How do our beliefs during extreme depression affect our current beliefs or subconscious?

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#1

For example if you have had multiple depressions

And your beliefs are

There is something wrong with me
I’m a loser
I’m a fuck up
I will never escape depression
And your self talk has been extremely negative almost violent and abusive at times

Etc
Etc

But then you have been not depressed for say 2 years

I don’t think these beliefs just disappear. How do they affect you when you seem fine but perhaps you have hidden these feelings.
It doesn’t necessarily feel like you’re hiding them more that you have changed states but that old state lingers in your memories and a lot of it may have not been dealt with properly.

But you’re not numb you’re very in touch with your emotions but maybe not the full scale of the deepest darkest emotions and traumas. Even tho you know logically your darkest days weren’t your fault and you aren’t trying to believe a certain way. You just are. And what you currently are isn’t even that bad it seems.

I don’t know if anyone can relate to what I’m saying?

Any books or resources on this? Or people who have gone through deep healing and the darkest of times?

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#2

Guys, there is questions and comments section for this kind of posts. This section is for News and Updates at SC club. Please, remember that.

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#3

Sorry I thought it was in q and c

Fixed

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#4

I wonder about this topic as well; I’ve had some dark times in my past and certain situations act as triggers to bring me right back to that old mental state, even though my life situation is rather different now as opposed to then.

Different relationship and a well-paying job now vs back then when I was in a terribly abusive relationship and was broke. Yet certain things make me feel the same way again… I hate it.

I’m eager to see the answers and discussion that this question (hopefully) brings forth, and with any luck, they’ll have more depth than “Run DR.” :upside_down_face:

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#5

Hahaha yes about the Dr comment.

I don’t really have triggers that bring me back I have to kinda go searching for the dark monster that lies dormant within.

Although maybe currently things are starting to come up. Healing is such an interesting thing because there’s like a specific timing to it. Those of us with strong intuition would feel that it is time to heal. But what controls that timing. Maybe the trauma is being processed very unconsciously in the far background until it is ready to be Brought into a more conscious realm. Also is their a chronological order to it or is it done a priority basis? What causes trauma to have more priority? Is it better to leave this system unconscious or will we be more empowered if we can learn to deal with everything consciously. Perhaps there is too much for some cases to just be processed consciously. QL St 3 may cause time dilation but the biggest time dilation I have ever felt is during severe depression which can make a few months feel like an eternity or never ending.