The north node thing in part 2, however, was something I hadn’t explored. So I stumbled upon this site to go into a bit more detail. A hell of a lot of my frustrations made sense if this node stuff holds true. It also talks about the south node and what you’re trying to move away from even though it’s most familiar.
My north node is in the fourth house and Leo which seem to lead me towards focusing on myself and stepping into the spotlight, both of which I’ve been reluctant to do in the past. If moving towards these things is supposed to make it easier then you might as well give it a shot. Finding out what I actually want to focus on vs simply doing it for recognition or because it would make someone else happy is a thing I should work on.
The audio states the north node in the fourth house is:
Don’t focus on others
Get your own house in order
You might have had authority in your past life and assuming you should have the same again will frustrate you
Be aware of your motive
Don’t do things for recognition
Focus on family (whatever your definition ) + emotional maturity
And that north node Leo is:
Creating a life for yourself
Realizing your own desires
Friendships may disappoint at critical moments
Create for yourself
Capable of great achievements
King, royalty, spotlight
Embrace fame wealth luxury