Hello.
I recently took the BIG 5 test. it is a personality test which has some good authority based on analyzing person with five categories. I heard Jordan Peterson involved in the making progress too.
anyway, my test has some extreme ups and downs, means i have pretty unique personality (unique not in a good or bad way, just means i have higher deviation in some categories from the average)
there are traits that i have exceptionally low and high (which work in all negative way), and i really want to improve this aspects via subs. I bold lettered the parts i can relate the most from my current situation.
the traits are following;
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##Conscientiousness: Exceptionally Low
“You are exceptionally low in conscientiousness
Conscientiousness is a measure of obligation, attention to detail, hard work, persistence, cleanliness, efficiency and adherence to rules, standards and processes. Conscientious people implement their plans and establish and maintain order.”
##Industriousness: Exceptionally Low
"You are exceptionally low in industriousness
They don’t regard work as worthwhile or important, and are almost certain to procrastinate, miss deadlines, or fail to complete assignments or projects completely. They shirk all responsibility, concentrating on fun, worry, relationships, excitement or creative endeavor. They aren’t all concerned with or interested in schedules, timelines or efficiency, and are unlikely to complete their tasks even if supervised excessively. They lack focus and are far too-easily and continually distracted.
##Orderliness: Very Low
"You are very low in orderliness
Their schedules are extremely loose, their time completely unscheduled, and disruption doesn’t bother them in the least. They require constant reminder and supervision to maintain attention and focus, and are continually distracted and off task.
##Volatility: Exceptionally High
You are exceptionally high in volatility, which is one aspect of neuroticism
Individuals exceptionally high in volatility tend to vary a great deal in their mood. They can be extremely irritable, reacting quite strongly to disappointment, frustration, pain and the threat of social isolation. They can lash out and are unusually easily annoyed. They can be exceptionally easily stirred up and upset and, once angry or irritated, take a comparatively long time to calm down. They may be argumentative and can lose their composure
##Neuroticism: Exceptionally High
You are exceptionally high in neuroticism
Neuroticism is a measure of general sensitivity to negative emotions such as pain, sadness, irritable or defensive anger, fear and anxiety. People with exceptionally high levels of neuroticism are more likely to think that things have gone wrong in the past, are going wrong now, and will continue to go wrong into the future. They are also more likely to be unhappy, anxious and irritable when just thinking or remembering, and when they encounter a genuine problem. They have unusually low levels of self-esteem, particularly when they are also low in extraversion. Neuroticism is a risk factor for anxiety disorders and depression.
##Withdrawal: High
You are high in withdrawal, which is one aspect of neuroticism
Individuals high in withdrawal may feel above average levels of anticipatory anxiety. This makes it much more challenging for them to approach new, uncertain, unexpected, threatening or complex situations. They are instead substantially more likely to avoid or withdraw in the face of the unknown and unexpected. People high in withdrawal much more frequently feel sad, lonesome, disappointed and grief-stricken. They have higher than average levels of doubt and worry, become embarrassed easily, are self-conscious and strongly tend to get discouraged in the face of threat and punishment.
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currently I’ve been running emperor and Eog stage 1, but i feel due to those traits in exceptionally low score, I’m not really living up to the urge to change as much as i want. i procrastinate, I’m out of order, I’m too easily distracted, when i need to google something important, i get easily ended up having 30+ tabs on unnecessary subjects that were branched out of the original subject i was googling for.
i worry about possibilities that could go wrong too much, i over prepared, have some anxiety issue.
guys, this has been my whole life. I didn’t have a great life in my last teenager and still affecting me.
actually my scores back in school were pretty good, but i had steep ups and down.
and i think the reasons were series of unfortunate events happened back then, but i remember even before that, i had already have those bad low/high scored traits already, so it’s part of me already.
there are also good traits i have, of course, but i need to work on my negative traits to be better.
Right?
Guys, im serious. I need some help and im desperate.
any recommendations will be welcomed, it doesn’t have to be confined in subs categories.
if you had some positive results from other methods than subs, please tell me as well.
looking at the catalog i feel like Ascended mogul or emperor can work on a lot of these issues, maybe something like GM and LBFH too. just speculating though.