It’s cool, recon is a sneaky bugger isn’t it
Looking forward to seeing how that stack goes for you
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Recon redux
So I’ve restarted WANTED plus added Regeneration to the stack and curiously I feel a lot lighter and brighter within. That “inner garden” as I like to call it has really calmed me the fuck down - both in terms of my nervous system and being too eager to look for, to search for and hunt down potential women approaches.
My feeling now that the sneaky recon has subsided is this: women approaching me is great BUT I’m more than fine without it. I can finally now stop worrying whether WANTED works or not and enjoy the emotional healing and inner garden effects for myself. If no one likes me, I’m good either way.
I’m fact one woman actually did approach me - the art store chick. We’ve been talking over the counter semi regularly while buying things and she extended her hand and finally told me her name. All the while feeling calm and anxiety free. I wasn’t interested in picking her up, just making conversation and having fun.
I feel so calm that some of my own self imposed rules (don’t be too bold or stand out, don’t brag, keep small, don’t want for anything) make no sense. Those rules were survival tactics for a different era but I’m an adult. I don’t need to run from anyone or anything. Feeling calm is foreign to me, but is becoming my real inner home.
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back to the flirt
Had an eye test today, I was late by at least 30 minutes late and knew it, but I was so unbothered about it that it didn’t really matter and that caused the staff to just wave me in anyway.
In fact everyone that served me was female, which was a nice coincidence! The eye doctor, the two female reception staff were all super friendly. My nonchalance caused me to respond to their questions with lightness and humour - I didn’t care.
This caused the following - both the eye doctor and the young brunette hair flipped discreetly out of sight but blatantly. Even the hot young brunette with a massive ring on her finger liked as good as she got with me.
I’m starting to embody and express the WANTED archetype more - it feels super comfortable. Walking slowly, dressing well, looking smart and being quietly dominant. All natural.
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I’ve added LBFH 
to my WANTED stack, to put an end to this empty feeling of not loving myself enough and giving myself the best foundation, whether or not WANTED works to it’s fullest expression.
I find I get into spirals of weak self confidence when someone appears to reject me (no more than a mean look). Maybe Wanted was an attempt to fill a hole in my inadequate self esteem, but I have no regrets - my looks, fashion and body is more on point that ever before and I love the reactions.
However LBFH caused me some of the worst all body, mind and spiritual recon ever. So it shows the extent of the challenge of building self worth. Maybe that’s why some of the WANTED results haven’t peaked beyond second looks and light banter.
LBFH, 4m
Wanted, 15m
4m of LBFH is all I can take for now and it stopped the shame spiral within an hour and installed self love like filling up a kettle. It felt good to have my own self love! No relying on others’ mood anymore.
On WANTED, more than once women have decided to put on makeup within 2 minutes of me being present. An evening art teacher had the brightest smile when I greeted her and even fixed her makeup too. I even made a joke about the naughty step 🫢
… And once again when I’m vibing, loving on myself genuinely, being filled up with real self love, here comes the women with the most blatant stares, licking lips and immediate preening. However I can now appreciate it but it doesn’t define my worth. It’s not life of death anymore. It’s nice, but I don’t need their love anymore, I can do that myself.
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LBFH 8m
WANTED 15m
I think it will take time for WANTED to see its full results, largely because there is still a lot of bodily stored trauma to sort through and LBFH has a job on its hands.
Not sure what each is doing now - WANTED has me consistently attracting women to sit with, talk with and have great rapport, but LBFH is the wildcard.
LBFH got me used to having a feeling that is reliable, homely and belongs to me. Even people are being friendly to me. But self-worth is still an alien concept to me. Maybe that’s why WANTED hasn’t even reached half of its peak yet - absolutely no foundation to work from. Women can sense an insecure trauma boy from a mile off. The good bits are I’m settling into a cool dressing style, my creative pursuits are beginning to take off and teaching is good.
But the big result is my new calm, peaceful demeanour. No emotional flashbacks or future dooming, confidence spiralling is under control and I can enjoy being still for once. A year ago I healed enough to exit a high trauma bond situation, shaking so much that I felt guilty for leaving. Now the daily calm is so normal I’m feeling hopeful for the future - plus it seems a few women starting to be lined up for me 
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Amazing result regarding WANTED - I actually met the elusive redhead art colleague chick! She was showing work in a gallery and sent an invite to the whole cohort and I made a point of going to see it (and let Wanted do it’s thing). Well, after hanging around a cramped gallery for some time, she approached me and gave me a warm hug out of nowhere. I was amazed because previously it felt like she did her best to avoid and say nothing to me. But she was so open. And yes she did give attraction signs.
I also caught sight of myself at the gallery mirror and it could have been someone else - smartly dressed with standout glasses, looking sharp. No wonder she was so friendly.
On the other side I’m not sure why I’m getting surveilled like a high level threat to their children, store and their partner? LBFH kept me calm enough to ride this weird storm but am I really that much of a mortal threat? It’s like any time I run an alpha sub people start getting up in their feelings over my existence, but LBFH and maybe the spotlight from WANTED is generating this?
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I used to get that too. But I think mine was just my own hyper-vigilance. I wasn’t on any alpha subs.
There’s a thing where you’re probably standing out. So naturally people’s minds go to the program. Anything that stands out is a potential threat. Just watch the news, I mean don’t, but you get it, lol.
I remember when I tried that previous wanted for a few cycles. Early on I was shopping and this guy with who I though was his girlfriend, was like checking out my D. That was a little weird.
On no subs yea, I’ve seen ladies act like I was gonna steal their purse and stuff like that. I think that’s just the sort of consciousness. Or they think you’re this label or that label. That kind of thing.
I remember that people would come up with weird scenarios about me when I was younger. Because I was quiet. You gotta be afraid of those quiet ones. Or the other side is some people think the guy everybody likes is the one to watch out for, lol. Maybe they’re both right, I dunno.
Sometimes I go out and that’s just kind of the vibe of the collective, they’re on edge and watching for danger. But like you already seem to grasp, it is what it is man. lol.
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I’ve been manhandled on the way to the train by another passenger trying to catch the train on the platform and without thinking I shouted at him verbally. Don’t know why people think they can assault me freely like a dickhead.
Being too smooth seems to mean that other people can take advantage of me, like I won’t do anything to them. Trying to keep my cool failed this time, I fucking lost it and questioned how “nice” I’m still am in general to allow such bullshit.
Coincidentally I’m on a washout from Wanted and LBFH and that’s where the next line of development is going to come from -most likely an Ascension run. People are too comfortable with the open disrespect, so I’ll give the something to think about.
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We still seem to be on a parallel with similar people stuff.
I’m on GLM, and gonna get back to Chosen, to see how that changes up my experiences.
I seemed to have had a bloom today of GLM, after 2 cycles. I like it. Firm, assertive, confident, still can have fun. But I just had a situation this morning where I walked out on a cashier mid transaction because of some rudeness. I didn’t have any rumination about it at all. I looked over GLM objectives and knew that yep, it’s gotta be working.
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Either the world has lost its mind or something’s up and one tends to blame oneself in this situation (if one follows the likes of manifestation gurus in that everything you create). But issues with others trying their luck with boundaries, especially on alpha subs sounds all too familiar. Getting grabbed up and shoved out of the way wasn’t on my bingo card for today.
Maybe there is a lesson in this, a lack of masculine gravity? That shouldn’t be a problem for you on GLM however I reckon carrying an “edge” might still be needed. Oh I thought one could get by as a man without looking dangerous…
I added 30s of Ascension in a fit of anger and didn’t think about it until later on whilst still on a WANTED LBFH washout. All of a sudden the women that surrounded me on the train gave off much stronger attraction cues than usual. Seems Ascension is the key to firing off WANTED. Two cycles changed me but not the women’s reactions, still stuck on looks. But a blonde woman, absolutely my type stood near me whilst giving that look. Not sure what did it but the masculine energy in Ascension must have sparked it off.
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Yea, I think I might finally try Ascension for a couple cycles instead. I’ve never done it. Since I’m on GLM anyway. The idea to just start back at the ground level and see what happens.
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Still on a WANTED washout with a little bit of Ascension and time for a little reflection:
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I’m losing weight. From when I started I was a 40" waist round the middle and an XL shirt size. Today I managed to get into an old M size shirt without looking bloated. My trousers bought for the right size are now baggy.
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Even before running subs, at least two women have been in regular contact, reaching out to me for healing and guidance reasons. At least one of them seems absolutely smitten with me, even though sexual feelings never developed. I’m taking this in my stride, not getting too attached to this outcome
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Recognising my actual stature as someone with equal status as other men, instead of being below. My style, manner and grace has improved with WANTED and now reinforced with Ascension.
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Oddly enough, the dude who muscle me out of his way for the train may have did me a favour - it led to Ascension and an uptick in women checking me out, cranking their necks, stealing glances. WANTED did that anyway but there’s something special about Ascension that makes it more obvious. Plus the rage of “don’t fuck with me” vibe is back again.
I may adjust my stack towards the new Ascension + LBFH, retire WANTED and get on with living life. I’m too hung up on trying to prove something about “getting” women whilst neglecting my own damn self. If society and YouTube says I’m a “failure” with women then so be it. 🫢
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I want to see you try IC. So when strange man grab you, the good guys all grab him and drag him away for a good lesson. While you get to carry on with your business.
Just be cautious. This could be recon as well. You see the change you want happening through Wanted, and the part that tries to keep you unchanged, says “We need this kind of change but faster. Let’s hop subs”.
I’m not saying that’s necessarily the case, I’ve run Ascension for 6 months last year and it’s a great program, just be cautious.
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Always the bastard recon @Parsifal in the back of my mind. It’s a sneaky bugger. WANTED it is then. It would be much easier to have some sort of a recon tracker buzzer going off inside our heads.
That’s why I limited Ascension at 30s play, in case it was recon. I gotta must properly washout. Today and yesterday for example was no subliminal input. Maybe getting shoved was clouding my judgement 🫢
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Man I am reading your other journals, you went from (no offense) zero results or very low results with women to those amazing results. I dont see what the click or trigger was for you.
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None taken @Martin at all.
There are results, quite obvious ones too, maybe I could point to being forced out of the way as a possible turning point when it came to valuing myself. It made no sense to me on LBFH and WANTED to have that kind of violation.
This could all be recon filled conjecture and mental masturbating in order to justify switching up. I don’t know…
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This. Noted for this journal anytime I “lapse”.
A different type of result, one I didn’t expect from WANTED:
Inwards, there’s a feeling of being able to claim a “selfish” self-esteem. I can put my feelings about myself first, rather than stopping to consider what others might think/say before I say/do something. That’s causing others to run away/check their watches/other strange reflexes. Must be a status thing?
I’ve just decided I’m not going to shrink to fit in anymore. I know there’s absolutely nothing wrong with me, so they can go jump off a cliff.
Maybe that’s the WANTED adjustment - expressing radical inner alpha confidence - fuck everyone else… Less of the pleasing personality. Less of trying to please all women, hold still and let them come to me.
And I’ve strangely developed a taste for reading…
Why? School was an emotionally painful experience but the big win was finishing a short book about art theory… understanding the concepts and enjoying finishing it. So much so that I’m looking for more books.
This has absolutely nothing to do with WANTED or maybe both titles has cleared enough deep down that some of my real self is emerging - the part of myself that likes reading engaging stuff and learning new vocabulary. Who knows but I’m appreciating my self being revealed.
Going to use maybe 5m of each simply to ward off feeling exhausted the following day playing out full loops and to see better results. Lately results have been reversing and getting mild hate.
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