Healing and NSE: Changing my mindset

Questions and Comments
#1

This wondering is all based off something @SaintSovereign said months back when NSE was being introduced. I’m going off memory here, but he wondered if healing titles were even needed anymore since NSE works so differently.

I just started the new LB and Phoenix yesterday, and LB is giving me a profound motivation to pay attention and find life right where I’m at.

My history:

I’ve chosen healing titles over growth titles consistently since I began using subliminals in 2016. I’d been in healing circles, 12 step groups, and numerous counselors’ offices for 2 decades. And being “broken” gave me an identity. I was wrapped up in fear constantly, so growth wasn’t even sought. I was just trying to survive.

But I’m questioning my whole aim now. (Maybe LB’s prompting this) I’m itching to let go of this old chained-up mentality of not growing, not changing…this is very new for me. I’m amazed honestly.

What it comes down to is:

Can the NSE scripting allow healing in various life areas without a healing title?

What’s foremost on my mind is …loving me…and loving others. Everything else (money, success…) all points back to gaining and maintaining relationships.

So, maybe LB is answering my question. If I don’t love myself, nothing changes. I’ve done that too long. LB is doing some quite profound change in me. I’m not even owned by fear as this change comes on. <<< that’s saying something!

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#2

Maybe your experiencing a shift in your perspectives? It seems that your history of prioritizing healing titles over growth titles stems from a long standing pattern of focusing on survival rather than growth, which has shaped your identity and mindset. However, your recent experience with the upgraded Love Bomb and Phoenix title could bw prompting you to question this approach and explore the potential for change in your life.

The motivation and this new sense of willingness to let go of old patterns indicates to me a shift in your mindset, that could be driven by the desire to finally love yourself and others more fully.

This information suggests to me that healing titles may not be as necessary with the innovative scripting of NSE. Your experience with Love Bomb seems to be confirming this.

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#3

I’m catching up with his journal atm. There is some huge change happening atm.

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#4

I am. Moment by moment actually.

For example, I just experienced something I’d done countless times…and something is different.

I’ve been watching an inspirational movie in my room (been wanting to for a while now), and paused it to get some coffee. My housemate was up, and he had his TV on. And I got bothered since the TV message (news) was all the same–they make their rivals out to be bad guys and constantly attack them. I usually actively avoid this since…nothing changes. Not them. Not me.

But I heard their negative message, and I considered why I don’t like it. In times past, I was bothered…since it only stirs chaos. Nothing but chaos.

In times past, this triggered me since…I’ve constantly been in chaos in my head. Their negativity sparks mine. No effing way I’d ever listen to what is called “news” now.

But something felt different in me. I wasn’t triggered emotionally like I’ve always been. The news hasn’t changed, but something did in me. I know it’s all biased journalism… but I. Don’t. Care.

I’m still wondering what happened.

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#5

Moments like these are pivotal; they show us that we’re growing. It’s like you’ve reached an upgraded level of understanding. And yeah, recognizing the garbage bs in the news and reacting differently to it is a significant step forward.

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#6

There’ll always be a place for it. Phoenix and LB have some of the craziest positive reviews I’ve seen on any sub, ever. I couldn’t imagine skipping Khan ST1 or Khan Black ST1 to jump straight to ST4… powerful new subs like those require powerful foundations.

It sounds to me like you’re changing your identity from “Permanently Broken, Permanently Healing” to “Will Be Healed In The Next XYZ Days/Months”

Phoenix is literally about Identity Change so that makes sense.

My hot take: One reason why people “Heal” indefinitely is because they’re completely intimidated by their goals. So intimidated, sometimes, that they don’t even set goals.

It sounds like you’re in a similar boat, or at least, when you think of “Goals” as you define them, you think of making other people happy. “Healing” in it’s highest form is about making yourself happy. But ultimately, one of the things that makes people happiest in life is pursuing goals that are personally meaningful for them. Not accomplishing the goal. Pursuing it.

Sounds like something healed. And that’s positive! That’s why the first stage of a multi-stager is always healing. I find that healing runs have made all other subs way more effective for me. I never really “got” all the results that were possible from wealth subs until I spent multiple cycles on EOG1. It unlocked EVERYTHING for me.

But while I was listening to EOG1, I was listening to Limitless Executive, and I was taking sales calls.

That healing + goal oriented stack combo worked really well for me.

You can choose to drop healing subs whenever you’re ready, but what if instead of a drastic change, you started with a simple change. Add a sub that drives you forward, and pair it with a healing title. Emperor? Limitless? What goals would excite you if you only did them for yourself? Even asking yourself that will start a huge chain of positive events for you.

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#7

This morning, I wrestled intensely with where I am and where I want to go.

What I realized was I’ve been skirting responsibility for my life–and Emperor has helped me step out of that reality. I’m switching back to Emperor two days from now since avoiding responsibility has done more damage than any pain from my past.

My past has troubled me, but me using painful tools is creating more problems.

Emperor helps me take responsibility, and it feels great.

Contrast that with what I’ve done, and no, I’ll choose Emperor instead. He’s like the coach who’ll push you to overcome the weak beliefs, to right the wrongs you’ve done, and stay in integrity, even when you doubt yourself.

And I need that.

I’ll stack it with LB, maybe doing Phoenix 1ce a week. Unsure. I just need to return to feeling “capable” once again.

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#8

I’m running LB solo until the updated Dragon Reborn is out. I’m going to stack it with that and possibly Phoenix. Finally clear out everything that has ever held me back.

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#9

@James, I’m glad you’re going with DR still. You inspire me presently since you’re still moving forward. I applaud your diligence and even your resilience.

However, I’m going to stay with Emperor and LB for a while (90 days at least). And I just got reminded why that’s good.

I just saw my 19yo daughter. I’d found out weeks back that she’d be in town for her mom’s surprise birthday party here locally, and she texted me today. We went out, got ice cream, and she then had to go.

I’m sitting here at home remembering…not old times with her…not memorable events…no. Nothing like that.

I’m remembering feeling young while I was raising her. I’m at home around all the adult and responsible things I do…so I’ll look mature. But…it’s bullshit.

I’m reminiscing on her growing up years since…I allowed myself to feel young. To act young when I was with her. To be a kid often when with her.

And…it doesn’t work in the rest of life. Not at all. I genuinely tried living in that mentality, but I was rejected many times, in mostly indirect ways. People see an adult and want to be with an adult. Me playing young…makes no sense. It never did.

And that is real life.

I realized a major strength of Emperor is it helps me see “I CAN do (anything I’ve been afraid to do)”. That means …being an adult, maintaining adult responsibilities, doing all the normal adult things like jobs, paying bills, doing chores, etc. Hell, it might even lead to me seeing myself as an adult. Sounds dumb admitting that, but that’s where I am.

And I’ve been thinking about that today. I avoided my housemate today, for example, because I’ve believed “I can’t handle him rejecting my simple wants and desires”.

A lot of my beliefs have revolved around “I can’t…”. Those same beliefs have held me back in every single area of life. And yeah, I thought of DRLD while writing, but I’ll stick with Emperor for a good while. Believing “I can’t” has kept me where I am. And I’m ready for some change.

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#10

You weren’t the only one reading my journal from the beginning. I forgot quite a lot of what happened with emperor. And I noticed the same thing. Before Emperor, I relied totally on my family. It’s not totally gone, but on a good way.
I don’t know how old you are, but I’m 34, and a year ago, I didn’t feel like an adult at all.
Emperor is a great tool, and I look forward to using it again, but right now, I have more ground work to do (KB, LB, my wealth Custom, Primal).

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