Today I sent a message to a promotion to fight there, also I saw a manager for two of the fighters in my gym
It’s all manifestations to let me know I will be fighting soon.
The day is good, I’m listening to about three hours of audio book daily (still the 50th law) and I’m soaking a lot of it under my skin. I am truly benefitting from iq module. On top of this im still improving day by day in every way!
Alright bois. I am currently undergoing a bloom that surpasses anything ive ever experienced before.
this power is unreal, and seems to be coming from my alignment with my life’s calling. I am way past the point now of trying to convince myself I am what I say I am, and that I will become the best fighter ever, the point now on my day to day is to eliminate bad wirings.
I am infinitely happier being powerful and realistic and on my grind, studying my art, than being in a safe zone.
It’s been soon 8 months that I’ve been training here in SF, just grinding and learning my art but more importantly, changing my inner beliefs!
I no longer allow bullshit in, I no longer fear man, i no longer fear death, i only fear not reaching my full capability.
it’s that simple.
and im shifting at speeds i NEVER THOUGHT POSSIBLE, every time i think to myself “you need to be patient and truly MASTER your art” I begin to develop traits overnight in my fighting skill that I would have previously thought takes months. Just leaps and bounds ahead in understanding.
I look like a new man every day, my teeth are beginning to look like a zebra, instead of yellow, flashing white stripes (I usually neglect teeth, but ive been brushing religiously after every meal for a month)
the respect im getting is different, because on many many occasions, I’ve stood up for myself. I am beginning to see the grander scheme, and focusing less on nagging daily distractions.
I don’t care what others say or think, I do what I feel is right.
I see a very bright future, and the overwhelming odds i thought would be titanic now present themselves to me as nothing more than fruit to harvest, i turn every adversity I find into a strength.
My addition to spinning back kicks and spinning back fists is proving to be my better evolution, because the fighter who oversees training says “no spinning shit” despite my skin kicks being literally taps, focusing on showing situations where i COULDA.
this shows im improving
these days i have a good relationship with masturbation which i find hilarious because i did about a year of nofap (only came 3 times) and the MONK MODE title (eb) made me go back to it, i sort of understood that stagnant water goes bad nd i cleaned out the pipes, these days, I do it every few days and always focus on implanting something into my subconscious upon release.
thats terminus inner gasoline 4 ya
BUT THE BIGGEST RESULT SO FAR, that i consciously know of
is my seemingly overnight, last straw that broke the camel’s back, relationship to visualization
where formerly i stayed away from it because it required the “perfect scenario” which takes focus and energy, which isnt fun
these days i imagine my wins, my career, the coach by my side, the talks, the fame, the knockouts, the mindset, the this and that, even down to the feeling of “wow remember u dreamed of this 50000 times and said youd see it and now youre seeing it lmao”
i still do 2 hours of technique training on the days im going
ive been going on and off this week, 1/1, due to the intense soreness i feel from shifting which is effecting me down to my toes, my inner thighs, literally everywhere
I WOULD do one workout one day and the next just gain this intense forward improvement equal to months before, im being real
terminus LOS for someone who really likes their sport is what is going to introduce aliens to this world finally
the type of “this guy came from outter space” vibe
im getting it everywhere, i used to dream of it and get some feedback on it months ago but now its very apparent.
also I use visualization every single time i dont like how i play out a certain scenario and just fix it, not only effortlessly, but with a feeling of great joy.
Just purchased genesis and added it to my stack, back from washout for over a week and listened to it for five minutes
Custom will be listened to tomorrow
Feeling less anxious about walking away from shit deals and shit people, even deciding to walk away from my gym and find a new one
Story time later about it
Alright, feeling a very strong drive to do things in my life, realistically
About to fall asleep,
I’ve listened to my custom for five minutes yesterday, Genesis is kicking in
Today I was fuming mad at another member on the forum
He resembled this other guy who had this god complex always challenging ideas for no reason, he was basically crying about the lock on khan black stage four and had this low energy and intelligence and he didn’t want to see how infantile he is, i felt for the first time i years this urge to message him, I never felt that, this urge to literally message someone “mate you’re an idiot, stop”
I guess a part of me remembers this one other guy who once had the exact same approach, and I feel like back then I could have stepped in to stop it
To a degree, I did more than I usually do, and perhaps he will see how he looks later but all in all, feeling a lot more fearless in the face of reality and a lot less apologetic for standing in the way of serial fun destroyers
Im still in the mind of not wasting time and that’s why I wrote this entry, I cannot waste my time thinking of the unintelligent hoping that they won’t sue subclub out of their own need to control things due to insecurity.
I guess a part of me is at a crossroad where I can decide if I want to shed that infantile part of me that I want to get rid of that I see in him so here I am shedding it off
I am master of my own fate, and as long as I’m here I’ll do my best to stand in the way of those that show that they care more about their self interest, stupid “logic” and in general just wasting time over dumb things just to assert their superiority
Screw you man, you won’t sit in my mind for an extra second past this very word…… caveman
Moving on, today I wrote down for the first time in years some master plans, I formerly didn’t do it due to a subtle mindset of “plans hinder fluidity” which came from a lazy place in my mind
Today I really thought through and tried to obsessively envision everything in my plan and how I’ll bring it to life
Im loving this process and will continue planning my future from here on in
This was a very good video, thank you
This tendency to not waste a single moment is by far the most substantial and significant result I’ve ever gotten with subclub. along With the video sent by @RVconsultant about asking if my thoughts are useful and how they’re behaving. I felt it become a wordless thought throughout the day, I don’t even need to actually spell it out.
I’ve reached the mastery part of the 50th law and come to a lot of realizations in this life
First, I’ve been strayed far from my childhood, as a child, to a degree, I understood that nothing good comes easy, to a degree also as a teen I understood how every single situation could be milked to build character, by simply finding the hardest way out.
Now, I’ve also realized that a lot of my older fears about my destiny are dead, I used to think to myself “how the hell can you become the best fighter in the world at this age?”
Well, for starters; If I channel all my life teachings I up my cause… that nullifies it
ThTs just the beginning, though
Mike Tyson became mike Tyson within a couple of years, every great fighter became great through arduous work, regardless of age; this work must be done.
I remember how many days I went to training in Thailand when I didn’t want to, and also all the times I went to training here, 8 months so far; a lot of which were at least 5 times a week, more than 2 hours a lot of the time.
I now see the light, this is my new affirmation.
Every single second of my life is dedicated to mastering my craft; literally every second.
I will watch videos on fighting, train, link my life experiences to my fighting, use every interaction to develop the character to do the hard things, which will definitely translate to fighting. I will, even in times where I have nothing to do, visualize and embed in my subconscious the winner mindset.
I have the mental plasticity of a child and nobody can prove to me otherwise, if I was able to shift so much at the age of 32, physically, then everything we thought we knew about age is wrong, and our learning slows as we grow due to our own standing in the way of ourselves, nothing more.
As a matter of fact, deciding to master the craft later* is not only possible (since we know the one thing stopping us from getting there is the journey, not some mental construct such as age, or body …which I believe will only get better with the same belief system that’s making my mind have the plasticity of a child) but!
Age is working for me
Im not duped like I used to be, I don’t over celebrate like younger people do, I have a life of experience behind me that makes me grind harder than any youth
I have my sex drive, developed and always there cashing in extra focus during my trainings
I repeat
I dedicate every second of my life to mastering my craft and finding the hard way out of every single situation as to develop as much character, intelligence, and fight prowess and skill as possible… I will either meditate, visualize, communicate with the world around me as to develop my fight skill, watch videos, etc
I won’t go for the easy knockouts in fights, I’ll let them drag out, so I can milk the experience
I’ll do the same in sparring, always handicapping myself
Me finding out the other day how little belief others have in me (coach and other members of the gym) was my biggest fear formerly and now just looks like a blessing
I have nothing to prove
I can truly just do me……
And that is freedom.
And things will only get better as I develop my sexual energy even further with khan black next cycle, alongside my custom, making me even more focused and capable that the younger, more fragile crowd
This is my destiny and I’m seeing the beauty of mastery, I love the grind, I ain’t in here for free glory, im here to spend year after year after year day after day after day outgrinding my opponents, myself, and all the haters through consistent discipline and effort and mastering every single bit of fighting I can master, this is my pleasure, the pain, and this is why I’m the best in the world.
Also considering deeply going to MMA
My new gym (after 9 this month) will be an mma gym, I’ll talk to them about my future
If I wanna do Muay Thai it should either be in Thailand or under a gym that urgently puts me into fights, otherwise, I should learn to grapple and just get into the mma ring, Giving more room for flow and creativity to win
Things are coming together
So tomorrow’s training will involve one hour of mobility training, one hour of technique training, one hour of sparring
During sparring I will focus on switch left kicks, breaking my opponent’s balance by railgunning my body into all my punches and going through them, and also jamming their hooks with a long guard.
I also aim to modify my hook, allowing it to be less hip turning boxing style to Muay Thai powerful heavy slap style in order to angle out more… aim for the neck… and also to clinch them with the hooking hand if they turtle too hard.
What happened?
Manifesting his future.
OneFC is the number 1 Muay Thai fight promotion on the planet; if Yazooneh became a champion already I would have already heard about it 
Oof, a lot of blooming and less journaling due to how normalized my results have become
I’m noticeably a better person than last cycle, that’s for sure
Genesis is the best sub I’ve used to date bridging all the weak points I neglected in my status and alpha stacks, giving me a good base, even my manifesting journaling has been infinitely more fun and I’m getting a lot of mind blowing results that I just brush off like it’s nothing
Especially in the shifting department
Alright back to journaling. This last month has been an absolute roller coaster of growth. It’s signified the most intense and life changing growth I’ve had in my life, let alone my journey with subs, my results seem spiritual in a sense, like I’ve transcended the normal range of growth than usual, I can visibly see the changes in my will, imagination, and how I move and love and act and see the world, changes so vast and deep that I can’t help but say “wow, I’m a different man”
Anyway I haven’t been journaling here and this serves as a lesson on decay, how journaling daily makes it such a cool and easy however, once you miss one day it becomes heavier and heavier, a downward pull, this is a great metaphor for life in general
In terms of manifestation, we keep a journal and thoughts positive and visualize etc just to keep touching on consistency, that’s literally it, we know the power of the mind can lead to anything it’s that consistency that makes it hard for the average person, there’s a strength in the manifestation techniques I’m coming to realize
“The long sword has to be the answer to all life’s questions” MiyaMoto Musashi
This is, in my mind, a metaphor for manifestation, we do it to convince ourselves that our desire will cure ALL life’s issues. The reason someone will do great things and end up living out of a car before they break through is because of that, they believe that the thing they want will get them EVERYTHING. There is no distinction between their desire, and other basic needs. There is no “sacrifice”. And through my manifestation scripting I’m realizing this is the magic behind it
If I believe that me being the best fighter in the world is a road in which I sacrifice my comfort. “Social” life, etc etc, this list of pros and cons will always be used to blackmail me by my ego, especially in moments when the going gets tough, I can try to be tough back but that stain in those intense moments will hinder me to a degree.
But if I believe that being the best fighter in the world is the answer to all my problems: my wealth, health, love, and my perfect self expression. Then I will literally race towards it with my heart, my heart won’t be tied down to this moment in time because I don’t believe there’s a single thing in this moment of time that surpasses my dream. Formerly there’s an illusion that you give up comfort to get your dream, at the very least, but writing and believing your dream will grant you extra comfort and happiness will change you, and it will change your reality, you will begin to feel extra comfort and happiness chasing your dream, and you’ll feel bad when not, it’s that simple.
Consistency is key, if I keep manifest ion journaling the things I want and I keep scripting and visualizing and I keep killing doubts my ego gives me by scripting it. Even intense moments that the majority of society sees as painful and soul crushing I can script to see the beautiful side of it, and associate it with a spiritual experience, I can do anything !!!
To me, manifestation scripting and techniques are literally hacking reality, you’re going through your ego and straight to god, and the ego at some point just has to succumb to you because it, too, becomes convinced that the life you claim will give it everything, is the “safer” route, and you know how it loves safety
Glad to be back here; the shifting has increased in miraculous ways, I’m looking more and more like a new man every day, I think this is due to the relaxation becoming normalized after two legacy custom cycles
Muay Thai wise, a lot has been going on that I haven’t been writing about, but I’ve made huge progress in my life, discovering a bit more about human nature and myself and deciding it’s better for me to find another gym, you can’t convince those that don’t see value in you to give you your value’s worth, especially when they’re already sated and you can’t offer them anything and in terms of me believing I’m the best fighter in the world, nobody will believe me until it happens so, I’m going to find people who want s regular fighter and are impressed by me, and then show them how I take the world by storm, all in all; they’re going to love it.
In a weird sense, I know the current gym sees my value but they’re just not ready, there’s a lot of petty drama going on in the inside, the fighters are very lazy… they show up before fights only to train and have the audacity to post their instagram shit like “every day….” With their sweaty pictures and shit, it’s disgusting because I have not seen, in my last 8 months here in this gym, any of these fighters actually want to be the best; they all disappear and then show up a month or two before a fight and go hard. Even regular moms are showing up more, I’ve been saved! Thank you god
Muay thai mastery/LotS custom/ spartan. x Genesis (my stack, for people tuning in)
Boy oh boy, ive been blooming like a mother trucker! bloom after bloom after bloom, I’m going to begin to add realism to how i script these journal entries because some people on these forums seem to be too lazy to look into the nuances of how we all work and how we funnel the energy of these subs to turn it positive but.
MY RECON
in terms of “recon”… the last few weeks have been the absolute hardest. I’ve developed a sort of independent mindset that always sees recon as a sign that there is a huge pile of gold underneath my feet that my ego is desperately trying to make me overlook, it does it so desperately … overall though it can’t do it entirely because through all the bad emotions we feel during recon, when we take a ‘break’ we cant seem to help but open our eyes to the outside reality and see results flying in, before we are back to dealing with our ego, that is trying desperately to derail us and make us miss out on as much of the bloom as it possibly can.
i’ve known this for a while, it’s on my 2 cycles of emperor black that i began to capitalize on this, forcing myself in the opposite direction, feeling the dread of recon and forcing a smile on my face.
“It’s game time, reap reap reap!” and ever since then I’ve ascended to another type of man far exceeding my wildest imagination.
MY CONCLUSIONS
The way I have been communicating with the world around me and expressing myself is by far the happiest I’ve ever been, it’s not that things are necessarily easier, I AM just built different now. As a matter of fact, i find it foolish to think that subs would somehow just make your life insanely better with no conscious effort from your side.
If anything, there cannot be grand things happening unless we are given heaps of shit to turn to gold, and if we keep rejecting the shit and assuming that good things have to happen to us, its absurd. how can i truly cherish being the best fighter in the world unless i was grinding day in and day out, struggling, suffering. And how can good things just happen to me and doors just open? yes we get those odd manifestations here and there where money falls into our lap, a girl throws herself on us etc etc but a few people revolve their entire subliminal listening life AROUND those manifestations, those are literally the tip of the iceberg, the real results are when you’re honest with yourself and make bold action, you cut the noise and try something new!
You can be scared all you want but the world doesnt effing care, its going to move on, and when you’re old and alone you got nobody to blame but yourself.
Muay thai mastery/ spartan 9 month results
It’s been 9 months since i began listening to muay thai mastery, and im beginning to notice some of those “Long time benefits” you feel after an extended run on any program. I’m no longer a rookie and I’m beginning to glimpse many patterns that used to fall run under my nose, slept many nights with the dreams of being the best in the world running through my head, had those intense ‘heart struck’ moments of realization that I CAN DO IT, followed by intense fear and excitement.
First off, fighters are lazy, this is fact, I have many fighters in the gym i go to here in san francisco, Matt baker from Glory, Sean Climaco, a guy working his way to ONE FC, Eddie abosolo who is already in ONE FC and about to fight sittichai. And all i can admit is that they do not train all year around, between fights they have ego needs you can see them clearly letting out, they teach others with this intense air of certainty about their achievements and current status, they have girlfriends and families that they happily dedicate their time to between fights, and feel more than justified in doing so, and they rely heavily on their following and support. but most of all, THEY DONT TRAIN ALL YEAR. It’s no wonder most fighters stagnate at a point, it’s not because they somehow lost to the ruthless game (okay it is but also) it’s because they fail to reinvent themselves, stuck in the same loops and patterns of falling back to this ambivalence of comfort and love.
I AM DIFFERENT, I am not a womanizer, I’m the best fighter ever, I dedicate every moment of my time thinking about my future and achilles heel has MADE ME, FORCED ME to stare at the reality of the game in the face, if you don’t keep reinventing yourself as a fighter, if you don’t wake up day after day and go do the drudge work and boring repetitive shit, if you don’t force your body to keep going through real fatigue (one accumulated through continuous months of applied daily pressure, or at least as little rest as possible as to ensure your body is fatigued) and if you dont keep slapping yourself in the face and reminding yourself that investing too much time eating the fruit of your labors.
such as (more overtly):
covertly:
You’re going to lose the skill tier you had that made you so amazing to start with, and begin to decay, and then you’re going to think it was some sort of mystical phenomena that crept up on you and made you lose.
it’s really not, this leads me to my next point, I’ve gotten myself out of the mindset of thinking im better than other fighters because im good at seeing their flaws, this isnt me, im hungry and i dont underestimate my opponents, but i sure as hell don’t respect them, i am lucid enough to not try to find comfort for my ego in thinking
“look at that guy, making mistakes, he’s a top world fighter? i dont make those mistakes, therefore i must also be top world”
no, thats a waste of time, i see their flaws to become flawless myself, that’s it, i dont think im better than them because i know that this thought can really limit me when i need to be hungry as hell and focused. As long as i dont feed my ego by thinking im better than them, I AM BETTER.
Shifting, and other effects from my custom
I’ve been shifting quicker and quicker, all of my energy has been going into shifting entirely into whatever i must shift into to win fights, it’s not aesthetic for me, i cant care less, however, the results of shifting into a fighting machine is that youre going to look sexy as all hell, which is fine. I can tell that the shifting has left the rookie phase and began entering the intermediate phase of my plans because the muscles that had to begin shifting to alien proportions to make me the insanely capable fighter i am have settled in, insane hip power and oblique development and rock hard abs, I’ve also found I’m super fluid with whatever i do, there is less and less physical limitations to what i want to do, if i wanna do it in training, i do it, and the strength, balance, flexibility is there.
MAASTERY
(continuation of above post)
I’ve developed greatly in my manifestation practices, I’ve begun to show increasing levels of intellect in the way i do my daily scripting (which ive been doing for 5 months)
I go straight for the jugular, formerly for instance id write
“Im the best fighter in the world, i love it”
and now i write the above, followed by
“I always do what it takes to win, I always push myself harder than others, I love doing things others dont want to do, including myself, and i do it like i love it because during the hard moments im filled with euphoria amidst the pain, knowing my great destiny”
I always am more relaxed than my opponent, and calmer, and more confident.
I do what needs to be done, whether i like it or not, and i do it with a smile on my face
I use every single aspect of the current environment to flow and help me continue to improve at colossal speeds
while other fighters care about age, age only makes me stronger, better, faster, and smarter at fighting.
I am willing to take more risks, do more, be more unconventional, than my opponents, no matter who they are.
I always rise up to the challenge, becoming crazier to fit my elevated roles and succeed with flying colors.
i always fight better than i do when sparring (since many fighters like to claim they dont perform the same in the ring)
I always push myself through fatigue in training because i know I am benefitting light years while my competition rests.
I am willing to die in the ring
I love fighting, i enjoy every single fight, I enjoy every single ounce of struggle in training, i enjoy the weigh ins, I enjoy the walkout, and I love it when i get another win once again
etc etc etc, basically funneling all my life knowledge and new wisdoms (reading books) into my manifestations, going for the jugular.
whats happened lately with such vigorous belief and scripting is im realizing how DOABLE it actually is
fighters today try to maintain being champion while
and much much more
theres so much happening underneath the surface of the game and i am the one to study it so thoroughly that people outside this forum believe i am literally a prophet sent to change the fight world
I’m just someone who really wants to fight and win…
i have no limits, and i believe in myself, im willing to bet all my money on myself
@SaintSovereign thank you for helping make my dreams a reality, nothing is random, and these subs are a glitch in the matrix but you already know this!
thank you so much, for dedicating your life to the simple task of letting humanity know that their dreams are actually their future. After 3 years here, i see it now.
I just listened to my genesis 15 minute loop 6 hours ago and just finished my weekly ascension chamber loop. My custom 15 minute loop was about 4-5 days ago if not more.
I am coming to some good realizations about life and energy, reading some threads about flow from @Invictus . I made it a key to always believe i have the thing i want, I see how down you can get dragged when you think of this life you feel destined to have and then go “damn i need to start doing x y z”
well, why not just instantly feel like you have it? When i read @SaintSovereign talk about energy cultivation practices helping with flow state, i thought “Damn, another obstacle in my way, I MUST GET INTO THE ENERGY CULTIVATION thing” but i began to apply my new way of thinking (which isnt new, i know this but their words reinforced it) and i said “I love that im so ahead of the game in the energy cultivation thing, i love it, thank god i got into it and am reaping it’s benefits” and instantly i felt my energy change, I went on youtube and did 10 minutes of a 30 minute follow along energy cultivation qi gong video for the first time ever. i actually do believe that belief is everything, because i could have said that I was a complete noob in the knowledge of energy cultivation.
but
I can also believe Im good at it, whats stopping that from being a possibility? we all have energy, and some of us might be cultivating it low key without labelling as that. When i decide not to wank, and instead to use that sexual drive to enter a visualization session, am i not cultivating? When we are faced with something annoying and irritating and we decide to not react, are we not cultivating? there’s always going to be proof for either side whether you say I AM or I AM NOT, might as well always be on the winning team.
Me quitting weed was the best thing ever, i feel that alone was the very very very last thing i had to do before I can consider myself “made” regardless if that “made” status is in my reality yet.
Energy is everything, as people who run subs, we need energy. Doesnt matter how dense our stack is, whether we focus one program or run 4-5 cores, our energy is what dictates how much we milk from those programs or program, time is of the essence and the energy in that time matters.
I have realized that I have been using weed to escape the world, i thought it was a cute little habit but seeing how much i hanker for it has shown me how much I have allowed the demotion of myself in life, and now as I promote myself back to where i belong, i am sensing MORE CONSCIOUSNESS
MORE ENERGY
MORE POWER
and that more is scaring me, because i am not used to it, the voice in the back of my head tries to get me to go reduce my consciousness and be high, what is it about this extra consciousness that scares me? it’s the increased power, the increased awareness, the increased accountability.
What’s sad is that I want those things, and those things actually improve my life, it is through a series of gaslighting and delusion by the ego that I’m told otherwise, that I’m told power is powerlessness, and the powerlessness of drugs is somehow safer, its not.
I feel safer being more awake, I have, since quitting weed, felt this increased sense of “youre actually built different”
it helps all the reading of the 50th law which I am about to finish for the 4th time today, knowing how to avoid the fear traps of this world and to be bold, embrace challenge, be unique, be unconventional.
But I finally TRULY feel it because, everyone around me is on some sort of escape, living from escape to escape, the times between are this sea of boredom, meanwhile, I feel my mind is sharper than it’s ever been, my eye is real
I no longer fall for the surface glossing of things, I love staring into reality, i love seeing into things.
For instance, I found out i really don’t like women that much. I’m not gay either. i know that I want the flesh and that wanting of the flesh from such a young age has made me desperate enough to follow the rabbit hole where suddenly, i’ve convinced myself women are beautiful angels from god, all in an attempt to act that way around them, and perhaps get laid.
But they’re not, they’re basically just like men, they have demeanors, agendas, and they too are prone to self delusion and manipulation and they too can hurt me or harm me like men.
This has given me a freedom unlike anything ive felt before, I finally feel like a man, independent, and strong, i dont need drugs, i dont need to the touch of a woman, I just need to fulfill my destiny and do the grand things i know i must do, for myself.
I feel like i cant bullshit myself anymore, and doing so is wrong, trying to put on a certain face or force a belief set on myself in order to get the things i want or fit the status quo
no longer. I am happy with myself, I can be homeless and i know i’d survive, if anything, I’d thrive, because god is with me.
this increased energy from quitting weed has been the tipping point for me into my new mindset, life is very very very URGENT, it’s not about “enjoying it” as much as it is about “enjoying your destiny” but I know that most people are unhappy, I see it, I even see it here on these forums! because we dont move urgently towards our destiny, we believe life will just go on, and on, and on
we believe we can compensate for not moving towards our destiny by being overly “nice” and agreeable or by fitting in. The world today wants you to be a zen hippie constantly preaching love, the world of my parents wanted you to be a stoic statue, wheres the space for YOU? this unique chemical concoction? who is going to grab your destiny, if not you? URGENTLY, ready to die for it, ready to take risks…
In the end, nobody needs your niceness, even with all the niceness in the world you will still sleep feeling a void in your soul because you’re not AT YOUR DESTINY yet. and then, we live in the world we live in now
everyone’s nice, nobody wants to hurt others
everyone is also unhappy, always looking for something outside themselves.
NOT THIS GUY!!!
I know where i am, i know what I need to do, i know how i AM, i know my destiny, and it’s HERE, even if i don’t have the physical proof to show it, I am where i need to be and with that, I dont need nobody’s pity, nobody’s fake kind words , nothing! The whole world can spit and stomp on me and i’d still smile, I have the master key HAHAHAHHAA
I am so grateful for my uniqueness, and i’m grateful that yesterday’s fight on the genesis thread just showed me that all the times I’ve felt others were “assholes” here on the forum was just a weakness from ME! i accept people the way they are, I don’t fear them, I use the tides of life and let it flow in my direction rather than constantly trying to make people fit into my little perceived way of how things “should” be
thats bullshit, even karma is a concept used to hold us down, by people that really want it to be true just so that guy in 6th grade who spit in their face can somehow end up homeless, funnily enough, thats the only way karma actually works, when youre sitting there wishing it’s true so your enemies can suffer.
and how does it work? youre sitting there wishing your enemies suffer, hoping and praying they are sitting there and thinking long and hard about their “transgressions” while doing NOTHING towards your purpose, in those times you’re there contemplating these things, drop the whole concept of karma, things come and things go, you’re not meant to profess your “goodness” youre meant to fulfill a task, and you have to be brave enough to BE BAD WHEN YOU GOTTA BE BAD!
or else, you’re not worth a damn, you’re a fearful little person, stuck in an unconscious cycle of standing in your own way, let all the people who ‘wronged’ you or others get away, its their life!
I am where i need to be, I have everything I need to have, I have the mind to take all the opportunities that come my way, to decipher when i should do something and when I should do something else, and the courage to understand the viciousness of humanity and no be so absorbed into the “good vs bad” politics. I have love for myself, forever, no matter what, I am on my side regardless of how “bad” I am supposed to feel due to the pressure of the fearful crowd.
Call me an asshole all you want, but im the one holding the reality I’ve always wanted to live, i’m the one who can accept others the way they are, and im the one who has manifested the life i’ve dreamt of since i was a kid.
