@MAkh YES! As soon as I posted the above I knew some sneaky recon creeped in and the subconscious took over. You’re absolutely right. I almost messed it all up. So convincing the arguments for not running a sub/changing a sub and then falling for the logical fallacies.
WANTED + Regeneration it is. So embarrassing…
It’s cool, recon is a sneaky bugger isn’t it
Looking forward to seeing how that stack goes for you
So I’ve restarted WANTED plus added Regeneration to the stack and curiously I feel a lot lighter and brighter within. That “inner garden” as I like to call it has really calmed me the fuck down - both in terms of my nervous system and being too eager to look for, to search for and hunt down potential women approaches.
My feeling now that the sneaky recon has subsided is this: women approaching me is great BUT I’m more than fine without it. I can finally now stop worrying whether WANTED works or not and enjoy the emotional healing and inner garden effects for myself. If no one likes me, I’m good either way.
I’m fact one woman actually did approach me - the art store chick. We’ve been talking over the counter semi regularly while buying things and she extended her hand and finally told me her name. All the while feeling calm and anxiety free. I wasn’t interested in picking her up, just making conversation and having fun.
I feel so calm that some of my own self imposed rules (don’t be too bold or stand out, don’t brag, keep small, don’t want for anything) make no sense. Those rules were survival tactics for a different era but I’m an adult. I don’t need to run from anyone or anything. Feeling calm is foreign to me, but is becoming my real inner home.
Had an eye test today, I was late by at least 30 minutes late and knew it, but I was so unbothered about it that it didn’t really matter and that caused the staff to just wave me in anyway.
In fact everyone that served me was female, which was a nice coincidence! The eye doctor, the two female reception staff were all super friendly. My nonchalance caused me to respond to their questions with lightness and humour - I didn’t care.
This caused the following - both the eye doctor and the young brunette hair flipped discreetly out of sight but blatantly. Even the hot young brunette with a massive ring on her finger liked as good as she got with me.
I’m starting to embody and express the WANTED archetype more - it feels super comfortable. Walking slowly, dressing well, looking smart and being quietly dominant. All natural.
I’ve added LBFH 
to my WANTED stack, to put an end to this empty feeling of not loving myself enough and giving myself the best foundation, whether or not WANTED works to it’s fullest expression.
I find I get into spirals of weak self confidence when someone appears to reject me (no more than a mean look). Maybe Wanted was an attempt to fill a hole in my inadequate self esteem, but I have no regrets - my looks, fashion and body is more on point that ever before and I love the reactions.
However LBFH caused me some of the worst all body, mind and spiritual recon ever. So it shows the extent of the challenge of building self worth. Maybe that’s why some of the WANTED results haven’t peaked beyond second looks and light banter.
LBFH, 4m
Wanted, 15m
4m of LBFH is all I can take for now and it stopped the shame spiral within an hour and installed self love like filling up a kettle. It felt good to have my own self love! No relying on others’ mood anymore.
On WANTED, more than once women have decided to put on makeup within 2 minutes of me being present. An evening art teacher had the brightest smile when I greeted her and even fixed her makeup too. I even made a joke about the naughty step 🫢
… And once again when I’m vibing, loving on myself genuinely, being filled up with real self love, here comes the women with the most blatant stares, licking lips and immediate preening. However I can now appreciate it but it doesn’t define my worth. It’s not life of death anymore. It’s nice, but I don’t need their love anymore, I can do that myself.
LBFH 8m
WANTED 15m
I think it will take time for WANTED to see its full results, largely because there is still a lot of bodily stored trauma to sort through and LBFH has a job on its hands.
Not sure what each is doing now - WANTED has me consistently attracting women to sit with, talk with and have great rapport, but LBFH is the wildcard.
LBFH got me used to having a feeling that is reliable, homely and belongs to me. Even people are being friendly to me. But self-worth is still an alien concept to me. Maybe that’s why WANTED hasn’t even reached half of its peak yet - absolutely no foundation to work from. Women can sense an insecure trauma boy from a mile off. The good bits are I’m settling into a cool dressing style, my creative pursuits are beginning to take off and teaching is good.
But the big result is my new calm, peaceful demeanour. No emotional flashbacks or future dooming, confidence spiralling is under control and I can enjoy being still for once. A year ago I healed enough to exit a high trauma bond situation, shaking so much that I felt guilty for leaving. Now the daily calm is so normal I’m feeling hopeful for the future - plus it seems a few women starting to be lined up for me 