Something I feel Emperor and definitely QL has triggered is how much more observant I am of things around me. That will probably increase quite a bit once I get glasses after my eye surgery.
I donāt know if itās just being conscious of how much things change and how rapidly but I find myself curious how I can grow with these changes rather than fight against them as I have in the past.
This also goes back to an earlier post about wishing I could go back and fix various things and situations in my past. I must be growing because not only does it feel unnecessary but I feel that if I did I could very easily have lost who I am now and what I am becoming. Iām not sure I would be OK with that.
Something else is I feel that at times I am seeing glimpses of how people really are. What I mean is that I know people that I have to deal with both for work and in my current living environment that try to portray a certain image but really arenāt that way at all. I feel that I allowed myself to be willfully oblivious to peopleās true intentions because I wanted to think the best of someone. I should have known after decades of trying to heal any relationship with my biological parents that thinking that way is futile.
