Like @TheEmpress said, the subs are a tool but it’s ultimately you in the end making changes. I know that gets talked about a lot on this forum but there’s a difference between intellectually understanding that and really feeling it.
When you get into subliminal bloom it’s just you and life. Yeah that can be intimidating. Now you have to rely on yourself and only yourself to get to where you want to be. How does that make you feel? Running the subs again or doubling down is like a false sense of security. Realistically it doesn’t do anything, but in our heads it can be like going back to something that’s promising security. It’s just very much fueled by anxiety and fear.
I don’t really have any good advice I’m afraid. I’ve fallen into this trap numerous times because in the heat of the moment it seems real. I think the core thing is you have to have trust in yourself. When you don’t have that you start relying too much on the outside and that’s when the anxiety starts.