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#61

Alright, planning time.

Suavemente is fucking excellent, I will be making a V2 of it when I can figure out how to best go about it.

I have basically reserved a slot of EOG in my stack for all of 2024, and the new version still has yet to be released; I will continue to leave that slot open for EOG, I may test out some titles in between but my 3rd slot is dedicated to EOG once it arrives, and will be used for EOG ST1 in ZP2 for as long as I feel.

The elusive career sub has always been the biggest problem when I’ve approached my stack-building, as I’ve never been able to lockdown and pinpoint what I want. It always leads to kitchen sink-syndrome, recon and a large lack of satisfaction and I want to change that.

So for this 3rd sub I’ve identified 3 key aspects I want addressed:

  1. I want to improve my interpersonal skills at the workplace, increase my professionalism and leadership presence.
  2. I want to upskill continuously, and learn more at a quicker rate. I want to build my knowledge base, build projects that I can point towards and cite as clear demonstrations of my skill, knowledge and experience.
  3. I want to delete my worst habits, and gain control over the self further.

So with these 3 objectives in mind, the question now is what modules would best fit these goals?

  1. Chosen Core
    Job Seeker
    Synergy: Harmonic Conflux

  2. Limitless Core
    Book Blitz
    Synergy: Wisdom of the Ages
    Synergy: Master of the World
    Synergy: Subconscious Mastery

  3. Synergy: Breath of the Storms
    Synergy: Winner Overdrive
    APS: Head
    Synergy: Semper Praesens

I am debating about Synergy: The Golden One because I would ideally love to include it, but the problem is that it is 7(!) combined modules so I think the density of the title and my stack would increase exponentially if I were to include it.

I want to include Synergy: Glory Incarnate but I think it would be better fit in a V2 of Suavemente, and I shouldn’t compromise 2 titles by trying to fit things in places that they shouldn’t be. I need a holistic approach to the title itself, and Glory Incarnate would not align with the objectives that I want to attain the most.

I believe Synergy: Semper Praesens would lead to a very interesting approach towards building better habits, through the embrace of the present.

Now what are the boosters I desire most?
The Aligner
Synergy: Machine Totality
Synergy: Carpe Vitam

Already have 15 modules.

With 5 remaining module slots, 9 of the currently used slots are Synergy modules which will be dense to deal with. This is what makes adding Synergy: Wonders of Life so important, as that module is a key part of reducing recon. Another key element of reducing recon is Inner Voice, a module that will replace negative moments of doubt with positivity and confidence in the face of the tide.

3 modules left, and I’ve decided to take a look at the new released modules. MDFY: NREE seems like it should be included in every person’s custom, it’s basically a module that’s saying “hey let’s make your shit even better”; why wouldn’t I include it?

Now with 2 modules left, I’m \down to try Virtue Series: Temperance. I also think Dopaminergic Revival would be a good module to include, as the healing of my dopamine receptors + the focus on delayed gratification would aid significantly in my 3rd objective for the subliminal.

Time to marinate on this breakdown, but I feel like I definitely have what I’m looking for here.

#62

Chosen Core
Limitless Core
NREE Core

Synergy: Harmonic Conflux
Synergy: Wisdom of the Ages
Synergy: Master of the World
Synergy: Subconscious Mastery

Synergy: Breath of the Storms
Synergy: Winner Overdrive
Synergy: Semper Praesens
Synergy: Machine Totality

Synergy: Carpe Vitam
Synergy: Wonders of Life
Job Seeker
APS: Head
Book Blitz

The Aligner
Inner Voice
Virtue Series: Temperance
Dopaminergic Revival or Extreme Exercise Motivation

Edit:

I think I’m opting for EEM. While I love Dopaminergic Revival, I’d like to prioritize exercise as I have completely fallen off all routines over the past 3 months. HERO will enter my stack one day eventually (I suspect February+March 2025 will be a stack of the new EOG, RoS and HERO) but for the time being I feel EEM will provide a more tangible/measurable benefit to my life.

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#63

I bought it. I’m ready. I feel it.

Now all that is left is a name…whatever it is I’m hoping it’s good.

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#64

I really feel impatient about receiving this custom, I really want to run it ASAP.

It’s been planned for so long, and I am finally getting it in the next few days. I want Chosen back in my stack and I want a greater career and productivity focus in my life because I’ve been spinning my tires for weeks.

I have bad habits I need to kick and good habits I need to return to, and this sub is key for me to get to that point as soon as possible.

Edit: delivered 2 hours later. Now I need to determine when to run it.

#65

Ran the loop, time to wait and see now.

I got really frustrated at work with an idiot who made a complaint about me, so I’m not happy about that and am wondering if my reaction could be attributed to recon from this sub. I ran a loop of 7:30 today, and did 30 seconds yesterday before I stopped because I felt it was better to save the sub for tomorrow.

It’s a growing process, we’ll see.

Another interesting phenomenon to report is a girl who was once a close friend turned lover that I cut off because of my toxic ex, reached out to me after a long time. I have no idea why this happened, it shouldn’t be a Heartsong-related manifestation because 1) she’s married now and 2) we tried already and it failed, and I know I wouldn’t be happy with her.

So now my question is why; why is she appearing in my life again all of a sudden? What does this have to do with Daredevil?

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#66

You set a 3 year plan for yourself and you hit it, and now you are purposeless.

But did you hit it? Or did you simply just lower your standards?

You fucking loser.

This is why you’re spinning in circles.

You still live at home. You have the money to live by yourself, but you don’t do you? Lack of self-control leads to lack of discipline leads to lack of confidence leads to frivolous spending to fill the holes in your heart.

You are living the easy way. You have the easy girls, you have the easy home, you have the easy job and the freedom that most don’t have. You still smoke weed, knowing how much of a problem it becomes every time you use it extensively.

You did the absolute bare minimum to complete that 3 year plan of yours; just enough so that you can wave it as an achievement to other human beings because you gave yourself a fucking participation ribbon.

You have a good future ahead of you, but why aren’t you seizing the present? Why aren’t you sharper, more methodical? You cannot be a loose cannon, but also be a trusted figure. They are not compatible, and trust is key.

Why burn your present? Where will your future be?

You need to take one step at a time. Explore the world? Bruh. Take 1 step at a fucking time. You don’t need a 3 year plan method anymore. you just need to set a fucking goal and attain it.

Step 1. Move the fuck out. Stop being comfortable. Stop using your lack of a girlfriend as an excuse.

Goal. Now attain it.

Recon is a wild thing, but it is key to one’s growth and advancement. Don’t forget what it means to reconcile; we are merging the old with the new, the past with the future to make the present.

This is what it means to work through it. It happens for a reason.

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#67

I have a big issue where I let idiots drag me down to their level all the time, because of my pride.

In the end I come out worse and much stupider. Don’t forget that you’re getting paid, and you have the ability to determine how to address a lot of things.

Also don’t forget that you’re at work, a workplace that has a 99% chance of not letting you go to where you want to be. This place is fundamentally a stepping stone, and this needs to be understood.

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#68

I’m not sure if this is the effect of NREE in my custom but it feels like the results I’m getting on Good ZP are mind-bendingly fast.

Today I received comments from so many people who I have different relationships with, about how much they trust me or value me or appreciate me, and it was very thoughtful on their part but also is way too coincidentally aligned with my first loop to attribute these events to anything but Good ZP.

I was extremely frustrated with a specific individual at work and sure enough, the first person I see at work today is her and I went about it in an extremely professional way. Considering how heated I was yesterday (being balls deep in recon of course), I was surprised that I would have the control I did to address the situation in the matter I did.

#69

Today again, positive reactions where someone was grateful and thankful that I sat with their group during lunch because apparently I really contributed to everyone enjoying their time. Someone else brought me a gift as well after we spoke about her influencer career and how a sponsor reached out to her to give her free stuff.

I really feel like all of this is occurring with Chosen synergizing with Suavemente perfectly, and the NREE core is absolutely fucking cracked and giving me the fastest and most distinct results I’ve had since running Emperor Black for the first time.

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#70

I have a strong urge to redesign my entire bedroom.

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#71

What the actual fuck is this subliminal?

An incident happened regarding my bonus and now I’m seriously considering changing companies.

Why is this happening the moment I create a career focused subliminal? Why is it, that Job Seeker is manifesting a situation for me that is putting me in a place where I have to consider pursuing something new?

This is so fascinating to me, so interesting but also very perplexing.

I have NEVER in my life experienced these many results in such a short time frame.

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#72

Still baffled at the effect of Good ZP on my life in such a quick time. NREE’s description really did not mince words, it felt too good to be true but here I am getting force fed all this shit so quickly.

What the hell is in the scripting of that module? I genuinely don’t know if non-advanced users should use this, the recon + drastic manifestation capabilities in such a short time frame can really short circuit a human being without the experience. This is a reality breaking module.

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#73

Now for the latest, in the Good ZP chronicles…

Decided to start looking for a job and came across something with my exact skill set, paying almost double of what I currently make.

Yikes.

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#74

Damn dude you got me wanting to add NREE in a custom. Synergy Divine Dominion already has me getting results that I want after thinking about them I can only imagine wtf NREE would allow me to achieve.

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#75

NREE has pushed this custom into an insane level of effectiveness very quickly, at the expense of some of the toughest recon I’ve had to go through since the KBBC days.

Be warned, everything comes at a cost.

I have daily results with this custom, it is by far the most effective subliminal I have ever customized. I simply don’t have the time to delve into the details at the moment but just know that this has been an absolute rollercoaster ride.

Also I feel excessively stressed out atm, which is a shame because I have modules specifically TO reduce stress. Think it may have to come with time, or may require more action on my part.

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#76

Man you’re a legend really; using NREE is insane to me

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#77

Use it, you would absolutely love it. Knowing you, you would embrace and double down on the recon and this, IMO, is the right method of approach for more advanced subs.

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#78

I have my certification exam this week. Stressed, but hopeful. Regardless of the result, knowing that I have a free retake helps a lot.

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#79

My thinking process is an intensely emotional one, where I pressure my thought-making process to produce more because of a deep-rooted fear of failure at an almost granular level. The very roots of this problem are ingrained in the deepest part of my psyche and its relationship with myself.

Not being able to think should not hurt you, because it feels as though you have this inherent pressure to “perform” in front of others, and you will be abandoned by them if you don’t do so.

Trauma forms these types of processes, but thinking about the trauma is a fruitless exercise at this point in your life.

Instead you must act.

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#80

To follow up on this point from 2 weeks ago, it is directly linked to my own self-worth being tied directly to my intellect. It also taints my interactions with others, as I value people who are intelligent exponentially more than people who aren’t.

I mentioned earlier that a girl from my adolesence and early adulthood came back into my life recently. It feels as though she is the complete anomaly to this rule in my life…why?

Loyalty. Loyalty is the only thing I value more than intellect. Good to know. Loyalty as a response and rejection of my childhood trauma, and intellect as a means of survival due to my childhood trauma.

Switching gears to the slightly juicier stuff; that girl is a problem. She’s married but I’m pretty sure that she is doing her absolute best to not cheat on her husband with me because she’s very attracted to me.

3 weeks ago, we saw each other again for the first time in almost a decade, and she would later tell me (not in person because she’s too shy) that 1) she loves how my fashion style changed completely (basically started to change in 2024) and 2) she was shocked at how much I changed, not just physically but my mentality.

She mentioned that I was much more muscular and that I had a crazy glow up. When I was comparing a picture of me back then to me now, it’s unreal - I don’t want to doxx myself on the Internet but the before and after is genuinely ridiculous. Running multiple variations of Wanted over the years has definitely had a life-changing impact, physical shifting tech works.

She’s a very attractive girl, but not my type so whatever happens doesn’t really matter to me. She was my best friend growing up so that dynamic tends to complicate things and to top it all off, we slept a few times with each other when we were 18 before we fell out. It’s clear to me that she regrets her part in that falling out, and it’s also clear to me that she’s physically attracted to me in a way that she never was when we were actually sleeping with each other.

One other thing she mentioned was how I used to be so moody and would take things personally, but I’m not like that anymore. She said something to me that no one ever told me before, but it meant a lot to me:

“You’re a man now”.

The irony is beautiful: 9 years ago I told her “you’re a woman now” because she felt intense sexual desire for the first time after I gave her her first-ever orgasm. It all comes full circle now.

Anyway, that was a reminder to me that I need to do more work as my goal is to live by myself in 2025 and that must be done - I cannot be living with my family by age 30, regardless of how comfortable my life is. Comfort isn’t where growth happens, and I need to live up to the expectation of being a man now that my actual disposition shows that as well. I need to align my lifestyle with who I am as a person.

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