Muay thai mastery/LotS custom/ spartan. x Genesis (my stack, for people tuning in)
Boy oh boy, ive been blooming like a mother trucker! bloom after bloom after bloom, I’m going to begin to add realism to how i script these journal entries because some people on these forums seem to be too lazy to look into the nuances of how we all work and how we funnel the energy of these subs to turn it positive but.
MY RECON
in terms of “recon”… the last few weeks have been the absolute hardest. I’ve developed a sort of independent mindset that always sees recon as a sign that there is a huge pile of gold underneath my feet that my ego is desperately trying to make me overlook, it does it so desperately … overall though it can’t do it entirely because through all the bad emotions we feel during recon, when we take a ‘break’ we cant seem to help but open our eyes to the outside reality and see results flying in, before we are back to dealing with our ego, that is trying desperately to derail us and make us miss out on as much of the bloom as it possibly can.
i’ve known this for a while, it’s on my 2 cycles of emperor black that i began to capitalize on this, forcing myself in the opposite direction, feeling the dread of recon and forcing a smile on my face.
“It’s game time, reap reap reap!” and ever since then I’ve ascended to another type of man far exceeding my wildest imagination.
MY CONCLUSIONS
The way I have been communicating with the world around me and expressing myself is by far the happiest I’ve ever been, it’s not that things are necessarily easier, I AM just built different now. As a matter of fact, i find it foolish to think that subs would somehow just make your life insanely better with no conscious effort from your side.
If anything, there cannot be grand things happening unless we are given heaps of shit to turn to gold, and if we keep rejecting the shit and assuming that good things have to happen to us, its absurd. how can i truly cherish being the best fighter in the world unless i was grinding day in and day out, struggling, suffering. And how can good things just happen to me and doors just open? yes we get those odd manifestations here and there where money falls into our lap, a girl throws herself on us etc etc but a few people revolve their entire subliminal listening life AROUND those manifestations, those are literally the tip of the iceberg, the real results are when you’re honest with yourself and make bold action, you cut the noise and try something new!
You can be scared all you want but the world doesnt effing care, its going to move on, and when you’re old and alone you got nobody to blame but yourself.
Muay thai mastery/ spartan 9 month results
It’s been 9 months since i began listening to muay thai mastery, and im beginning to notice some of those “Long time benefits” you feel after an extended run on any program. I’m no longer a rookie and I’m beginning to glimpse many patterns that used to fall run under my nose, slept many nights with the dreams of being the best in the world running through my head, had those intense ‘heart struck’ moments of realization that I CAN DO IT, followed by intense fear and excitement.
First off, fighters are lazy, this is fact, I have many fighters in the gym i go to here in san francisco, Matt baker from Glory, Sean Climaco, a guy working his way to ONE FC, Eddie abosolo who is already in ONE FC and about to fight sittichai. And all i can admit is that they do not train all year around, between fights they have ego needs you can see them clearly letting out, they teach others with this intense air of certainty about their achievements and current status, they have girlfriends and families that they happily dedicate their time to between fights, and feel more than justified in doing so, and they rely heavily on their following and support. but most of all, THEY DONT TRAIN ALL YEAR. It’s no wonder most fighters stagnate at a point, it’s not because they somehow lost to the ruthless game (okay it is but also) it’s because they fail to reinvent themselves, stuck in the same loops and patterns of falling back to this ambivalence of comfort and love.
I AM DIFFERENT, I am not a womanizer, I’m the best fighter ever, I dedicate every moment of my time thinking about my future and achilles heel has MADE ME, FORCED ME to stare at the reality of the game in the face, if you don’t keep reinventing yourself as a fighter, if you don’t wake up day after day and go do the drudge work and boring repetitive shit, if you don’t force your body to keep going through real fatigue (one accumulated through continuous months of applied daily pressure, or at least as little rest as possible as to ensure your body is fatigued) and if you dont keep slapping yourself in the face and reminding yourself that investing too much time eating the fruit of your labors.
such as (more overtly):
- partying
- chasing women
- etc
covertly:
- Feeling like you have fans you cant disappoint
- Wanting to find more meaning in life and chasing family, love, some other fallback career (sounds really good on paper and blue pill but also a trap)
- Feeling like “you got it” and entering the certain phase, rather than staying mean and hungry like there’s people behind you.
You’re going to lose the skill tier you had that made you so amazing to start with, and begin to decay, and then you’re going to think it was some sort of mystical phenomena that crept up on you and made you lose.
it’s really not, this leads me to my next point, I’ve gotten myself out of the mindset of thinking im better than other fighters because im good at seeing their flaws, this isnt me, im hungry and i dont underestimate my opponents, but i sure as hell don’t respect them, i am lucid enough to not try to find comfort for my ego in thinking
“look at that guy, making mistakes, he’s a top world fighter? i dont make those mistakes, therefore i must also be top world”
no, thats a waste of time, i see their flaws to become flawless myself, that’s it, i dont think im better than them because i know that this thought can really limit me when i need to be hungry as hell and focused. As long as i dont feed my ego by thinking im better than them, I AM BETTER.
Shifting, and other effects from my custom
I’ve been shifting quicker and quicker, all of my energy has been going into shifting entirely into whatever i must shift into to win fights, it’s not aesthetic for me, i cant care less, however, the results of shifting into a fighting machine is that youre going to look sexy as all hell, which is fine. I can tell that the shifting has left the rookie phase and began entering the intermediate phase of my plans because the muscles that had to begin shifting to alien proportions to make me the insanely capable fighter i am have settled in, insane hip power and oblique development and rock hard abs, I’ve also found I’m super fluid with whatever i do, there is less and less physical limitations to what i want to do, if i wanna do it in training, i do it, and the strength, balance, flexibility is there.
