Another pattern I notice I have is when I feel anxious or overwhelmed (which happens from time to time, less as I get older, but definitly too often for my liking) I tend to try and escape.
Because I feel like I should always be doing something, can’t take a break, can’t not think about whatever makes me overwhelmed.
At the end of the day I try to escape, reading, watchig tv shows because I don’t know where to channel this anxiety or restlesness. Combine that with a negative vision of myself and I’m in a position of learned helplessness with anxiety and distraction as my only option to cope. Crazy.
I’m much better acting from a position of centeredness.
Right now I feel like I’m not progressing fast enough, like I should take more trade, maybe try more prop firm, but paradoxically my restlessness is the exact state of mind that makes it dangerous to trade.
How do I calm my restlessness and bring more optimism into my life, into what I can accomplish? Time will tell, I’m way better than a year ago, and even two years ago was worst.