That’s the 7-module custom?
Yes (5char)
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yesterdays journal:
1 min peace
15 sec protection
15 sec wdb
did a easy 40 minute meditation and the energetics felt good to say the lease. i’m counting on immortals blade to protect me with negative energies since i feel like i regularly experience these things.
i’m not sure if its wanted + peace or wdb + peace but i feel like there is a good synergy with the two. i’ll feel it out.
things have been going good/fine. would like to make some friends and girlfriend. i just don’t go out that much #suburbia. i’m definitely saving a lot with living with my parents but it sucks. i also just don’t believe in the ethos of rent and increases living expenses.
dating apps are feeling more and more like a scam. “pay me X and maybe you’ll have a shot at winning!” its all ridged. they put you at the top of the stack then at the bottom to make you feel a sense of lack. i’d say 3% of the time i close the app thinking “this was a good time and i’m happy”
since i moved to the dumb phone i can probably move over to recycling my old iphone. i just still want the neurofeedback apps so i have to figure that out.
i just don’t think anyone is happy anymore. kinda in alinement with the buddha. suffering is part of life [at least on this plane]. just have to pick your battles.
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In the pursuit of knowledge, every day something is added. In the practice of the Tao, every day something is dropped
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felt like today nothing i ate satisfied me. probably cuz it was unhealthy. i feel like my soul cheers when i eat healthy food. like healthy food is the new yummy treat.
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I find that when I eat good stuff, my stomach area seems to “glow” different. Feels different.
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yesterday:
1 min wdb
1 min peace
30 sec protection
a ton of looks from girls/nurses in the hospital. like overtly making eye contact. i felt socially awkward and just smiled. next time i’ll say hi at the least.
my bike has some trouble with the gear and since i use that for commuting, i’m going to get that fixed today. been thinking about getting an electric scooter but none of the people are replying back on marketplace so i guess the universe wants me to not get that.
the commute has been long which i’m not happy will but i love this dream job 100% of the time i’m there. its just getting to and from that is hard.
so many beautiful girls here in the city. like that feels like the standard now. all the girls are beautiful, which is awesome.
tomorrow i’ll do 1 min WDB, SMC and peace.
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man today has been an oscillation of neutral and heavy depression. i need to get out of the house and talk to someone other than my mom
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yesterday was great and today was exceptional. i think the combo of peace and wdb really hits home for me. i found a pretty simple way to have the awareness of all the beams of light at once. i’m not sure when i thought of this technique, but i would assume that the protection custom has help with this (lots of energetic development in there.
i remember when i first tried 15 sec of WB and i felt this incredible ignition of energy/sexual energy in my lower dantian area. today when i was walking my dog, i felt that ignition energy mixed with almost sexual orgasmic energy on my whole body. it wasn’t bad like i was normal and stable, just lot of awareness on my physical body. also got another 777 angel number today.
man, the next longterm girlfriend i have, she is going to be one seriously lucky women. especially with all the energetic cultivation practices i’ve been doing. plus i have like all the sex subs from subclub 
last night i had another dream where i activated my halo. i floated up and there was all this golden coil tools. i was trying to teach people what i was doing but they weren’t interested.
another dream where I was outside and i saw a bunch of weird things that were too complex with my little brain to understand. like a black tesseract cube and things with infinite rows. then i saw this distant ray of light and i went towards that because it was very interesting and i was curious about it. next thing i know i’m floating above a blackhole and exited it and there was this other huge blackhole i was moving away from. no body just a 1st person perspective dream
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super busy today. lots of gigs. one was boring and lowkey depressing and the other was great.
ex posted on facebook and i saw it. felt really depressed about that. idk why. its been like 8 years and haven’t talked to her. i just wish something would work out for me. i don’t want to end up like my friend whos 45 and single.
took a hot long shower and did some mental imagery reversing and feel better now
took a sick day. dad came back from a business event and pretty sure got sick from the plane and now the whole house is sick.
reflections (LONG)
i’ve been doing some reflection… my biggest struggles are
- not having the ideal environment to learn/thrive
- not having the ideal example to learn from.
i think those two things could really change it all for me. pretty much 24/7 my dad isn’t giving me a good example of what a healthy masculine man is. he comes home everyday complaining to my mom about this day at work. he hoards on to things from his college years and so on. so thats been an example since birth i’ve subconsciously been observing. not to mention all the media bs from TV/movies and music.
and environment… this is something i really got right when i was listening to PSIT back before covid. I was in college, living on my own. decent social group. decent dates/sex. just living with a group of guys where we can just be guys. no one really judging you (ei my mom).
so I think all i need to do is to move out and get some good friends. only problem is that rent is super high now a days. i personally think rent is stupid. like just to have a roof over my head and a bed to sleep on i have to give you 1k per month? but no girl wants to fuck a guy who’s living at his parents house thats for sure. i might as be so bold to say that people pay for sex all the time.
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some other reflections. i’ve noticed that i have a fear of taking girls out to dinner dates. i guess Its from that one time i took a girl out on a date while on vacation and it was super expensive and never heard from her again. so that is why i prefer going on walks on the first few dates so that way i have nothing to lose if it doesn’t work out (except lowering self confidence)…I only go on dates with girls who i’m attracted to
i think i need to just go out in person more to the city. i work there anyways lol. and i’ve had better that decent results just day - game type interactions. not great but not bad. going out has been replace with the possibility of “i might match with someone on a dating app” ← from guys.
in essence i need to go out more and not be needy. sometime i give off a needy vibe when i’m frustrated and got getting the results i want. ultimately my fault but i’m just recording this to monitor my progress.
after learning the levels of energy, i can feel different spaces and their levels of energy. like suburbia is 200 and its freaking depressing for me. then when i walked into a university building it automatically jumped up a ton. just another reason i should move out of the house
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feel like dating apps are a scam so i deleted them. honestly my way of meeting girls randomly has worked out decently. which is better than dating apps. dating apps receive and F- -
found out i have covid. but i feel like i’m on the tail end of things. probably won’t be going into work tomorrow which is a bummer.
really enjoy reading other peoples journals.
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yo she hit me back up and we have a date next week Friday!
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i’ve been thinking about taking a main title i’m already running and adding the SPS eyesight module for name embedded. going back between WDB and Peace. honestly id just like a paragon eyesight main title
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i had an intuition the other day. Peace is really the only sub i need. WDB and others are nice to have but peace is all i need. i can’t rationally explain this.
1 min peace
30 sec PR+
15 sec protection
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went to the gym today and 99% of the time is just old people and guys. but today this one girl walked in and she has really had a glow up over that past 1-2 years i’ve been around. I thought about going to talk to her and shooting my shot. but i chickened out. it sucks. i left shortly as she started working out. i’ve approached girls before why is this hard. part of me wants to blame my dad. but that is victim mentality. its up to me to teach myself what a healthy masculine role model looks and feels like. i can count on my dad to always be the unhealthy version. i don’t think he will change honestly. he’s old. watched a ton of social media which further echos that he’s right.
i just think i need to go out and set aside like 30 minutes 3 days a week to approach girls and get better.
man it was so nice back when i just randomly got a girlfriend because we had the same class in college. Jesus
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reflections from earlier today
change. one of the constants in the universe. so trying to control it or suppress it is a waste of time and energy. instead only control what you can control. and that comes down to the present moment. and even if you could control change, the end action/ result would still be the same, just live and do what you are called to do. live with you whole heart. i’m pretty sure yall know this information.
I think i have some recon from peace lol. its finally happened. or could be because i switch from wdb to PR+. mainly came in the form of loneliness and sadness that this word is so dull. Dull referring to how structured and mental this is. where is the play? so many other worlds have this childlike sense of wonder and free open possibilities and a sense of connection as well. here its like wake up, go to work, come home, pay bills, repeat.
ok i walked away from my computer to do some random stuff and lifted some weights and the recon is gone. prob max of 4 hours just in the morning. but back on topic…
actually i’ve been thinking about this a lot…
it really comes down to a few “things” that are in place in society. once they are dissolved we can start living an actually normal life. i think the real goal i’m speaking is to target the 200 and below energy levels. that includes suburbia!
the first thing would be HOA (home owners associations)
- positive results would be
– no more grass. replaced with gardens (self sovernty)
– re designed communities where interacting with people would happen naturally without effort and planning
then trash. there should only either be compost or recycle. ok maybe theres so rare exceptions like needles or hazardous chemicals but for everyday folk, not a concern.
having only compost or recycle means that people can be free from plastics, pollution, and a better future for generations to come. the kind of mentality that arises from disregarding the future generations because "i’m retired now and i’ll be gone in 20 years " is some truly degenerate stuff.
fiat money . moved to bitcoin. which makes it impossible to print more currency. no more trusting the government.
—strong text
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asked out the girl from the gym. i was super gumpy about it lol. just like hello my name is and i’d like to take you on a date. she said she was seeing someone but it made her day and was flattered. it sucks but i don’t blame her for rejecting a complete stranger. she was also talking to some other gyms after we talked which sucked but what ever i have a date Friday
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alright so the date had to reschedule because she was sick. something about meds not working with her stomach. its whatever.
had a performance yesterday. it was for a memorial service for all the patients that didn’t make it this year. it was a big auditorium. prob 200 people. our little band is so good. everyone has a role to fill and nothing is in excess. but there is perfect balance imo.
i’ve been pondering the eyesight custom, so nothing is submitted yet.
been thinking of running more manifestations based subs. like the SMC and AsCh. and i like PR+ too.
i’ve noticed that the SMC was really activating last week. and i haven’t ran that in a while. i saw a post about subs activating after switching. so couldn’t you just make 2 customs with different modules but similar cores. same goals. just utilizing it because the activation would trigger in a more controlled manner.
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reflections
we don’t like AI slop because of the lack of effort it takes to make something. like if someone said i worked for 3 years painting oil on canvas and sold that painting for a lot of $$$ then that checks out. but if someone typed a prompt into a free AI art generator, then make some ‘art’ then sold it for the same price, I would call that a scammer or a slop artist.
its because we value what we value. time, dedication, real effort. and scarcity all of which are real value.
i can’t help but realize how this is a reflection of our money system. fiat money is not scarce because we print more and more. barrow more and more. its literally just some code that banks came create more of. but we have to work hard for.
it only takes a bit of knowledge to find this out. and if a critical mass know about how this money system ran. fiat would quickly become AI slop.
i had this family picnic the other day with extended family members. it feels like i’m just late to the game.
with one exception i’m the only that isn’t married. i’m in no rush to get married either it would just be nice to have a girlfriend lol.
we need a more social society. easier access to just daily socialization. i feel like boomers hurt this with fake small talk. meetup groups are ehh. worth a shot tho.
been doing lots of prayer for a relationships. didn’t really post this but its been going on for a few weeks.
also every few days around the time i’m going to bed i occasionally hear the words “debt spiral”. I’ve heard of this term before from some youtubers i watch. lets just say i’ve been buying bitcoin.
now hearing words is not a good idea to make financial investments lol i know. i just take it as a slight confirmation that the economy isn’t doing so well and to plan accordingly.
30 sec peace
30 sec smc
1 min pr+
wdb 30 sec
i think that is too much for me. feeling recon in the form of loneliness. this recon can’t be a good think relative to law of attraction. just as a general rule.
don’t know what to focus on. the SMC sub activated really hard last week and it worked well. i like subs that have just ONE goal. that way its easy for me to see if there are results or not. and when they come it helps me see a light at the end of the tunnel so to speak. WDB doesn’t really have a “one goal” type of thing. same with PR. but i like PR+ custom with physical shifting. it feels like i can train harder at the gym.
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