Hm…
When you ask GoogleMaps or whatever GPS for directions, it requires a few bits of information:
- Your intended destination
- Your current location
- Your mode or vehicle of transport
Most of the information you’ve provided has been about point 1. Your destination. (Which by the way is usual for these kinds of questions. And that’s logical. The user is mostly focused on the goal, where she or he would like to be.) Your described intended destination is to be someone who can both fully embody his values and his higher nature and, at the same time, experience joyful engagement of pleasure, adventure, and the various stimulations that life on Earth has to offer.
You’ve provided some information about point 2; your current location. This you say has been characterized by an excessive emphasis on morality, on standards of conduct. The stringency and the rigor of your pursuit of standards has at times taken the joy out of life. As you know, the Buddha and numerous other sages around the world have described that a musical instrument’s string, in order to produce beautiful sounds, must be neither too tight nor too loose.
Like Icarus, we have to chart a flight altitude that is neither too close to the sun, which will drain and burn our resources; nor too close to the surface world of the water, which will weigh us down with confounding attachments. Fire and Water. (Air and Earth). And we must find the way in between. Using each to modulate and calm the other. The Human way of wisdom.
I agree with @IRON . Your question is as much about Conscious Guidance as it is about choosing the subliminal stack. (haha. But I always think this.)
I also agree with @Lion. Genesis and Love Bomb for Humanity would be a great stack.
But then this comes back to point 3. Your chosen mode of transport. In other words, your lifestyle, your mind, your values. By values, I don’t mean those rules of conduct. I mean what matters to you most and what inspires you. The light that radiates in your Soul.
When you look at the so-called rules that you follow to be ‘holy’ or ‘righteous’, often you’ll find that many of them have just been made up by you or by someone else. That’s good. Part of our human genius is to create exactly these kinds of things.
But it’s important to remember that they are created; so that they don’t become a prison for you.
What’s the deeper function of a rule?
It’s to provide structure that protects a desired outcome. That’s it.
The traffic rules are only there so that people can be safe while driving. They’re not worthy for their own sakes. When we switched from horses and camels to bicycles and cars, we also had to switch the traffic laws.
As you grow into new understandings and capacities, you will also need to reform and refine your own ‘laws’ and ‘rules’ of conduct.
I suspect that you’re in the process of doing that right now.
So, I don’t see this as some sort of conflict between Spirit and the world. In my view, this embrace of the world is part of your spiritual journey. What kind of Divine force would not want life to fuck? That’s clearly part of the fundamental nature of life. Now, as to the best ways to approach that, well, I guess that’s up to us to figure out, through contemplation and trial-and-error. aka Business as Usual.
Long story short, I have a similar destination in mind. And Revelation of Spirit seems, for my purposes, to hit it perfectly. RoM, RoS, Genesis. and Khan Black. (and a few other goodies, of course.) That’s my way.
Anyway, you’ll find your own. Wish you to have fun finding it.
