I gotta get stronger Journal

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#1

So I’m starting this journal to keep track of my progress. So I’m running a custom which

Started may 2nd 2025

Emperor core
NEHE core
gorgeous manifestor
Deus
omnidimensional
Anti-recon
Illusions of the mind
panther
inner voice
mosaic

and the major program true social which I started today doing micro loops of 30 seconds

I decided on true social because I realized I was very socially unskilled. It’s not that I can’t socialize but I get too much in my head. I tend to avoid socializing all together for whatever reason, which has hurt my chances with women big time. So far just on the custom alone I’ve noticed:

I’m more confident and more bolder than usual. I still get nervous but I’m able to relax into situations easier.

I did notice that my boss who was attracted to me in my primal- limit destroyer- limitless executive was kind of standoffish but I could be wrong, maybe it’s just recon. I did notice that I lack the social skill to socialize with women when I’m not texting. I can talk with guys for hours and never run out of things to say.

Hoping to be more social and attract women and network with high class individuals on this custom.

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#2

Today when putting gas, I heard a random guy approach me and compliment me on my jacket, It kinda took me by surprise. Had someone I work with approach me and be friendly with me.

I don’t think true social works that fast, maybe its the custom idk lol

Before running true social, I did notice that there was one thing that used to give me anxiety and when it came up, I was unfazed, at least before starting true social.

I am running low on sleep, so got some anxiety today.

Recon is at a minimum but I’m definitely feeling it tho. I’ll play it safe and use true social for up to 5 mins max.

This custom will definitely be run for 6 months no doubt. It covers everything and all things I need.

I got a date this weekend with a decent looking lady, not gorgeous per se, but she has a big butt so I mean thats a plus lol.

I almost hooked up with an actual gorgeous woman who I messaged and she messaged back on a

dating app, basically asking me if I’m down to hook up. It didn’t go anywhere though, since she hasn’t

been online for a week. I’m guessing she found someone. Not concerned though, I think my non

neediness and not being so hung up on women makes women want me.

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#3

Today I was very social, more so than usual but I’m going to drop true social till further notice. Too much to process, I figure just focus on one thing and one thing only till the end.

#4

today recon hit me in the form of past regrets and past mistakes. This whole week I’ve been waking up early and not getting much sleep. Today I was able to sleep in because I was off work and feel more tired and probably why recon hit, but it was only for a few mins and went away.

Been journaling and it has helped me embrace this new change

The biggest bright side through this whole journey is not masturbating for almost 2-3 months. Haven’t watched any porn at all and don’t see the interest in it anyways. One lady I’ve been talking to and plan on going on a date with soon, has been very sexual and sending very spicy pics but even then I’m like yea that’s sexy and all but I rather see it in person. I still get very aroused, don’t get me wrong but it doesn’t lead me to watching porn and masturbating to it like in the past. Thats such a foreign concept now.

I feel like I’ve matured a lot and grown a lot.

Lastly, the one other thing I’ve noticed is during this whole time I haven’t had any wet dreams and when I do have sexual dreams, I wake up with an urge to pee. I give all the credit to my primal, LD and limitless executive stack.

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#5

Don’t forget to give yourself some credit😉

You’re doing the work, confronting yourself, even when painful and above all, being consistent with it.

Sure the subs facilitated your growth, but YOU’RE REALLY THE ONE GROWING.

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#6

thanks :slight_smile:

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#7

I haven’t been consistent with my journaling because of work and when I do get home, I’m tired as hell and just want to nap all day. So I’ve been looking at many different opportunities to make money remotely.

My emotions have been more in check

Though the only issue is my sleep has been up and down. I feel like overwhelmed mentally. I finished my stack and on washout and I think I’ll stick to just my custom. I wanted to replace true social with my limitless executive because it always seems to reduce cognitive overload. I’m actually thinking of just doing a name embedded custom with limitless executive with omnidensional as the module and le as the core and run that with my custom because I’ve found that when I run limitless executive, it works wonders big time. It’s night and day.

The last days I’ve been so tired mentally that I found myself stuttering when talking on the phone, not able to comprehend things so I think after a 2 week washout, I’ll drop true social and do limitless executive.

#8

forgot to mention:

My female boss has been friendlier than usual but not flirty. Though I don’t know, I could be wrong.

I hooked up with a lady last week but she wasn’t really attractive, now that I’m thinking about it. She was maybe a 5.

Though it’s been a long time since I’ve hooked up with anyone.

I’ve been loathing my dead end job and working to write a book and working on my cleaning business to get it up off the ground. I started it 3 years ago and still struggling to get it off the ground. But with this custom, I’ve gotten some opportunities present themselves.

#9

Today I went out and noticed women hovering around me in the most awkward way. Like I would move from my seat and go elsewhere and one practically moved all the way down just to be with me. I’m guessing it’s the primal effects. I’m glad that the primal and mogul script is included in emperor, both subs that I’ve ran in the past, primal being the most consistent.

I need to be more consistent with my journaling because when recon hits and I feel like nothing is working and that my stack is crap, I can look back and say wait a minute, I saw results here and here, so its definitely working.

#10

My goal was to run true social with my title but it kinda messed me up and made me very very tired and some other issues so I decided to add a limited custom and run it side by side my other custom.

My new custom has:

|[DEUS]

[ESSENCE: Magnetic Social Flow]

[Execution Override]

[Love Bomb For Humanity Core]

[Male Enhancement]

[Mosaic]

[Omnidimensional

[Submodel Alpha]

[Synergy: Beyond Connection]

[Synergy: Harmonic Conflux]

My focus is more on socializing, being relaxed and connecting with others(which I struggle with in general) and of course, increase my size. I think this custom and the other will last me a year, it encompasses everything.

#11

in regards to the custom that has emperor:

I’ve noticed I’m more hungry, wanting to work out and more assertive(ish), but boundaries have definitely went up though.

#12

Ever since adding the second custom, it has been whooping my a##

I don’t know why but when I ran emperor, the second run seemed way smoother than the first. I’m hoping my second custom gets easier over time. Just have to wait and see.

#13

I think it’s LBFH custom that has brought on some recon. I’ve been feeling kinda down and not feeling

worthy enough. Today I asked myself why I keep settling for women who are emotionally unavailable

and I realized that I was just going after what I’ve known my whole life. I had an emotionally

unavailable mother who I never truly felt was truly my mom, sad to say. There was a lot of manipulation

like if you do this and then you will get my affection and love. So love for me always felt transactional.

Even people being nice to me felt kind of fake because I wasn’t use to that. I know this is only level one

of the journey and that I still have ways to go. I’ve come to realize that the one thing that manipulative

people fear the most is losing control, whether losing control of themselves or losing control of the

ones who they control.

Had some recon

  • feeling like I want to just masturbate after 3 months of no porn or masturbation.
    -feeling anxious
    -feeling inadequate
    -feeling needy

It seems like my boss has stopped showing attraction or whatever but I don’t care because I’ve been

settling and can’t settle. I need to change for me.

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#14

Has anyone ran emperor and noticed when they work out, even when they work out hard, they don’t have soreness?

#15

The boss lady who I’ve been talking about though out my journals, was talking to her friends about me, I think, but I could be wrong but I did hear her say my name to her friends and laugh so it might be a good sign, who knows.

I’ve always had this overwhelming feeling to socialize with people. It’s like an urge to just talk with people and this is coming from a reserved introverted guy.

#16

forgot to mention, almost forgot cause of this brain fog:

I was on a dating app talking to some beautiful women, the usual and had one gorgeous lady literally pleaded and wanted me to ask her out on a date. Only problem is she lives far away from me. She doesn’t know that cause I had my location hidden but I could see how far she lived. I feel bad now cause she’s very beautiful, has a good career and is very interesting in me. We clicked instantly. I have no choice but to tell her I guess, can’t live on a lie.

Also have had some other beautiful women match with me out of nowhere but nothing has come out of it.

I was dating one lady who was a bit on the heavier side but broke it off with her because I just wasn’t attracted to her, at all. I felt like I was forcing myself to be intimate with her.

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#17

Today was a bizarre day. I manifested a friend who was telling me that he wanted to help me through my journey in whatever, dating, lifting weights etc. The funny thing is I thought i was hitting really bad recon and was thinking to stop my custom but man I’m so glad I didn’t because now I have a friend who is willing to help me to get to where I need to be in life, which is crazy because I didn’t even ask, he offered to help me.

Another thing:
When I went to the laundromat the other day, I had bought a drink which needed a bottle opener at the laundromat. So I waited to go home to open but while I was leaving, the lady who works for the laundromat went out of her way to open the bottle for me as I was walking out. It’s like she was waiting to help me because I had the bottle with me the whole time for a good hour. But just when I was leaving, thats when she decided to help me.