This whole last weekend I was very uncomfortable. I’m just hitting 60 days of using ST1 of EOG, and something felt so bad, so depressing while surfacing this weekend. I couldn’t identify it. But I did just a while ago. It’s shame.
I bring this up since shame is one the hardest emotions for me to face and feel, and my whole life I’ve tried hard to perform, to impress, or to just hide–anything and almost everything to convince myself I didn’t believe I was shameful.
I’m writing here for some accountability, as I’ve considered quitting EOG for that reason alone. Shame is felt when thinking of quitting, so I’m asking for some guidance or some forgotten choices I have.
Last night, to try to avoid this heavy feeling, I put on Regeneration (3x) and Ascension v.2 (1x) and looped it all night. I own most of the major (non-sexual) stacking modules.
What might I do? And what might I listen to which might help? I’ve been running ST1 (3x) and Sanguine (1x) at home. I usually just run ST1 solo at work.
Thanks for your imput.