Gigi goes the new khan

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#1

Hi fellas,

After a while I remembered how much khan did for me in the past (qv2) .
I feel like I’ve lost a little bit of it , so decided to go back to my authentic self the one that khan brought out of my soul.

I’ve started the latter version of khan a month ago did the 5 days washout and I’m doing stage 2 at the moment.

Stage 1 :

I don’t think I can compare it to the old one , it was a nightmare to me . I had so much turmoil in my head it felt like a storm of thought constantly banging .
So many questions doubts … It was really hard to experience .
I think the main topic was the relation I was currently in , which I realised wasn’t for me , I just had hard time with the acceptance of the situation.
Other topics came to my mind but they were not that severe .
After 21 days I did the washout and now let’s talk about st2

Stage 2 :

Started last Wednesday…
So far on lighter side compared to stage 1, but I think goals are not the same so .
Some thing are coming to my mind about finances health , diet , Workout , and relationship the brainstorming is more about concrete solutions rather than questioning I just did 4 loops (today I did two).
So let’s.see where we go from here…

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#2

Well… it’s be a while since I ha e posted something.

Long story short
I was on vacation… went to see my parents and being back my daughter to her mom.
In the mean time i made the decision to go back to stage 1 of khan that i did again for 3 weeks because I feel like I did not listen to the hint that my subconscious mind were giving during that phase living me with the feeling of underachievement.
I did my 3 weeks and now in stage 2 for 1 day newer.
let me tell you oh boy .
The first one main problem I face is addiction to porn and tobacco.
But guess what’s porn is gone, I feel a différé man the energy the drive the calmness .
As I started stage 2 the drives kicks up.
It seems that this subs build on sexual energy to make you achieve anything.
I can’t explain I just enjoy the ride.
For now st2 hits me hard I fell depressed and lonely at time but I understand it is just a step in the process soon I will be born again to this world and shine like never before .
I can fill the steel maiden man busking up in my chest . I can’t wait to see him rise ….

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#3

few days have past
now that out of porn i feel energized every day . that’s something i did not expected.
my mind is clearer.
But there is another addiction i need to get rid of just like i watched my soul change getting away of porn im getting ready for Tobacco … thus this might be a bigger challenge… or not.
As i heard somewhere , what you don’t change you choose, i star tomorrow

#4

Wen to grocery store today…
The cashier (young lady) started to talk to me about the pink october campaing for breast cancer , she told me straight to follow the medical recommandations.
In our country it has become a common joke to tell for avoid breast cancer you should lick and suck our women breast as often as possible…
My ming did not click at the moment maybe 5 minutes later i was like … what the hell just happened…

#5

I’m doing my third week and things changed a little bit
I’m experiencing some sexual urges.
Maybe the result of built-up sexual energy.
I’m dreaming about sex I think about it very often. My look woman is changing slightly. I really hope I don’t get so for some kind of sexual harassment. Can’t wait to see what stage 3 has to offer

#6

I’m about to complete the stage two cycle before the washout.
I’ve noticed starting to pop out of nowhere or also some changing their changing attitude towards me.
Let start with the coworkers…
The first one we usually get along well seems to avoid me those last weeks , can’t talk can’t look at my face runs away the few times we find ourselves in the same space. She just started to change Now she greets and she respond which is a big change coming from someone very closed like her.
The second we started dating a while ago and it did not last … so so we can still talk respectfully and professionally. We never text or talk online. Yesterday night I get a WhatsApp message like late night reaction to something I have posted , I don’t carried way but I was surprised.
The this es is an ex I have not seen for two of three years calling me to chat for whatever reasons…

I’m about to start stage 3 soon I can’t wait to see what’s it brings…