Heart's Locker, a Sub Club Feature

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Heart’s Locker

Welcome to my journal, where I’ll be providing insight into my stack, thought process and other odds and ends. I’ll be updating infrequently and mainly to stop spamming the WDB thread.

The Journey

It was April 2026. I was sitting at my desk, texting my former girlfriend, when it hit me: “Is this it? Is this all there is to life?” Don’t get it twisted, I had a great, even enviable life:

  • University educated
  • Successful career
  • Respectable nest egg
  • Homeowner
  • Loving partner and multiple play partners (openly poly)
  • Friends, family, community

I had everything I ever needed right in front of me, but I couldn’t shake the feeling that there was more to life than working for another 40 years. You could say I was content but unsatisfied with an ordinary existence.

A couple days later, some Discord friends turned me onto SC. The prices were reasonable and the offer was tempting: in as little as three months, you could become legendary. A week later, I was having a passionate threesome with my girlfriend and a girl we’d coveted for months. A week after that, I was making out with my favorite crushes.

You could say I was hooked.

Long Term Goal – Philanthropy

On February 26, 2027, Sub Club changed my life.

I’d just started RICH when I had a chance encounter with my new tenant, a 20-year-old kid. He admitted an outstanding student loan payment was keeping him from going back to school. Without hesitation, I paid it off. Even threw in a couple bucks to keep him from blowing his tuition.

The kid had been living in shelters for years — he just wanted a chance to learn. I was happy to give him one.

I’ve never brought up the money. It wasn’t a loan or an advance; it was an investment in his future. There are hundreds of kids like this in my corner of the world, talented and brilliant, held back by circumstances they can’t control. If I could help even one kid “become legendary,” I’d know my life mattered. That’s when I realized my purpose was to help other people.

Over the next 5-10 years, I’ll be starting a non-profit to provide education resources and funding for kids in Toronto. This is my north star.

Short Term Goal – Growth and Maturity

Sometimes my pet Kit will stare at me, gobsmacked, and say, “You’re a real adult.” I get it — I’m grounded and stable, I’ve achieved career success, I have adult responsibilities (a mortgage), and a future I’m building. But I don’t feel like a “real adult.” I feel like Diddy in “Coming Home”:

What if my son stares with a face like my own
And says he wants to be like me when he’s grown?
Shit! But I ain’t finished growin’

I ain’t finished growin’. I’m petty and stubborn. I ruminate on things far longer than they deserve. I’ve pushed away too many people because I couldn’t see the love and support they wanted to give me. Mistakes are part of growing (to err is human, after all) but I can do better. My loved ones deserve better from me. I deserve better form me.

I’ll be hitting 40 in 3 years and 21-something days (you’ll have to say nice things about me on my birthday). I’m looking forward to my 40s. I know they’ll be better than my 30s, which were better than my 20s. I refuse to go into my 40s feeling underdeveloped and directionless.

The goal is to commit to an identity title that helps me achieve that sense of growth and maturity. Leaning toward Khan ST3 given the growth focus (already did ST1-2) — interested in hearing from others running it for this reason specifically. Open to other suggestions too.

The Stack

Bulleted sub-lists for each — Discourse markdown, indent with a tab or two spaces before the dash:

Domino

DOMINO

  • Purpose:
    Conscious-directed manifestation engine. AC Core sets deliberate intention, NREE amplifies output, Peace Core provides signal clarity and burnout protection so the build sustains over a full year. Divine Dominion and Void of Creation handle the deep manifestation architecture; Merger of Worlds bridges inner intention to outer reality. Fortune’s Favorite and Mountain Breaker ensure the right circumstances arrive and obstacles clear. Long-Range Seduction gives the engine a romantic payload.

  • Cores:

    • Ascension Chamber Core
    • NREE Core
    • Peace Core

  • Modules:

    • Synergy: Divine Dominion
    • Merger of Worlds
    • Void of Creation
    • Long-Range Seduction
    • Fortune’s Favorite
    • Mountain Breaker
Clodius

CLODIUS

  • Purpose:
    Deep romantic magnetism and presence built on the Wanted: Dream Boy foundation. Primordial Aura and NAE Core generate the field; Threaded in Fire, Venus Unveiled, and King’s Radiance shape desire and warmth. Alexander’s Play supports the poly dynamic specifically. To Become The Prize and Timeless Gravitas work at the identity level — dissolving the need to be chosen and establishing settled, earned authority. Love Without Attachment addresses the root pattern of loving hard and fast without spiraling. Male Enhancement supports the inner relationship to body and sexuality.

  • Cores:

    • WDB Core
    • NAE Core

  • Modules:

    • Main Character Energy
    • Threaded in Fire
    • Synergy: Venus Unveiled
    • Alexander’s Play
    • Ethereal Presence
    • King’s Radiance
    • Synergy: Primordial Aura
    • Synergy: Perfection Manifestation
    • ESSENCE: To Become The Prize
    • ESSENCE: Timeless Gravitas
    • Love Without Attachment
    • Male Enhancement

Third to be decided. Open to suggestions.

Glossary

  • Clodius – Romance custom inspired by Roman bad boy Publius Clodius Pulcher, the man who cucked Julius Caesar so hard it went to court.

  • Domino - Manifestation custom inspired by Marvel hero of the same name.

  • Kit – Means baby fox, pet name for my best friend, arm candy and soul mate (they will come up often).

  • Play Partner – Kink terminology for a FWB dynamic that also includes BDSM.

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#2

Finally! Was waiting for your journal, super excited to read it

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#3

Awww. I’ll have stories to share after my dates tonight.

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#4

Folks I am open to suggestions for that third title. I start my new cyle on Sept first.

I’m looking at Khan St3, a name embedded primal with Haven Shaking Power or Emperor Daddy

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#5

I think EmpD suits your goals best tbh

#6

I was thinking about this especially with the age aspect. I also have the essence in my WDB custom. Doubling up isn’t a big deal.

#7

Khan for sure

I can’t see the other two giving you the relentless drive for your goals that Khan would

I think you’ll get the most growth out of it too

Plus I think Khan suits your lifestyle right now too → Khan + BDSM = Yes please

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#8

I had a moment like this around 15 years ago – maybe, not quite sure but it’s been a long time. I was preparing for my employee review with my manager. Before every review, I would calculate just how much money I had made for the company so I could walk in with a solid number to counteract any nonsense the corporate world wanted to throw at me.

I would also update my resume with the amount of money I had made for companies collectively across my career. And on that day, I looked at the amount and across my entire life, I had been responsible for something $50 million for various companies across my career, while I was making something like $100k.

And it just hit me. “WTF am I doing, running around bragging about how much money I made for someone else, a company who is most certaintly about to try to gaslight me (in the employee review) into thinking I’m not doing enough. Why am I not trying to do this for myself?”

I love this. If you actually pull it off (and I believe you can), hit us up. I’m looking to expand my own philanthropic efforts over the next few years.

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#9

Give Peace a Chance

I’m addicted to complexity. Since I was a teenager I’d find elaborate solutions to problems. It’s great for my career, but I can’t Rube Goldberg my way out of everything — sometimes I’ll freeze up and spend all day ruminating instead.
Peace and AC are helping me filter through the mental garbage and embrace simplicity. Case in point: a date canceled last night and left me with expensive event tickets. No single guys were allowed that night. A month ago that might’ve left me seething and spiraling. Instead I reached out to friends to join me and contacted the venue. Despite their no-refund policy, and that it was too late to exchange it for credit, they credited me anyway. Now I’m taking a lucky lady on Sunday.

Life is easy. I just complicate things.

Which leads to my next revelation: when I stop trying to brute-force things to work my way, people just help me. Three different coworkers offered to give me a lift to today’s corporate picnic. I wasn’t looking for a ride and it’s close enough that I was looking forward to the walk. Yet everyone wanted to help.

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#10

@SaintSovereign any recs for this one?

#11

Clodius (WDB/NAE) Field Report, August 28, 2026

Now what you’re all really here for.

A new week, a new girl. Things hit differently with this one: good morning/good night texts, random status check-ins, chemistry throughout the date, even cute and spicy selfies. This kind of attachment I expect from Kit, not a new girl before our first date (suspecting Wanted Online/Long-Range Seduction).

For my part, I feel my confidence and aura radiate through every text and deliberate pause between messages. There’s no doubt that I’d land my shots in person or online.

I wanted to commit these thoughts to paper before our date so I have a clean record of how I felt before and after tonight. Right now, I’m heading to the bar with the same grounded surety I carry to every date or hookup with a long-term party. She wants me. That’s all there is to it.

Fun note

As I was writing up my notes, a hot woman in tight leather outfit was wakking up the street. when she caught my eye, she pushed back her jacket and pushed out her chest. I just chuckled and complimented her outfit. Got a suggestive look in return.

I don’t put stock in looks of interest, but that certainly left an impression lol.

Post Date Log

Fantastic first date. We had an instant connection and effortless communication from the start. After dinner we settled down at a park for hours where we kept talking, cuddled, and made out until a minute to midnight. Another date’s already in the works, and she’s looking forward to pur first kink scene. A successful night out.

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