I’m on my second day of washout from my stack and I think I’m not on the right track. My stack so far has been Primal + Ascension (to build myself and have more confidence) + Limitless Executive (for the studying). As for LE I was satisfied it gave me the motivation and improvement I needed in the study, but for Primal and Ascension that changes. On the social side I see that I have many shortcomings, I have started to notice my insecurity and my fear of being among people, women and the fear to hit on them. Then there is an old girl who has created trauma in me in the past that every time I see again I go into a state of sadness and depression and I can no longer enjoy the moment or talk to anyone. I have no friends and I feel alone, sometimes there was someone who invited me to go out among some of my acquaintances that I meet occasionally but I can’t connect with such people and with anyone in general, I don’t feel part of people, it’s like if I was a stranger. I am afraid that my presence is not accepted, I am afraid of annoying people with my presence and consequently I do not think I can be accepted by others and hardly be loved. Seeing these issues (for a while now) I wonder if I’m on the right track with Primal and Ascension, and I wonder if it would be better to listen to a healing sub like DR, because it’s difficult for me to build a foundation for being an alpha male with all of these problems. It’s seems like trying to fortify a broken vessel. I feel broken.
What do you think I should do? I need an answer…