTube Premium isn’t really worth the cost for me, but I’ve heard good things from others before so if it suits your needs then that’s what matters :sweat_smile:

I’m not sure if the 3-pay option is more doable for you (it’s $365/month). I understand that it’s steep and I just happened to be fortunate enough to be, at this moment in my life, cash heavy. If you can manage to even find away to pay for the 3-pay option, the sheer amount of content makes it worth the investment. The skills Ross teaches are not exclusive to dating/seduction either - they also translate to all forms of communication, including sales. So though the content is primarily aimed at seduction, transferring them over to business/sales communication make the investment even more worthwhile. I understand though if it’s too much. Most people I know don’t have $1000 USD lying around and they would have to pinch pennies to budget the $365 for 3 months but I do recommend it if you can find a way.

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#110

He is a skilled teacher. Will book some of his courses some day. I have to pause even when I shell out usd 100 so this is a bit too much right now

Man, I love that show too!

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#111

I’ve been there and understand completely. I wish you many fortunes so you can invest in it next year :slight_smile:

It’s pretty good, always an excellent choice when you need a laugh

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#112

Are you still running this Custom and if so how did Charisma & Flirting Automatic Mentor/Improver workout for you?

#113

I am not currently running that custom. Just my WealthStatus2 custom (the one with HOM core) and a handful of Ultimas (mainly Elixir and Dreams)

#114

Day 21
Easing myself into a routine again. Spent most of the day watching different courses on various subjects. There were some common threads that I put together for everything I saw. For example, I watched one video for sales/network marketing it was almost verbatim what we go over in my own NM company, even specific to the field (finances/financial services). This gave me confidence in an ability approach this subject with others in the same way, especially because I definitely see myself as a more confident and charming speaker than the guy who was giving the speech lol. Another area was watching a dating/seduction course and tying a lot of what was being said to other courses I’d taken, reaffirming that there must be something there. Whenever I see two things that make sense together, said in totally different ways from people with seemingly no connection to each other - it really helps me build confidence in the veracity of that topic. This was mainly to do with the seduction of women and how women need to be seduced psychologically more than physically.

I monitored some stocks but today was a cooling off day for most of the market so I didn’t place any existing trades. I’m up ~$300 on my currently open positions though so that’s cool.

I was hoping Saint would be back from wherever he’s disappeared to to update my Elite coupon so that I could buy DR and start st1 tomorrow, but that doesn’t seem like it’s going to happen. Maybe there’s a chance he’ll come back tomorrow, we’ll have to see. Even if he does, I’m sure he’ll have a huge backlog of messages and tasks to catch up so might not even be able to get to me.

Tomorrow being the first of the month I’m committed to taking action. I will create tomorrow, whether that means working on my book or shooting a video to post, or something else. I choose to take action tomorrow and move in a direction that improves myself and my life.

As a side note, listening to DreamsU and giving myself an extra 30-60 minutes before sleep made a huge impact. Last night I had a SUPER vivid dream about being selected as part of a space program. I can’t remember all the details but more consistency will yield more intense results - of that I am sure.

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#115

Whoa, as I finished writing that my loop of DreamsU finished simultaneously. On that note I did experience a lot of synchronicity today. Seeing 11:11, 2:22, 5:55. So there’s that happening as well.

As an extra side note I’ve decided to increase my listening of my t2 custom EsotericBooster1 to twice a week. Now instead of only listening to it one loop on Saturdays I will listen to it one loop Saturday and one loop Wednesday

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#116

Yup yup. Last week, i had tons of this. Feels like a nice confirmation from the universe that things will go our way

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#117

Day 22
Today was an okay day. Not my best, not my worst. I decided to add my RomanceAttraction terminus custom to my stack. I’ll be listening to it for one loop every other day (Tuesday/Thursday/Saturday listening pattern).

Let’s start with some good.
I got some productivity done. Opened up my word processor and spent a bit of time working on my novel. While it wasn’t much I am giving myself a small pat on the back for taking even small action. Showing up at all is better than not and is important to building consistency.

Things I could have done better
I put some THC chocolate in my power smoothie and I think it fucked me up in a couple of ways. For one I ate a LOT more than usual. Like… non stop snacking and I had two plates a dinner. It also made me incredibly sleepy. I tried to fight that exhaustion partially with food and partially with coffee. It mostly worked but I ended up crashing for 1-2 hours around 7pm.

Learning experiences
So I had a few learning experiences today. One came from checking my stock positions. I learned a hard lesson in closing positions before an earnings report. What was a very strong position worth $500 dropped to a position worth $80 after the stock got beat down post-earnings report. Lesson learned, if I’m up before an earnings report then cash in because it’s not worth risking those gains on a 50/50 bet. Better to take that money and close the position. But that’s why I’m trading with a virtual account, so that I can learn these lessons without losing money.

Other learning experiences came from the course videos etc. that I watched in place of Netflix. I’m loving the feeling of learning instead of getting lost in TV shows. The main thing here will be to select programs and stick to them. Watching all the videos, taking all the actions, applying all the knowledge. Knowledge without action is futile and I choose to refute futility.

More vivid dreams last night. I’m going to pick a notebook and leave it by my bed as a dream journal. Harnessing the power of my dreams is going to amplify my results. I’m not exactly sure how, but I do have some idea and deeply feel that it will.

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#118

This has the taste of a nice quote. I like it. Especially the “I choose to refute futility” part

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#119

Thank you haha I must admit I was proud of it while I was writing it. I’ve always had a certain affinity for words, but I definitely think that practising writing as a craft has added to that skill set :grin:

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#120

Day 23

Another semi-productive day. Appetite was slightly higher than normal, not as much as yesterday. Can attribute this increase in hunger either to adding an extra loop of my T2 custom (now listening Saturdays & Wednesdays 1 loop) or possibly just bored eating. Either way did over-indulge I don’t think but appetite was definitely more than usual.

Checked in on my trades this morning, my positions are doing good - not great but good. Entered another position today that I feel good about. We’ll see how it progresses.

Am learning coding from EDX & EHacker. Starting off with learning Scratch. It’s an interesting, albeit limited, platform but the concept is learn the fundamentals in an easy format in order to move on to the heavier stuff. Enjoying the process so far.

Taking in a lot of information and applying it how and when I can. Tomorrow I have some errands to do out of the house. Setting a goal of approaching 1 girl I find attractive.

Eagerly awaiting the return of Saint so I can get my coupon and buy DR. There is some definite physical and psychological healing I’d like to embark on. At this point though, I am starting to worry. Not like the founders to be absent for so long. I hope that they are working diligently on something and not dealing with a more serious issue.

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