What would be the best title/q modules for healing from emotional numbness and dissociation?
I think I have a lot of programming around feeling emotions being unsafe / fear of being overwhelmed by intense emotions etc. This creates a lot of tension in the body, as if I always have to be on guard in order not to let trauma surface and overwhelm me.
It also seems to make healing more difficult and many therapies ineffective because I just sabotage the process.
Maybe I can create a targeted sub specifically for this issue by combining certain q modules, rather than just running a general healing sub like Regeneration or DR.
That’s a very brave admission @vlad. I can truly relate to feeling unsafe–with my own emotions AND with other’s. I keep my truths hidden, often from myself.
Emotionally numb? Check
Dissociation almost every day? Check
Fear has always greatly steered me, and I’ve not allowed myself to emote freely at all. But to not discourage you, I’ll let you know I’ve been using LBFH since a little after it was released in late August. I imagined the most loving and caring possibilities the first month or 2. And I was AFRAID of them. I never even considered some possibilities. Based on having experiences where if one domino falls, it’ll all come tumbling down, I feared an emotional earthquake would happen–and I rarely share my emotional well-being in real life presently.
I’ve been on Dragon Reborn at least 2 times, always pulling off. I’ve only gotten through Stage 1 and 2 so far.
Why?
Fear of change. Change means feeling. It involves letting go. Also…fearing everything else would come tumbling out. To say I was afraid is honestly an understatement.
But something in me is shifting. My past isn’t my main issue. Even looking back, it’s never been. My issue is in the present, with me holding onto control of my emotions and my awareness of them–since I never saw or learned how to handle them while growing up. Full-time alcoholism by my single parent gave me only knowledge of “how to hide” from emotions, not care for them.
And I’m making a change in my listening pattern. I’m continuing LBFH, but I’m going to use Limit Destroyer full-time with it. Because I created my limits. I followed the pattern of creating and following limits. Limits have been my lifestyle. It was normal growing up, and that norm’s remained.
I’ll likely return to a major healing title in the future, but I’m going to run LD for a few cycles to see and heal some limits. Because at this time, I’m not a free person emotionally.
For me, it’s time to make some powerful changes. I can do this.
Sanguine helps a lot with this. I’m a long time dissociator. Once I started running sanguine it gave me the capacity to be more present with myself and start learning emotional regulation better. Still ongoing process because that skill was effectively 0 for most of my life.
I’ve learned it’s not just about healing beliefs. You have to experience that safety. If you don’t it always feels like danger mode and you can’t touch deeper core issues. So you’re pretty spot on.
Most subs will work. Depends on what the underlying problem is and what your ideal solution is.
Unsafe could mean so many things.
Wantedstrong text heals a feeling of unlovableness and replaces it with pure internal sexiness and self respect that women love.
Emperor gives strength, power, status, authority, that you feel confident in any situation.
LBFH heals self love directly.
Sanguine makes you positive, optimistic, hopeful, in case you have fears of something bad happening… and it’s a stacking subliminal so make sure to listen to it alongside something else not just by itself
Being overwhelmed by intense emotions is a pretty intense phenomenon, sorry you’re going through that.
It might help to ask you, what causes those intense emotions? What kinds of thoughts, what kind of scenarios?
It’s intense and can bring up literally everything . I recommend Dragon Reborn if you’re up for it. Not usually recommended for newer users but still my favorite and its incredibly intense transformation abilities.
I have been one of those people that spent so much of my life allowing external situations and people literally dictate my life and how I felt. Not being true to myself in so many ways. Doing and behaving in ways that I thought or believed would bring me acceptance and adoration. All I did was alienate everyone with my needy and flaky behavior.
Like I said in another post in a different thread I volunteered or signed up for things I probably knew subconsciously that I didn’t want to do or be at but I was so immature and desperate for validation that I made so many things unnecessarily difficult for myself and others.
